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I haven’t written in a long time. I think I need to go friends only for a while, so if there are any secret lurkers who’d like to keep reading feel free to leave a comment and I’ll add you. This...

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And day 4 of hospital visits. Monday mum had haematology clinic, all good news, still no sign of any cancerous cells, hurrah. Tuesday she had an appt with endoscopy for these oesophageal spasms t...

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I don’t know what has happened but something has. John has been super attentive this last week or so, he took me for a fancy chinese banquet last night, and when he could see I was about to crawl...

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I miss George. He was my go to guy, whenever anything was on my mind, good or bad, he was my go to guy. Xx

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I have a million questions. I have no idea where my life is going. What are we doing? Where is this going? Are you ever gonna give me 100%? Will you ever love me like I love you? What are you af...

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You guys, I’m so excited! I’m making my own website, I’ve been working on it for a while now, and i can finally link my domain name on 29/9/14 so it’ll all be up and running then. Basically I ne...

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I took myself off to the beach last night to get out of the house and try to clear my head. I took my camera along and took some grotesque photos of washed up jelly fish and dead crabs, it appeal...

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I literally don't even know where to start. I was working Friday night, and as giddy as a kid at Christmas knowing it was my last night after a long month of the things. I'd seen john earlier in ...

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One of my patients is dying. He's in his mid fifties. In the name of providing better care for families whose loved ones die in hospital, we now have access to camp beds for their loved one to sl...

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There is an open can of worms dancing around in my head, mocking me. I can't wrestle them into any sort of logical order. I feel nauseous. Whether it's the nights or just my life, I can't tell....

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I'm in the airport, Spain bound, but needed to get this down before I went. My grandad came home from hospital yesterday, for therapy at home. He's mobile, still with no speech but his cognitio...

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i should be writing my uni assignment. inevitaably it is now i've decided to update! i don't even know where to start. george passed away last sunday, eight days ago. peacefully, at home, wit...

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We went to see George today, myself, Jen and the kids. By coincidence, we arrived just as the oncologist was leaving. He'd just told George that he was looking at weeks rather than months, which ...

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Worked all day yesterday, and honestly, I was in no mood for it. Physically and emotionally drained, it's been an arduous few weeks. Popped across to see George, and he looks absolutely shockin...

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I am emotionally drained. Work has been relentless and exhausting. Just one sad case after another, breaking my heart, when it's already breaking over George. He was so hopeful when I went to s...

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i realise i haven't written in a long while. i have been reading, admittedly i haven't noted either. i've been a lurker. funny how it's always bad news that brings me back. i don't know if i'...

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Three years ago today my mum was diagnosed with acute leukaemia. Actually, strictly speaking, it was yesterday, but three years ago today is the day my dad told us, via Skype. That day is forever...

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I'm not knocked up. The cramps completely subsided, then all of a sudden, once all my symptoms had disappeared, my period showed up. I am so ready for this whole episode to be done. I spent the...

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i woke today to a ridiculous report on the news that patients who are looked after by nurses with a diploma are more likely to die than those looked after by nurses with a degree. what a complet...

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So the pregnancy test was negative. As I thought it would be. Still no period though. Not unusual, they're crazy irregular with this implant, maybe one every three months or so, with no warning u...

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I've just spent another lovely afternoon with my little goddaughter grace, and her baby brother Alfie. Grace is three soon, and she's growing up so fast. She's already independent, not wanting he...

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When I went to Laura's on Wednesday, she told me a story about andy, my ex, who I was with for six months, all the while he was secretly in love with his ex girlfriend. When we were together we...

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Oh man, this might be the birthday that breaks me. I won't have to worry about turning 30 next year because I might have been done in long before then! Lunch on Thursday with Jenna and the munch...

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when i downloaded my diary from OD it downloaded in some weird format, and to wordpad because i didn't have office on my new laptop. now i have office, and have opened the document in word, it's...

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I hated sundays for a long time. I don't even know why, I work shifts, I can't even say I have that back to work blues thing going on. sundays now are usually waking up with john, hanging out a...

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