❅journal 2019❅

by HoniBunnyCakey

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December 07, 2019


I don’t know what to do. I want to stop losing weight because I do t want to die. But my thoughts keep going back to everything, to all the work I’ve put in. I told people I’d stop but immediatel...

December 05, 2019


I’ve been trying all day to identify what caused my obsession to start but I just can’t. Rejection is plausible but also my home life is. But everything seems to make me feel fat and bloated and ...

December 04, 2019


I guess it is that. I’ve started to feel my hip bones before falling asleep, the curve and simple groove of them all. It’s nice to feel them, to poke and prod. But they feel fuller and it makes ...

December 02, 2019

Goodnight Journal

I’m upset. My diary is gone. Its all gone.

December 02, 2019


So i dont think I ever fully explained the weight thing with me. I’d say in second grade i would skip breakfast during the summer like a week long, because id just eat brunch. In eigth grade that...

December 01, 2019

Dear diary

Dear diary, I’ve been alone all day.

December 01, 2019

Early morning entry

I read all of your comments and ill take the advice you guys gave me for the long run (hopefully). Does anyone else watch hiding in my room? I don’t watch it for trolling or memes but im genuine...

November 30, 2019

About my boyfriend

Note: i know i do this a lot but this relationship will not fail, I’m literally 100% obsessed with this guy, we’re both possessive, etc it works. If this relationship where to ever fail…I’d lose ...

November 29, 2019

Dear diary

hi diary today is a day. im tired and idk…upset. im gonna go try to hallucinate or something.

November 28, 2019

The guilt is eating me up insi

I feel so horrible for not texting her. The night before she overdosed we where supoosed to text and call, she really wanted to talk and i just didn’t. And now that she’s back from the hospital ...

November 27, 2019

Weird day

I think I’m jealous. I don’t know, there are sometimes I feel so angry that someone else is talking to the person I want to, i want to go to over to them and smash their head into a wall. I’m li...

November 27, 2019


So my friend’s back from the hospital. I honestly felt zero emotion when she texted me, i think my body was just exhuasted. My mind to. I remember constantly checking to see if she’d text me back...

November 27, 2019

Work work work

So I make subliminal videos ^°^ This is something I’ve been doing since late-mid august and just never stopped. It’s fun to make them, though other people who do are like jerks and annoying. They...

November 26, 2019

Letting someone read the diary

“Wow.” This is what my boyfriend said after reading this diary. I decided to allow someone in my personal life read and find out everything. I was extremely nervous, like I shaking when i sent th...

November 24, 2019


I feel so lonely I wanna cry my eyes out.

November 21, 2019


Its been a fight with Will. He’s told me ive ripped out his heart and shredded it. He’s dying but he won’t let me help. He seems to hate me…

November 20, 2019

A summary of the past week

The week’s been okay so far, i guess. Compared to the past month it’s been great. I have another boyfriend, I know I know “wow surprise” I know. The relationship is good, despite me being crazy....

November 20, 2019


sorry I had to laugh. I kinda started hardcore hallucinating but it’s fine. Its fine so fucking fine.

November 20, 2019

Cold again

Im freezing becuase no panties and my coats shit. Rip

October 31, 2019

Dear Will

We’ve been friends for so long, and you went threw so much pain. I feel so horrible for all the things I now know and the way i treated you. I feel like my anger towards you had been so childish....

This new sub we got is a annoying. She’s one of those old woman who get angered easily and kinda snappy with you. It doesn’t help the freshman in my class are assholes and disobey her every chanc...

October 08, 2019

Have to do this

Everything in my body is telling me I have to do this, but also it’s telling me that what I’m doing is wrong. I don’t like manipulating others, I don’t like hurting others. But sometimes you hav...

October 08, 2019

Well Shit

The delusions have come back. Welp…

October 07, 2019

Relationship is Fixed

So, my boyfriend and I have fixed everything! I’m so happy, you cannot believe the stress it took off of my already heavy shoulders. There’s some more things though ahhh imma blush. Now I call hi...

October 06, 2019

Attention Starved

I really am at this point (⌐■-■)

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A journal of my personal entries and thoughts locked up in one, soft booklet.