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July 12, 2019

By. The. Balls.

I am feeling so ready to just grab life by the balls.


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July 01, 2019

Gratitude.

Have I written about gratitude before? I donā€™t know. But Iā€™m going to right now because itā€™s what is on my mind. Feeling and expressing gratitude is incredibly important to me. It keeps me away f...


July 01, 2019

Hard Day.

This was a hard day at work, but itā€™s a hard day in another, more profound way. In a somewhat unexpected way. These are the days that are going to be the hardest for me. Hard day at work and all ...


June 22, 2019

Bulletproof.

Your love feels like armor. Aw jeez, Iā€™m feeling cheesy. You make me feel all cheesy. All the happy chemicals are flowing through my brain, seemingly 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Nothing can t...


June 21, 2019

Who I Am.

Maybe Iā€™m an enabler. Maybe I donā€™t know how to be unkind, even to people who donā€™t deserve my kindness. Maybe I donā€™t know how to be without compassion and empathy, even for people who donā€™t des...


June 21, 2019

Empowered.

Find a person who makes you feel empowered. Invincible. Undoubtedly loved, admired, and respected. Desired is pretty fucking nice, too. Find a person that, no matter how hard you look at them, yo...


June 21, 2019

Dear You,

I owe you an apology. I said I wouldnā€™t take sides and yet, somehow, I found myself taking a side. It was the wrong side to take. Heā€™s an abuser, girl. Make this time the last time you dump his a...


June 18, 2019

Dear You,

You came into my life when I needed a friend something fierce. You invited me into your circle, into your life, and suddenly I had so many new friends and I finally felt like I was in a place I f...


June 17, 2019

ADHD Mania.

Thatā€™s what I got going on! I can definitely feel the mania ramping up and my ADHD is in overdrive. I canā€™t focus on anything for more than a few minutes or even seconds. My brain is on fire. L...


June 17, 2019

Dysfunctional.

I wasnā€™t raised in a dysfunctional family in the traditional sense of dysfunctional, I think. But I was definitely dysfunctional and so were most of my family members individually. My family was ...


June 16, 2019

She is me.

There have always been things I was interested in, things I wanted to try, see, do. Iā€™ve also always restrained myself in so many ways for so many reasons, the biggest two being low self-esteem a...


June 15, 2019

Love Hard.

I donā€™t know how to love a little. I love hard, with all that I am. Yeah, thatā€™s not a good thing, folks. At least, it hasnā€™t been. Iā€™ve had a real bad habit of throwing myself into another perso...


June 12, 2019

Abused.

Reading this today on Facebook stunned me speechless for a moment. This is how Iā€™ve lived my entire adult life, accepting abuse with love because thatā€™s all Iā€™ve ever known. I think my mind has ...


June 12, 2019

Rage.

Itā€™s whatā€™s for dinner. Iā€™ve had a few random bursts of almost uncontrollable rage today. That hasnā€™t happened in a very long time, many months. Maybe even years. Itā€™s been a long time since Iā€™ve...


He says that a lot. ā€œWeā€™ll figure things out in a way that makes sense.ā€ And, you know, we will. Everything about us makes sense, so why wouldnā€™t we be able to figure things out in a way that als...


He baked me banana bread, yaā€™ll. A man. Baked. Banana bread. For me. Take note, boys. Bitches love banana bread. And not just any old banana bread, no sir. Special fancy banana bread baked with ...


June 09, 2019

Polyamory

I saw a comment on a Facebook post that said something like, ā€œIā€™m not straight but my partner is.ā€ That hit me right in the feels because that has been every relationship Iā€™ve ever been in. Iā€™m b...


June 06, 2019

420

I drove away from you that day thinking Iā€™d probably never see you again. I didnā€™t want to be thinking that, but I was. There was this idea in my head that said, ā€œWhat an amazing, fairy-tale, dre...


June 06, 2019

Four Years Ago.

If I donā€™t stand up for myself, Iā€™m weak, a doormat. If I do speak up, Iā€™m being a bitch. If I keep quiet about my feelings, Iā€™m bottling them up. If I let them out, if Iā€™m honest with someone ab...


June 04, 2019

Deprivation.

I spent the majority of my childhood feeling deprived of affection. My family was just not very expressive about emotion, either verbally or physically. I just donā€™t really remember a lot of hugs...


June 03, 2019

Men Are Garbage.

Yeah, yeah, I know, #NotAllMen. Just fucking save it, eh? I was giving a friend a ride home tonight (technically last nightā€¦ I havenā€™t slept yet.) and I said damn, we should have stopped for an a...


June 03, 2019

Life Partner.

I have had 2 men in my adult life that I genuinely believed, for a good period of time, would be in my life forever, as my husband, my friend, my lover, my co-parent, my life partner. Sperm Dono...


May 31, 2019

Partner.

Thatā€™s all Iā€™ve ever really wanted, you know? That one person I could always count on to have my back when I really needed them. Someone to learn and grow with, and grow old with. I just donā€™t t...


May 30, 2019

#MeToo

I havenā€™t really participated in this whole #metoo thing. I mean, Iā€™veā€¦ well, I read a lotā€¦ but I never told my story. I couldnā€™t. No way could I Tweet it or Facebook it orā€¦ I mean, I talked abou...


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