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Jan. 7th, 2020
I feel like ass tonight. Ended up drinking again when I got off work. Some days I want sobriety and some days I don’t. The shift isn’t so bad currently. Mostly sitting on my butt browsing Re...
Don't Beat Yourself Up
I was off Friday night so I stayed up all day, got a new bag of weed (really good stuff), watched a bunch of YouTube vids with my man’s gf then went home and actually clocked in seven straight ho...
Christmas Chocolate
I’m munching on the last of the Christmas candy. Currently stretched out on the couch with the heating on my back. CTV took the A Team off the morning programming block. About the only TV jo...
Befuddled
I suddenly (eh, all day) don’t want to work tonight. Kinda feel in the dumps. I don’t know…I really hurt someone and I can’t get it out of my head. I’m waiting on this sleeping pill to hopefu...
Happy New Year!
I was off last night so I spent it curled up on the couch catching up on sleep. Didn’t celebrate or party or anything. Just rest. I knew it had passed midnight when I heard fireworks (or gunshot...
And In Old Pictures You Seem Happier At Least...
2019 can fuck right off! Been a bad year. Was a terrible person and lost three close friendships because of which. My New Year’s Resolution? Be a better person. Being called a manipulative womani...
Doctor Who?
I didn’t have to work last night so I stayed up and put together one of my Lego sets watching the Doctor Who holiday marathon on BBCA. I’ve not seen a lot of these in a long time since Netflix t...
Christ-mess
Oh god I wanna puke. Mom fixed a small feast for my aunt and I. Ate my weight in ham and dressing. Got two Star Wars Lego sets under the tree. XD Merry Christmas folks d
Dec. 22nd, 2019
I ended up having to work Friday night. Imagine my lack of surprise when the first shift guy didn’t show on Saturday morning. So I stayed till 7:45 instead of leaving at 7 ish like I normally d...
Dec. 19th, 2019.
Today would have been dad’s 71st birthday. Wow. I’m still sick but going to work tonight. I was able to get up and do a load of laundry and dishes so at least I’ve got a little energy. Satu...
Warmed Over Poo
Is how I feel right now. Doc did a strep and flu test. Negative on both. So just a bad cold. Right nostril was gushing blood a few times earlier. Ugh I hate being sick. After the doc I went ...
Mouth Breathing
My cold has come back full force and I feel like shit. Taking the night off from work. Will see the doc in the morning.
Candygram For Mongo!
Ugh, I wish I snagged a handful of Jolly Ranchers before I left the house. Throat’s just a teense bit sore. My coughing fits have subsided but I’m still not feeling 100%. Still lethargic in so...
Dec. 16th, 2019 4:27 AM
I want to thank everyone for the encouraging notes on me trying to get sober. I did drink Saturday afternoon after all the shopping was done. Didn’t have work that night and was free the rest o...
Dec. 13th, 2019 (Friday The 13th OoOoOo)
So my boy what’s driving the craving today? Well I got to thinking about the drink last hour or so of work. The idea just lingered as I kept reminding myself the craving is only in your head. ...
Dec. 12th 2019
I was asked (moreso told) to work Friday night/Saturday morning. Yeah it’s OT and I need the cash but I had plans Saturday. Gift shop for my brother and SIL, go to the flea market, pizza dinner...
Who Cares?
Tonight I am depressed and sick of third shift. I’d like to be back home in my bed hiding beneath the blanket forgetting that the outside world even exists. And I’m a bit hungry…
Well Now
It’s weird just how quickly my body adapts to sleep at night up in the morning. Like a sane person I cooked out last night. BBQ chicken breast, mashed potatoes, corn cobs, green beans (for mom...
Ditched
I ended up calling in tonight. Slept like the dead. So needed it.
That Sucked
So a flat tire when I went to leave work. Then Pep Boy’s tells me I need all new tires. THEN as I’m getting into bed I notice a wet spot. One of my cats decided to mark territory. It was after 2...
ARGH!
Evil forces are conspiring against me. Instead of bed I’m at Pep Boy’s getting new tires after a flat this morning… 😵
They Don't Love You Like I Love You
I was pried out of a deep sleep in my roasty toasty bed fifteen till ten. Argh! When I stepped outside I immediately got a chill in my bones. Had the heater on full blast till I got to work. S...
Word
Nights like tonight I wish I had a gf . I want to be held. That is all…
Happy Thanksgivimg
Yeah yeah happy 🦃 day and all that jazz. Going to my aunt’s for food. Cousin is making the turkey with a brine she used last year. Drool… If all goes well we’ll hit the Tinsel Trail after. The...
Tangle Of Anxiety
This is eating me up inside. Last week I screwed up again and drunkenly left the house. Yes, arrested again. Every time a bit of normalcy comes into my life I have to screw it up. I got no answ...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
