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11:15 PM
Fell into a depressive state tonight. I’m feeling somewhat better now but it’s a melatonin night. Hope I sleep.
One Month!!!
Yup yup yup! One month sober. struts stuff
Da Bluez
Weekend is too short. Been kinda depressed tonight. Feel like I wasted my weekend though I got laundry done and cooked last night. Then earlier a few Beach Boys songs came on the playlists and ...
Late Night Crack Itch
No, I’m not itching because of crack nor am I scratching my crack. (Ha!) Dry skin hardcore tonight. I’ve already lotioned up twice. Did not do any of what I mentioned in the last entry. Sure,...
It's Medicine, Baby!
New job is still cool. I forgot that smoke breaks on day shift can be nice. Lots of sun and a nice breeze. Plus the three main females I work with are laid back and laugh at my dumb jokes. 😁🤓 ...
If I Had The Chance
I’d force the world to dance While I’m playing with myself Who hoa hoa Playing with myself 😁 New job is cool. Same machine I ran at the last place so not too bad. Three weeks off booze.
Tummy
Ugh…my stomach started hurting after I wrote and since then my ass is splooting out chocolate pudding. Nice visual, eh?
It Keeps Gettin' Funnier
EVERY TIME I SEE IT! No, not Beetlejuice talking about the Exorcist. Just Cheech and Chong Last night and tonight I got a craving for the bottle. Stop drinking Sub Reddit helped plus I ask myse...
Two Mutha Fuckin' Weeks Bitches!
It’s one forty-two AM so I’m counting this as Tuesday. Two weeks sober! sexy dance Today (Monday) was a pain in the ass. Got up and drank down the cleansing drink I got at the head shop. (Wan...
One Of Those Days
Woke up way too early. Been alone all day. Bummed out for some reason. Nothing I’ve done/think of doing has offered solace to these feelings. Meh…
Things N Stuff
Since March 1st, Fat Tuesday, I have been sober. I just had a solid poop instead of liquid Hellfire. Monday I take a drug test and turn in the offer letter with my signature for the new job. I ...
Lazy Wednesday
Used my BAM gift card today on two books. Sat and read The Ghost Tree in it’s entirety throughout the day. Good horror novel. Been cold and gray outside, good to sit inside and be warm n lazy. ...
So Much For A Good Night's Rest
I woke up a little over an hour ago. It’s almost four AM now. Instead of grilling last night we got take out. Mom, her egg foo young and me, large egg drop soup (which I’m finishing now) and an...
Two Teeth And Four Stitches Later
I’m back at home. Got gauze tucked up where I had the teeth removed. First one came out smooth, second cracked and the doc spent close to twenty minutes (plus a ten minute breather) fishing out ...
5:45 AM
Ended up leaving the dentist’s office a voice mail about squeezing me in today or meds. The migraine is gone but it still hurts. It’s like there is a piece of food stuck in it and I keep tongui...
Cavity
I’ve got a cavity that hurts so bad it’s given me a migraine. Dentist appointment is Tuesday. I hope I can hold out. OTC pills aren’t helping.
A Bit Intoxicated
I’m watching Queen’s Live Aid performance. I so wish my dad was alive. I’d beat him to death with a hammer. “Fuck Queen. That singer was a faggot.” That’s how I was raised. I heard the n wor...
Meow Mix!
https://www.reddit.com/r/boopablenosies/comments/t0jc2h/lily_needs_a_boop/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share Yeah yeah, can’t really figure out posting images. That’s my baby kitty Lily...
Hot Damn!
I made the chicken Pho recipe tonight. On par with the restaurant’s. Next time I’ll get a steak and cut it real thin. I’m full and can taste each individual spice that went into the dish. NOM!
2/22/22
Ow! Brain freeze! Dr. Pepper Icee today. Just got in from Publix. Picked up the essentials to make chicken Pho at home. Gonna try it tomorrow night. Just need to locate a bottle of fish sauce...
Wah Hoo
After some Nyquil and a nice uninterrupted slumber, I woke up feeling tons better.
Oh This Sucks
I’m running a fever and have been coughing since about 8 PM. Never been sick on my birthday. Cross off the bucket list I guess.
This Getting Older Crap Is Getting Old
39 years old today. Woo! Woke up phlegmy with a gnarly sore throat. Also, no clue what I did but my left rib cage hurts like a bitch. I can feel it every time I take a breath. Mom treated me t...
That Went Well
We FINALLY got the restaurant Viet House right. Oh my pastafari! The Pho dish I had was amazing. It’s a very small establishment. Only open for less than a year. I did comment that it’s weir...
Too Drunk To Dream
About 10 PM last night I laid here, full tummy, very tired, fading in and out. I was ready for my slumber. Only problem is the few times I fell asleep only lead to nightmares. After about the t...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
