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Lewis Black And Other Musings
The show last night was funny just the audio sucked. When he was speaking softly I couldn’t really make out what he was saying but when he started his ranting and yelling I could hear him fine. ...
Eggplant Parm Rocks
Mom cooked last night. Ended up eating two plates as I was super hungry. Ended up eating the last just a few minutes ago for lunch. My withdrawal symptoms are getting better. I’m very tired ri...
Rage Monster Update
I’m so fucking irritable today. I want my vape. 6:07 PM I’ve calmed down a lot. Mom and I did breakfast at Blue Plate Cafe, went shopping and generally enjoyed the nice weather. After so muc...
Let's Boogie!
Court. I’m not on probation but am on color code. I have to called a number EVERYDAY and if my color comes up I go to widdle in a cup at the courthouse. Judge told me to check out New Horizons...
In My Head
As the title says, I’ve been in my head all night. Why I suck at relationships, would I have gotten married, it sure would’ve been nice to get help for my mental health a long time ago… Ya, thin...
1994
Jesus Found Me And Touched Me Deep Down Inside
At least guitarist was rocking out like he was in KISS! And yet dad wondered why I laughed my ass off at this, stating, “It’s a good Christian song!!!!” My dad was a computer programmer for NAS...
Almost at 30 Hours Awake
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
Almost at 30 Hours Awake
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
UGH!!!
I’m still awake. Made teriyaki chicken and shrimp for dinner last night. After we ate and I finished dinner we discussed food tonight. Ended up going to Publix to get Caesar salad mix and flo...
So Tired...
As the title says, I’m so tired but can’t fall asleep. It’s 3:31 AM. Please shoot me
Undercover Break
Hiding under my blanket currently. I’m safe here. No monsters can touch me. I’m forcing myself to take a break from the internet for a bit. Mostly Reddit and YouTube. I’ll read articles and w...
Late Dinner
Tilapia fillet and bacon wrapped scallops. Yum yum! I purchased some cranberry juice cause my kidney (groin area?) hurt a bit. It seems to have done the trick. I hardly slept today…figures. ...
Ugh-Ola
My lower intestine started hurting a bit earlier. Luckily the feel has passed. However my lower back is aching, as per usual. I watched an interesting doc on survival bunkers. They interview...
Feelin' Hot Hot Hot
I’m burning up. Just turned the AC on. I’ve been lost in thought today. I go back to court on May 2nd. Dr. Gilbert is pushing for me to do inpatient rehab. I’m ready. I’m tired of feeling ...
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Dear Rainbow Bright
Yet More Pain
I have a habit of sitting what they call Indian style. But instead of tucking my feet below my legs I sit with my left foot under my right knee. It puts pressure on said foot if I’m not careful...
Guilty Of Being White
I watched this when it first came out. I’m still angry about it. Fuck young people. Welcome to Earth. Life fucking sucks. Deal with it.
Happy 4/20 Y'all
I didn’t forget. Just been a long day. 😁😁😁
12:30 AM
I’m beat tonight. We were out of the house for close to five hours this afternoon. Hit up some stores at the Jones Valley shopping center. Then went to the AMC theater in back of the center and...
Back Home
BP was through the roof and my anxiety was out of control. The gave me an IV and some potassium pills. Plus the nurse gave me a shot, don’t remember what but after a few minutes I was heavily r...
Stupid Is As Stupid Does
I relapsed hard last night. Said horrifying things to New Friend and probably ruined that friendship. Something feels really off tonight. I can’t stop shaking (not just hands, whole body) and...
I Have No Mouth, And I Must Scream
Written and passionately read by Harlan Ellison
Jellied Legs
Another crappy sleep. It’s 8 AM and I just got in from a two mile walk. It was 44 F out and I walked in a t-shirt and shorts because I’m a masochist. Honestly though I feel better. Moving aro...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
