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Guess the Emotion
It’s a new game I’m playing. Pretty much all the time. When I have the time, anyways. That’s not entirely true. I’m well aware of my ability to DO absolutely anything and everything in order to ...
Now I remember.
Why I decided that being open and honest and genuine with people is just the worst. People are catty and mean. They are selfish, and self serving. The general public is also just plain ignorant....
Apparently, I need more Fluff.
My therapist told me to use more fluff- as in emotional reasoning to connect- to dampen my communicative approach. Which is completely frustrating. You don’t reason with emotions, first of all. ...
It's Ironic
“Spare the rod, spoil the Child,” Ironic that an age old proverb is used to defend a barbaric practice that we’d rather not examine. An oxymoron, really. This proverb must be taken out of context...
On Choice.
I had an interesting discussion with DH yesterday. Like a hardcore 2.5 hour in depth sharing about our family dynamics. My concerns in the conversation really centered around the stance that h...
My face
always seems to do it’s own thing. They say the eyes are the window to the soul. I don’t know what the face is a window to. But for me at least, it seems to be a window to some inner world with ...
So I'm Told...
I did start therapy. At first I didn’t know exactly why I’d started it, but I’ve quickly realized I have massive emotional dissociation or disconnect. “To put it simply, emotional dissociation i...
Horsing Around
Rode my boy yesterday - not the OTTB I’m working but MY BOY. lol. I love him so much. Horses are amazing. Yeah, it all sounds so romantic, I’m sure, to someone who’s never experienced the comple...
On Writing
I think I may have made up my mind to actually write. I’ve been writing since I knew how- about the 3rd grade to be precise. Not journals, or letters, or anything- but long form novels. I’ve nev...
Happy 4th..
Working 12 hour days, in between hauling calves, chickens and horse sale calls, my car blew a piston. Happy Summer, y’all. It’s hot as balls and I would LOVE to go for a swim, but no car… and D...
Stuck
Feels like I’m going nowhere. Days pass. They turn to weeks, and still I’m stuck. I really relate to this song rn. Not really pimpin, just the tone and feel.
Bogged Down
It’s Father’s Day. I should try to keep my own thoughts and feelings to myself and just enjoy a nice day with family. But, isn’t that exactly what my parents tried for my entire life to train me...
argh.
I really truly love being an equestrian because I truly love horses. We had a simply marvelous ride today. I got a shoulder-in on both reins and we went to the next level of working trot. It was ...
Anger & Resentment
So idk how y’all are on the woo-woo stuff. Some of it has some grounds in actual physiology and real measureable effects… most of it seems to me like a religious story made up to explain the inex...
John Wick 3
Was great. Saw it twice actually. I love Keanu Reeves, but I doubly love the roles he plays. Neo in the Matrix with all the guns and Karate of course, but John Wick is by far his best character....
Mute
Did anyone ever take interest in your thoughts, feelings and experiences as a child? I can’t remember anyone asking me directly. I did often express myself in various ways- to which mom responded...
The Unchosen Single Life
I’m always sort of ..... I don’t really know what to call it. Horrified? Yes, let’s call it horrified, when these things happen. Every time someone in my life chooses the wrong person to get mar...
Simply Pellucid
is the name of my new home-bred jr buck. I’m super proud of him; he’s absolutely gorgeous. His dam, Clarity, is killing it in the milk parlor too. It’s gratifying when dedication to quality breed...
Unconventional Entry
I wanted to write about a particular topic today but my mind is sort of all… fuzzy. I slept in today and it’s really nice out. It’s hot, which I don’t consider particularly nice, but there isn’t...
Yo
BTW, Prosebox.... these double entries are really annoying.
Yo
BTW, Prosebox.... these double entries are really annoying.
Five Facts Thingy
Five facts about your current relationship 1. We’ve known each other since forever (like 5 year olds) but only seriously knew each other or hung out until early 20’s. 2. His cousin was my absolu...
Why NOT be the best you Can be,
an honest look. Reason #1: It’s Hard. Reason #2: The results aren’t stellar. Especially at first. Here we have to pause for a moment because, while no one can make a (good) argument that this i...
Realizing Adulthood
is simply taking an honest look. A really honest look. Look into all the places you were scared to look as a child. Into the dark corner of your bedroom. At the inky dark space made by the close...
NVC... Does it Work?
I read about NVC (Nonviolent Communication) as a resource in a natural parenting book. So I booked DH (bless him, even though he complained the WHOLE time, lol) and I for a beginners couples clas...
Book Description
Thoughts, and Whatever else.