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The feeling I get when I have sadness, grief, anger, or any “negative” emotion is to become anxious and worried about how it will affect those around me. It is an immediate response. Oh no- I’m ...

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I talked to DH for almost an hour and he didn’t run away! I feel like we both got to voice our side/opinion and how we felt. The emotions were negative ones, but we both have a lot of negative em...

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1) What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone? Living up to it 2) Did you accept or deny your last friend request? Deny, probably. I don’t remember but I don’t add many ...

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I brought the value argument to DH for how I perceive him. Because of lack of direct communication, I’m forced to merely witness his value system through his actions. He said that he understood. ...

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Always I am cognizant and critical of others’ faults. I continually scan people for their faults, and ignore or take for granted their positive aspects and virtues. It would seem to me that I reg...

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So I decided to tell my therapist about my mom today. I really like my therapist because she is level headed and, I think, very objective. I told her that I’m not looking to be ‘supported’, but r...

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Sometimes I really do wonder. I know they say that if you can ask that question, you’re not insane. But then I wonder if they say that as a consolation for the insane. After all, the insane are...

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You comfort me and hold me while I have no one else. You’re here with me even others are close. You guard me against their efforts to come between us. You are a jealous friend; never letting me l...

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How not to talk to your loved ones, rule #1; Tell them what to do! Yes indeed, tell them that you know exactly what they’re doing wrong, and try to control the situation. It always ends in disast...

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I was telling a friend how I was grieving the mentoring that I never got as a child, teenager or even young adult. I feel like I am learning all the things right now that should have been instil...

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I resent having to ask the hard questions and then getting attacked for it. We have a great conversation about our son’s naming- my hero and idol in the realm of science, a certain Austrian doct...

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My Dad showed up at my house the other day without any warning. He didn’t call, didn’t text, never mentioned that he wanted to stop by at all. In fact I didn’t even realize that it was him until ...

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is uncovering everything that went wrong with my childhood. And if I do not condemn that, I will not change. If I don’t internalize the condemnation of evil, wrong, or abusive actions, then I wi...

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the things that I never knew existed. It’s sort of like walking around all your life with holes in your pockets. And then discovering a new pair of pants with intact pockets. Nothing falls out. ...

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It feels really good. I feel like you care. I feel like you want to be around. I feel wanted. I feel valued. And I know it’s just as much my fault when I don’t feel this way. I know that I can b...

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This morning I was making coffee and I began to ponder. I pondered and I thought and I pondered. (Yes I’ve been reading Winnie the Pooh to my son lately, lol) I wondered why my mother told me th...

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That’s what my mom said to me yesterday. When I asked her about what choices she thought she didn’t have. When I pushed and prodded and dug and tried to uncover the real reason for her abandonme...

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I find it very annoying that you come back with these excuses. I have noticed this pattern repeating in fashion for the last year or so, since we began talking about my childhood. You said to me...

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I realize now that I bonded with animals when I was very young. What brought on this realization was observing how our mutual pet cats effortlessly bring out excitement, affection, adoration, an...

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I feel like I’ve fallen down a deep dark hole, but perhaps not as bad as it could be. That’s how I always feel, though. In he depths of depression, I deny my own pain and focus on self erasure. ...

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is my world, now. He wasn’t before, but he is now. And I’m actually okay with that. I’m quite frankly in love with that. I really love the fact that I can think about HIM and HIS needs, what HE w...

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My default is to forestall feeling my emotions before I even have a chance of being aware they’re there. I found a great place to start expressing myself where I feel safe enough to accept feedba...

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Attention. Holding a background & foreground of ideas, opinions, feelings, etc, of opposing views is a mark of maturing attention. “On the other hand,”, “In contrast..”, “I’m angry with you b...

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Babe slept 6 hours straight for the 3rd night in a row. I’m so happy. We had a big day yesterday. An almost 5 hour round trip to go pick up a cow. Yes, I bought a cow with my stimulus money =’D ...

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If you don’t know what it is, look it up. You won’t be disappointed. For the last year and a half, I have been slowly making our house less health antagonistic. Ie, had DH rewire the old ungroun...

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