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Do you think 19 panic attacks a day is normal? I hit a point the other day when I thought I was having a heart attack because my chest was so tight. I spent the last few days hiding in a video ga...

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I was up early so I got a head start on my morning and I didn’t give myself enough time to overthink or hesitate about leaving the house. I got my energy and vibrations up and I headed to the gro...

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It’s 4:30 in the morning and I’m writing this entry because my reality is a little broken at the moment. I know that I’m awake but my head does not know if I am real. This does not feel real. I w...

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According to Mel Robbins, I need to recognize my initial physical reaction to fear so that I can recognize when I need to assert control. For me, it’s in my chest. My heart will drop and then sta...

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Psychosis? Or spiritual awakening? I kept myself up until four in the morning because I could not turn my brain off. I haven’t filled my prescription yet that my doctor gave me. It doesn’t feel r...

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A fire was lit under my ass after Vita fell through. It didn’t fall through completely, the one in my old neighbourhood is hiring and I just emailed them my resume. Due to that falling through I ...

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I am trying so hard to be calm right now. My hands are just shaking right now. Did I have too much coffee? Is it because I fell asleep hungry and then woke up hungry and then waited six hours bef...

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Every time that I think I am over it something happens and all of my scars open. The indignities and injustices that we all suffered when I reported that predator from my last place of employment...

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I’m a stranger in my own life I don’t know how else to describe what I’ve been feeling like these last few weeks. These lyrics came on right when I started my car and I was like… yes. That’s it. ...

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My mind keeps trying to tell me lies that Vita will not hire me because of this or that. I won’t let it. I’m going to call them today. The manager didn’t get in until noon yesterday so I will wai...

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I woke up pretty determined about not thinking too big today. To just think about the next steps. To not think about my problems but to think about my solutions and to be excited about all of the...

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In the last three years, I’ve saved 4, 413, 714 litres of water 2968 sqm of forest 1060 animal lives 19186 kg of grain 9646 kg of Co2

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I don’t think wine and I can friends. I figured that I would treat myself and buy some the other day and it did not serve me well. My depression was crippling me yesterday. I think that the wine ...

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Christina Lopes, from YouTube, was able to help break down my experience here so beautifully with these six stages. I’ve mansplained them down a bit. I am so happy that I stumbled on to this. I f...

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When your body needs water what do you feel? Thirsty. When your body needs sustenance what do you feel? Hungry. When your body needs sleep what do you feel? Tired. When you need to grow what do y...

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I was completely crushed by my A&D yesterday. They both hit me at once. I remembered what RuPaul said in an interview when he was asked if there was one thing that he could say to kids today ...

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It finally sunk in that Miranda & her addict boyfriend used my name to create a hydro account at their last house. Hydro is slang, that’s what we call an electric bill in my part of the world...

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I think that I need to ease up on myself. I feel as though I am supposed to solve all of my problems overnight. I’m rumbling with a lot of emotions and old habits and this process can take time. ...

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Oh Today I’m just a drop of water and I’m running down a mountainside. Come tomorrow I’ll be in the ocean. I’ll be rising with the morning tide. -Gabrielle Aplin I’m feeling existential today. I...

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I was feeling pretty good yesterday. Miranda made it into town and she got to see her support system. It’s not been easy for her to have anything of her own because of her boyfriend’s disease. Hi...

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Mood Forecast: Bubbly with a chance of shade. I’m feeling great. I’m really addicted to this high vibration. I hate when I lose it. It’s such a long way down now. It’s like I’m excited instead of...

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Hetal is moving to Ontario on the 30th. I am planning a little goodbye party for her. She really wants to take me with her. She would totally make it so easy too. She’s probably already hired a m...

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I am vibrating at the lowest of frequencies. Shame and fear. I am such an idiot. I keep talking about a lawyer and it didn’t even cross my mind that I am going to have to pay that lawyer. I was o...

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I dreamt about my old work again. Thus, I woke up thinking about it all and it actually feels like a fresh wound. It’s been seven months. Learning that Mel lost her job made me feel dirty. I’m no...

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A life coach. That is what I could use right now. I could use somebody on my side right now as I can’t seem to get up the nerve to take any form of action in my life. It’s been seven months now s...

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