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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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How safe are you and, can you be of any benefit to me? That the feeling I had when entering the group. “You can trust me.” Oh, okay. Just let me set aside all my discernment, then! I clearly don...
Do you ever feel like in Journal
Everything is becoming Meta? Like. I can’t just feel my feelings - I apparently feel (or imagine I feel) what Feelings as an archetype are. It’s become an experience of experience. And I don’t...
Why Wouldn't I in Journal
Be me? I drank a cup of coffee at 5pm. FIVEPM WHY DID I DO IT So naturally I’m tired but VIGILANT. lol. It’s actually almost my normal bedtime. So not too late. I find it weird…? How I can ...
Interesting convo in Journal
Just now, Questioning whether I identify with wounded scripts. I say no. I identify with my choices. Which includes the choice not to identify with past programming. How do I know which is true...
Are completely annoying and entitled… Lol Look at me all judgemental. I just read a tirade from a woman complaining about feeling judged and she’s humble bragging about a week in bali without h...
I'm just awful in Journal
At being female. I need to do something about it. I recognize it. I’m not warm or comforting or anything. Idk what to say when people bring things up. I mean unless they directly ask or tell me...
and swirling and coming back around. I wasn’t even dizzy. My dreams, all night, were all about circling and whirling and coming back around. The dream was vague, I guess, except for a few ...
Addiction in A Childhood Lost
I should not have brought chocolate into the house. At least, not a Dark chocolate almond bar. I seem to have increased resistance to chocolate chips- I also always get dark chocolate chips. But...
The Great Burden I carried blindly. Completely unaware that it was on my back. It wasn’t until I listened to a description of that aurum constitution that I was like. Huh. Isn’t that just how p...
It seriously feels like several years between now and March 21st. Yeas. Several. WHEW Anywho. Man can I see everything. It’s uh,… weird. I just got a remedy today called Aurum. Homeopathic G...
Do I, though? in Journal
A dear friend took her precious time and resources to speak to me respectfully, firmly, the other day. Which I do appreciate. One of the things she told me that “we must feel emotions, not int...
Zooming Out in Journal
from that heart-centered place, where the light of heaven shines its consciousness down into my mind, allowing my eye to witness the living Heart that is my own Soul enlivening my body moment by...
It's a feeling of Entitlement in Journal
That I feel that comes up when it comes to family. Parents, spouses, etc. in the ego-identified state, that is. Because the ego may be very guarded, almost guaranteed it is, it wants to be secur...
This wasn't a Dream in Dreams
because I was awake I wonder how much of my childhood I spent in that state. Dreaming, sort of, but not really, because I’m not actually sleeping. I endured a lot of sleep trauma as a child. I ...
& submission A friend recommended to me Zak Roedd. I read whole book today. I feel quite sheepish. The transparency of what is/was happening in light of his paradigm is just… Well. It’s th...
Am I so dead set on just running the hamster wheel? Even after doing so much and feeling like on a roll, I have these thoughts of… “Now he’ll finally want me” or ” this will fix it so I can sta...
My own problem And I need to get out of my own way
Has anyone in Journal
else started to feel a profound sense of joy, peace, love, satisfaction and happiness!? Idk if I’m just on the right vibe right now or if everyone is feeling this? Lmk 🙂
Last week I did the inner work to receive the love from my parents that I was heretofore unable to receive. Then my mom emailed me out of the blue the next day (within 12 hours) and apologized ...
Spoken Too Soon in Journal
WOW is this sad. Mom, with all due respect and all that, you need to WAKE THE FUCK UP. Your email is very sad, victimized, and helpless. You’re in you’re what-? 60’s? Holy Hell, woman. You’r...
People are dropping in Journal
Off. And popping up. In this very meditative week- marked on one side by the 100th anniversary of the death of Steiner on the 30th, and the beginning of a new century of conscious spiritual de...
Getting there in Journal
Feels so freeing without all the weight. Naysayers are not part of my design. Get on board or get out.
Wow you guys missed out in Journal
I had an amazing entry and prosebox lost it It was great. Anywho, hahahaha I’ve been thinking about alignment a lot. I’m a pretty… unique? human being just compared to the status quo for a l...
MOLY Is my brain on fire. I almost typed faire? Fairy? It certainly does feel otherworldly. I just realized, today, like a few minutes ago, that our fate is so tied up in our awareness that...
Do you believe in Journal
In magic? I had heard about Family Constellations. It’s been on my list of things to look into. Sometimes it takes me awhile to get around to the stuff in my list. Sometimes I rearrange it and...
