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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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Self Worth, Pt 2 in Journal
It’s funny how Some things are SO simple it makes you scream on the other side of clarity. Talking to DH today, I felt my self worth. It was palpable. I notice it because it is so different f...
Processing Fear, Pt 2 in Journal
I spoke on this a bit ago, and it is still the case that I cannot access my Terror. I reflected that perhaps the Terror was not mine, but perhaps a thing from outside. And maybe that was why I...
Something Above in Meditations
Last night I became aware a feeling. I hadn’t taken care of the rabbits, yet. I considered not doing it. It was late. I was already in bed. I was very sleepy. There was a feeling that was fam...
Self Worth in Journal
and Resentment. I am learning about myself anew, it feels like. No longer is my self-worth tied to the opinions or the treatment of others. Formatively, my parents. Amazingly, my resentment o...
Tension of in Meditations
Conflict It’s in my neck. Coming out. More and more each day. I encourage it to come. It is release. Last night, I prayed meditatively for Christ and the Angels to heal my inheritance. First ...
52925 in Meditations
Today, I discovered my Purpose in this life. It’s interesting because, I never questioned the thought that one’s purpose was pre-ordained; in the stars or whatever. You’ll fulfill it whether y...
Too Beautiful in Journal
Not to share Exercise 19: Become aware of your own little spiritual deaths. Overcoming Fear By Thomas Mayer
In the Morning After Waking in Meditations
I found it very easy to connect to my energy. There was a blockage, or a darkening of the energy quality in-between my heart and throat. I felt into this and, discovered an upside-down pyramid ...
This was so interesting There was something going on, societal collapse I guess. Wherein, we (my family of creation and I) we’re roaming about. We did not really have a home, but that seemed t...
I'm Losing It in Journal
and it’s beautiful Do ya’ll know The Crucible? Ever have a British Literature teacher like mine? Mine was great, don’t get me wrong, but he made everything so personal. Anyways. I’m finding i...
The Holy Grail Vortex Prayer in Journal
[url=https://postimg.cc/Wd9sg07c][/url] [Visualize and empower a clockwise rotating spiral at the center of the space to be prayed over- its the opposite than one would think, the direction move...
Lately hasn't in Journal
Actually been noteworthy So here’s pics [url=https://postimg.cc/v4pS8thD][/url] Bunnies, because obviously. [url=https://postimg.cc/mcCpP1pj][/url] My sexy man [url=https://postimg.cc/SnXvpv...
Clarity in Meditations
Selfless clarity and transmission of consciousness. That is the feeling impression I receive from the sky on such a night as this - when after today the sun shone hotly from the deep azure blue ...
Joy in Meditations
The light is joy and the sun is bringing it ever anew in each moment The first light touches my deepest soul and outermost limbs warmly The plants are dancing leaping shouting - for joy The gr...
Woke up before both children had nightmarish/agitated states before midnight. I have been noting these incidents more frequently. Decided to start making a log. After a Holy Grail Vortex praye...
there is actually a ton of dead etheric bodies all over the place. When I saw them, a few months ago or whenever it was… It wasn’t just me. They are actually stuck here. I just saw them. I did...
What am I paying for? in Journal
Has been a particularly harrowing question for me. That reading I did a bit ago. I got a recording of it. I watched it again. I’m so stuck by the … The sheer depth of challenge that it reveals...
The start in Meditations
23 May is when I decided to get serious. I’ve read How To Know Higher Worlds, The Art and Practice of Yoga, The Tao Te Ching, and just a slew of other esoteric books including The Holy Bible and...
Today’s the day I realized I can see through time
It's not my shame in A Childhood Lost
It never was the feelings that were a problem. My parents use them against me. Maybe it does suck to have bad parents, but at least I could rely on people outside the family? I was barely at ho...
Seems like in Journal
I’ve fallen prey to every foible in the book. At least I’m aware of what my foibles are? Generally I’ve become more sensitive. That is expected, having been doing the practices for a couple ...
I actually kind of Like in Journal
This new approach. The approach that seeks out a feeling and just accepts that feeling, no matter what. Like, “oh, you have the belief that your dad is capable of murder (or worse) and the fa...
Processing Fear in Journal
Fear seems like such a tame word for it. It bring the feeling experience that I encounter when I contemplate or even acknowledge the possibility of a choice that might offend my parents. I’ve r...
Have you ever seen in Journal
A real life glitch in the matrix? Im curious. How many have seen one, or haven’t.
Fear, terror, and sadness in A Childhood Lost
Wow it’s been awhile for this journal, eh? I’ve often reminisced about how I had little to say about my dad. That I just hate him, he’s an asshole, end of story, no need to look further. Shi...
