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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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I was just empty? No thoughts, no feelings, no emotions of my own? No internal dialogue, as they say. Just a shell. Just a body. All the workings… But no content. Except for one thing. A ...
Vague Resistance in Journal
There is some vague resistance. A sense of withdrawal. A keeping in. It is unpleasant. I do not wish to be in a closed off energy I feel as if war goes on inside me. A deep one. At what level i...
Are things moving fast. I hadn’t really realized just how fast until I looked at my entries just now. Just a few hours apart, some of them. It feels like weeks have elapsed. And yes I absolut...
The 9th Beatitude in Essays
Has been on my mind before just now, as it is in Thomas Mayor’s ground breaking book Covid Vaccines from a Spiritual Perspective, in which he suggests to pray the 9th Beautitude for the vaccinat...
I had been using the technique taught by Dr Robert Gilbert to align, protect, and center myself daily for awhile, now. But this is much faster. And while I felt that Dr Gilbert’s technique was ...
The Clouds in Journal
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Outside Perspective in Journal
Is very nice from time to time And I had thought that maybe I would be slowing down with the writing, but I’m really really not. I feel so good writing. I’m reading, and writing, and reading, ...
Scripture in A Childhood Lost
Context: Timothy 4 The Spirit distinctly says that in latter times some shall fall away from the belief, paying attention to misleading spirits, and teachings of demons, speaking lies in hypocr...
Harmony Non-Comativeness Equity Natural Law Equanimity Humility Wholeness Loving kindness Do they mean something different? I don’t know. They all contain some facet of the feeling of ch...
A Welcome Guest in Journal
Last night I could not sleep as I was lying in bed. It occurred to me that something was amiss. Something internal. Psychological, even. I then asked my Angel, could you please reveal to me wh...
Come and go in Journal
People come and people go They flit around the edges for awhile, and then they’re gone. More often than not. And that’s okay. I’m not really built for fitting in. To be a companion. To stay s...
Evidentiary Observations in Meditations
I had been experiencing thoughts of doubts- first, a doubt about my decision to internalize and redeem Black Beauty. This thought was subtle but persistent so that it came up and interrupted my...
Melancholy and Sentimentality in Journal
Such a wave overtook me, today. It was poignant. Colors seemed to pop out; a surreal almost too real quality descended upon my perception as I drove through town to get my kids and a treat from ...
I AM - Light in Dreams
At first I thought these 2 dreams were separate, but, now Im not so sure. I woke withe the clear voice-thought “I AM the one that observes and experiences in my I AM" I had the dream in a ver...
A Remarkable Transformation in Journal
Has occurred within me I often find myself verbalizing things that seem incongruous with what I am thinking. I often have the experience of verbalizing, and then saying/thinking- where did that...
What is our relationship in Journal
To the sky? Mine, anyway, has grown considerably even just in the last month. As I learned more about the nature elemental beings, I realized that I have a distinct connection to the ones in th...
Dream or Reality? in Dreams
Entirely the wrong question. I woke from a dream again last night. My experience was that my daughter was wriggling to the edge of the bed and I moved my self in order to catch her. As I woke...
Recognition in Journal
Jumps out at me from a page, a word or phrase mentioned in passing, the sight of a new face that is somehow familiar. I feel a remembering. Not that I actually recall anything in my mind, concr...
I have a story. It’s about Blackberry. She is a year old Satin doe (rabbit). I got Blackberry last year. I had taken up a very generous offer to acquire a Satin in order to improve the Satin A...
Knock- Knock in Dreams
Editing to add. Today is 3-6-9. I had found that out the day before through unrelated happenings. Or at least, as unrelated as events in one person’s lifetime can be. This was on my mind all nig...
Time in Meditations
Linear Time Stacked Time Perception of the Effects of the Past on the Future, and of the Future on the Past. In the present, these are all perceived. My perceptions have changed radically....
Slipping Away in Journal
I sense a sliding slipping slithering away I wager it had to at some point. Hahah… It’s June, now! I guess my premonition was right. I am left with something. Many things, perhaps. They are l...
Self Worth, Pt 2 in Journal
It’s funny how Some things are SO simple it makes you scream on the other side of clarity. Talking to DH today, I felt my self worth. It was palpable. I notice it because it is so different f...
Processing Fear, Pt 2 in Journal
I spoke on this a bit ago, and it is still the case that I cannot access my Terror. I reflected that perhaps the Terror was not mine, but perhaps a thing from outside. And maybe that was why I...
Something Above in Meditations
Last night I became aware a feeling. I hadn’t taken care of the rabbits, yet. I considered not doing it. It was late. I was already in bed. I was very sleepy. There was a feeling that was fam...
