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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.

The ending is written into the beginning

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September 24, 2023

Please, tell me in Journal

who is more responsible? The tween who makes a bad decision, or their parents? I’m continually blown away by the blindness of otherwise reasonable and responsible people to parental responsibilit...


September 17, 2023

When I was Young in Journal

I thought that writing was a great way to get the usuless thoughts out of my brain so I could think more clearly. I still kinda think that. BIL and BM just announced they’re engaged to be married...


September 10, 2023

Refreshed in Journal

Is how I feel, I think. The last few nights have been more or less sleepless because we decided it was time for Lexi to move into her own bed. She’s not happy about that to say the least. W is a...


September 06, 2023

DH is starting a in Journal

Business. I’m beyond ecstatic. Yesterday he brought up something about it, and we chatted. I won’t go into a lot of detail, but the topic was only tangentially related. He had a lot of risk-aver...


August 30, 2023

I Just Don't Know in Journal

what to say to oblivious people. I was in my yard yesterday feeding rabbits, watching my son and wearing my daughter when I noticed one of those little rat dogs come into my yard. My dog ran ove...


August 28, 2023

Projects in Journal

Almost forgot to post pics of my recent projects! I made the book with a download, cut and laminated everything, cut again, posted tiny Velcro dots and put it all together in a binder for my 3...


August 28, 2023

Hinging on in Journal

my earlier entry about what is difficult to accomplish is admirable, although not necessarily required for virtue, One of the things I noticed in church going women; they’re so far without except...


August 26, 2023

The world is in Journal

going to shit, as expected. A giant storm came through Thursday and took out trees and power lines for our county. Yes, our whole county. 200k+ households out on just one power supplier(ours). We...


August 25, 2023

Let Me Know in Journal

if this is too spicy… It doesn’t matter how moral or virtuous or pious you are- it only really matters how difficult it is for you to pursue those particular principles. So if you’re naturally u...


July 22, 2023

I love my brain in Journal

It’s a little funny that I recently have this appreciation, because for all my life I hated it. I should say, my parents and the authorities in my life hated it. They hated me. But, as an interna...


July 20, 2023

The storm in Journal

That just blew through was magical. I sort of used to wonder if the ecstasy of a good storm was all in my head. No one else seems to be very excited about them. I sense the storms coming and I lo...


July 13, 2023

Health in Journal

Mental health, Religious people are mentally healthier than non-religious. After reading Deuteronomy again recently, I can’t help but think on the bit about how the why God wants his followers to...


July 08, 2023

I'm getting old in Journal

And I think it has just begun to sink in. I have 2 kids and want more, but I’m seeing gray hair. My energy isn’t what it once was. I see lines on my face. My knees sometimes are so painful that I...


July 04, 2023

Settled in Journal

I recently picked up my journal from 2019, when I first began intense therapy in earnest. Having not been in therapy now for quite awhile, and having not felt any “need” for it possibly a few mon...


June 30, 2023

Real Estate in Journal

rental is soon to be a thing. We’re gearing up to move out of dodge and rent out our current home. It’s been 2 years, and honestly just a little bit bummed that my gardens and orchard are just ge...


My hatred for government before. But recently I have come to a deeper, far more holistic understanding of it’s evil. I’m it even sure that I want to write about it. It’s crimes are so gruesome, s...


June 15, 2023

Growth in Journal

It’s been while since I wrote publicly a reflection of my life. Having children makes us adults. I don’t care about anything a non parent has to say- about almost anything with the exception of ...


mother in my 20’s. I didn’t want kids. I hated them. I was terrified of accidental pregnancy. I had nightmares about it. I wasn’t engaged in behavior that would result in accidental pregnancy, it...


June 02, 2023

Feeling Self Conscious in Journal

I can’t remember the last time I felt it this strongly. I finally met an older woman yesterday after months of email and then mail correspondence. I had hoped to find a friend, homeschool co-op ...


June 02, 2023

The Rainbow in Journal

Was a reminder of God’s covenant with man. After God destroyed all humanity except for those who kept the law. It’s now paraded ironically with pride for what God labeled an abomination. And it’s...


May 29, 2023

The Uncomfortable, in Journal

no-good, hated, derided, and name-called truth about parenting; your kids’ actions are your fault. Yes, parents, your child’s actions, decisions, behaviors, choices, are all your fault. I’m open...


May 09, 2023

Parents in Dreams

The first dream I had, I dreamt that I visited my parents at their house. It was just me and Lexi. I brought some few gifts and some other things to show them. I felt that old terror and dissocia...


April 27, 2023

New Bed Canopy in Journal

Lexi does not like it when I type on the computer :’) hence no entries Wanted to jot down my experience of the first night sleeping under the EMF blocking bed canopy. A few reasons we made that e...


April 07, 2023

Fun in Journal

Made this with my son yesterday And we’re telling “The Little Red Hen” rn (we focus on putting on lots of color and just vague shapes for our pictures)


April 07, 2023

I Should Write a Book in Journal

My parents always said I should. Ironically, that book will be largely a condemnation of their evil. Larger picture perspective is also deeply ironic. I was encouraged in my writing by my fathe...


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