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from that heart-centered place, where the light of heaven shines its consciousness down into my mind, allowing my eye to witness the living Heart that is my own Soul enlivening my body moment by...

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That I feel that comes up when it comes to family. Parents, spouses, etc. in the ego-identified state, that is. Because the ego may be very guarded, almost guaranteed it is, it wants to be secur...

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because I was awake I wonder how much of my childhood I spent in that state. Dreaming, sort of, but not really, because I’m not actually sleeping. I endured a lot of sleep trauma as a child. I ...

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& submission A friend recommended to me Zak Roedd. I read whole book today. I feel quite sheepish. The transparency of what is/was happening in light of his paradigm is just… Well. It’s th...

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Am I so dead set on just running the hamster wheel? Even after doing so much and feeling like on a roll, I have these thoughts of… “Now he’ll finally want me” or ” this will fix it so I can sta...

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My own problem And I need to get out of my own way

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else started to feel a profound sense of joy, peace, love, satisfaction and happiness!? Idk if I’m just on the right vibe right now or if everyone is feeling this? Lmk 🙂

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Last week I did the inner work to receive the love from my parents that I was heretofore unable to receive. Then my mom emailed me out of the blue the next day (within 12 hours) and apologized ...

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WOW is this sad. Mom, with all due respect and all that, you need to WAKE THE FUCK UP. Your email is very sad, victimized, and helpless. You’re in you’re what-? 60’s? Holy Hell, woman. You’r...

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Off. And popping up. In this very meditative week- marked on one side by the 100th anniversary of the death of Steiner on the 30th, and the beginning of a new century of conscious spiritual de...

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Feels so freeing without all the weight. Naysayers are not part of my design. Get on board or get out.

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I had an amazing entry and prosebox lost it It was great. Anywho, hahahaha I’ve been thinking about alignment a lot. I’m a pretty… unique? human being just compared to the status quo for a l...

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MOLY Is my brain on fire. I almost typed faire? Fairy? It certainly does feel otherworldly. I just realized, today, like a few minutes ago, that our fate is so tied up in our awareness that...

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In magic? I had heard about Family Constellations. It’s been on my list of things to look into. Sometimes it takes me awhile to get around to the stuff in my list. Sometimes I rearrange it and...

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I was a changeling. I knew it intrinsically, and I knew little else. I knew that I was not supposed to tell or to show anyone. It was who I was, but they hated it. They wanted me dead for it. ...

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today. And whoa, man. I learned a lot. I need to listen to the recording because I retained probably less than a third of it. Something stuck out to me, though. Well, a few something’s, but on...

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Last night I dreamed of a very particular and peculiar sort of relationship. I’m not sure if I made it up. I’ve never read about this dynamic in books or seen it played out in a movie. Probably ...

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To J is changing. I am noticing a distinct lack of anger, bitterness, resentment, contempt, etc. I have an idea that I was so set on making it work that I would never allow resentment to build u...

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I feel an urge to show my children self love, confidence, a healthy reciprocity between parents. I feel desperate, full of remorse, and distraught that I cannot do that RIGHT NOW. I have such ...

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And other doubts About my own ability to navigate reality plague my thoughts. “How would I know? Is there evidence for that? Are there any counter examples?” Runs like a stuck record through ...

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never been one to really internalize my beauty or goodness. And that’s not, so far, a huge tragedy. It has caused me to develop deep thought, to utilize my not-insignifiant intelligence, and to...

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The agony of a decision being made, And the complete bliss of having made the decision. Christ as my guide and truth as my goal I sail forth into the world once again

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Difficult To treat those who treat you the best, the best? Or, do you treat those who harm you the most, the best? Do you strive for true reciprocity, or do you appease those who threaten yo...

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I’m in one of my own novels How strange to have been so prophetic. I live my daily life almost perfectly oblivious to the goings on of the insane world- and I look around once in a while to c...

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If you didn’t want to see it. Don’t lie. You’re addicted to watching the news. Watching the world crash and burn. Your eyes fuel it. Your attention keeps it going. Why not see what your atten...

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