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I keep time slipping during walks around the river and neighborhood. Something about the exercise and the scent of local spring flora and the calm undistracted stillness of mind. It lets in dis...


April 02, 2024

New Nightmare in anticlimatic

First dream in a long time the other night. Bit of a nightmare, to boot. Didn’t realize how much I missed dreams. Might be time to give up the inhibitors. In the dream I was at a party of some ...


I think I found the problem. I haven’t known what to do with the recent societal malaise beyond chalking it up to the internet, or at the very least social media…but I think that is outdated. I t...


March 18, 2024

How To Think in anticlimatic

I keep having these mini psychotic breaks throughout the day. Some random memory, or a piece of a memory, will fire- like ringing in the ears- singular at first, then overwhelming. I have a creat...


March 10, 2024

Beauty Is Truth in anticlimatic

My girlfriend has been playing this game lately called “Lord Of The Rings Or” in which I have to chose between Lord Of The Rings, by JRR Tolkien and other things. She finally got me with “showeri...


February 17, 2024

Summer Fortune in anticlimatic

When I was a kid I attributed a benevolent will to the universe, and perhaps people, when in reality it was just the herculean efforts of kind and generous individuals who felt compelled to look ...


February 07, 2024

NPR's Collapse in anticlimatic

After rage-listening for almost a year now, not really understanding why I was listening or why I was raging, I discovered a few things. My local NPR affiliate, WCMU, pulled all music programming...


February 06, 2024

The River in anticlimatic

The house I live in and am restoring is undated, and I’ve always wondered when the oldest, forward part of the home was built. The rear portion of the basement is autographed and dated 1910, but ...


Exquisite morning. They’re all exquisite. Evening is always the time when things unravel. I think the fact that I write mostly in the evenings is a sign that I may be trying to re-ravel with th...


Easily one of the most touching and memorable scenes in movie history according to almost anyone who has seen the movie…but what makes it so good? I’ve thought a lot about it, and I have some id...


December 17, 2023

Lucid Living in anticlimatic

“You can time travel to the past anytime you want, but you’ll be alone when you get there.” Saw this written somewhere. Been confounding me for weeks. It coincided with a run-in with a historica...


November 27, 2023

Shadow Light in anticlimatic

Disgruntled tonight. In fact, if you’re reading anything I’m writing, I’m almost certain it’s from a need on my part to vent some negative feeling or another. Several come to mind. Frustration. ...


This song is my current obsession. Something in the cleanliness of it. The absolute beauty of everyone performing. A clean and unsexualized scene straight out of my protestant memories of the 90...


October 25, 2023

Bedroom In The Orchard in anticlimatic

My ma, who I love, is wild. She’s very unique/odd, but was always beautiful, so she got away with it. When attractive people talk about a benevolent God who watches out for them, or a spirit of K...


The windows are dark on the small town autumn street in which you live, yet a strong breeze moves. Far away, somewhere now, somewhere also in a dream- city lights shine on someone living the time...


I got hit with a memory from 22 years ago recently- over half the total length of the time I’ve been alive ago; in a time when I had been a child for almost 100 percent of my life until that poin...


September 23, 2023

Autumn Blooms in anticlimatic

It’s an exquisitely warm first day of autumn, and me not being one to let such things go to waste I spent most of it strolling the neighborhood scenery with my hands in my pockets. City trash pic...


September 22, 2023

Summer Boils in anticlimatic

I thought if I stared hard enough at this passing summer it would take longer to boil. I didn’t even blink and already the pot is off the stove completely. Like it was never there. Record heat, a...


September 19, 2023

March, 2005 in anticlimatic

So much of my life blurs together in my memory, but the spring of 2005- despite being incredibly mundane- has retained a place in the most crystal clear of recollections. A good memory to me is l...


September 17, 2023

Government Family in anticlimatic

I’ve always had enormous contempt for government. Not for the taxes they steal, as I’m not particularly greedy and never spend much time on my own financial details, but just on the amount of has...


September 05, 2023

An Adequate Break in anticlimatic

On Saturday I woke up to silence except for the trickling of water from the artesian overflow outside my bedroom window. The bed had never felt so comfortable, so I went back to sleep for a time....


I think a lot of people forget that Nature is the enemy, but not me. I am inclined to take care of It- to collect and remove rubbish from natural spaces, to escort pests away from homes instead ...


I was enjoying a warm, windy, end of summer evening, when I came upon a soccer field in this little village. The sprinklers were pinging the goal frame, and at once I recovered a feeling of being...


I feel very lonesome without the company of people that only exist in my imagination. I like people, as a concept. I like myself in similar regard. But in practice? I feel like anytime I get the...


August 05, 2023

Retiring Psychology in anticlimatic

Noted an interesting transition in my interests and motivations over the last few years just the other day- I am much less curious and captivated with human psychology, of any sort. I have an end...


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