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5 days ago

Languor and Lemons

A while ago I was feeling a bit like Dorothy waking up back in Kansas to a black and white world, possessed with memories of the place I had just been- “and you were there! and you!” Today? Those...


July 01, 2024

How to build community?

I grew up in a town that was founded only a hundred and fifty or so years prior specifically to be a resort community for rich folks. Prior to that, it was missionaries and churches, but in the 1...


I feel like you can kind of look around in three directions: You can look towards the past, to different eras and degrees. You can look around at the present, to different specific physical plac...


This is Iron Claw’s fault. Watched it on Father’s day and was reminded how good and moving something could be. What a quality film. Where can I find other things that reach me? Where do I begin t...


June 19, 2024

Heat Wave

When last we spoke I was puking my brains out. I thought it odd that I had the flu at all, since I had never had the flu before, and there was a reason for that. Wasn’t the flu. Few weeks later, ...


I am just today emerging from the worst sickness I’ve experienced to date in my life. I will spare you the details, except that when I finally achieved sleep- this would be 72 hours after I start...


May 24, 2024

Spring Dreams

Can’t get enough of life this spring. Feels like the very color of my soul is young green. I practice these meditations daily, sometimes constantly. The overwhelming aesthetic of waking nature is...


May 15, 2024

One Way Forward

Life feels like this odd journey away from home on a one-way highway. Dense traffic. Some cars race past. Some linger nearby long enough to take them for granted. But always this feeling of “home...


May 09, 2024

So Long, Willis

I was already running late when I rolled into the shop, and my first instinct when I saw the delivery truck there was to just keep going. My girlfriend’s car broke down the weekend prior, and I h...


And where might that be, exactly? I have a few songs that seem to pair with very specific moments throughout my life. These moments are a layer cake of sensual memories in which the song fills th...


May 01, 2024

Empathy

I don’t understand people when they wish more empathy into the world. Why invite that much heartbreak on an already beleaguered humanity? I think refraining from judgement is oft confused with e...


April 26, 2024

Case Closed

I have at last, with one final visit to the deeds department, pieced together a rough enough idea of when this old house was built and by whom. I hereby consider the matter closed, so that I may ...


My grandmother’s house smelled like 1940s linoleum, ancient cigarette smoked wallpaper, thrift stores with mostly old wool items, and a distant whiff of moth balls with cabbage. An extremely uniq...


April 23, 2024

Talking Leaves

I continue to spiral into historical research, though I’ve branched off a bit from my targeted house research into other avenues. The answers I need to progress on that front are in the county bu...


April 19, 2024

The House Rents You

I bought this old house on the river in town a few years ago. This very old house. Previous owner was an old lady whose family had all either moved out or died, and according to her, and the off...


April 14, 2024

The Valley Of Cringe

I’ve seen young folks describe this thing they call “the valley of cringe,” which apparently is something one must pass through in order to reach Being Cool. Not much context is provided other th...


April 11, 2024

Contrail Over The Creek

I keep time slipping during walks around the river and neighborhood. Something about the exercise and the scent of local spring flora and the calm undistracted stillness of mind. It lets in dis...


April 03, 2024

New Nightmare

First dream in a long time the other night. Bit of a nightmare, to boot. Didn’t realize how much I missed dreams. Might be time to give up the inhibitors. In the dream I was at a party of some ...


March 29, 2024

Make Love Not Babies

I think I found the problem. I haven’t known what to do with the recent societal malaise beyond chalking it up to the internet, or at the very least social media…but I think that is outdated. I t...


March 19, 2024

How To Think

I keep having these mini psychotic breaks throughout the day. Some random memory, or a piece of a memory, will fire- like ringing in the ears- singular at first, then overwhelming. I have a creat...


March 11, 2024

Beauty Is Truth

My girlfriend has been playing this game lately called “Lord Of The Rings Or” in which I have to chose between Lord Of The Rings, by JRR Tolkien and other things. She finally got me with “showeri...


February 18, 2024

Summer Fortune

When I was a kid I attributed a benevolent will to the universe, and perhaps people, when in reality it was just the herculean efforts of kind and generous individuals who felt compelled to look ...


February 07, 2024

NPR's Collapse

After rage-listening for almost a year now, not really understanding why I was listening or why I was raging, I discovered a few things. My local NPR affiliate, WCMU, pulled all music programming...


February 06, 2024

The River

The house I live in and am restoring is undated, and I’ve always wondered when the oldest, forward part of the home was built. The rear portion of the basement is autographed and dated 1910, but ...


January 27, 2024

Morning On The Job Site

Exquisite morning. They’re all exquisite. Evening is always the time when things unravel. I think the fact that I write mostly in the evenings is a sign that I may be trying to re-ravel with th...


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