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Arrival in Japan in 2015
So, Saturday morning, August 1st, I got on a plane to Tokyo. It was a long flight, and mostly not too bad. I got an aisle seat in the center back of a 747, to the right hand side of the central...
Many goodbyes in 2015
My goodbye from Michigan Beer Growler Company was emotional to say the least, and I’ll say more on that later (it was last Friday). Since then, I’ve had to say goodbyes at my going away party (m...
In a week, I leave for Japan. My conversation with Courtney and the long string of goodbyes is making this seem as though I’m marching off to my death. In many ways, I feel that I am. The fact...
The first goodbye in 2015
I had a long sentimental goodbye with Courtney today. It was the first of many goodbyes I can look forward to in the next few weeks. A little over two weeks and I’ll be in Japan. It’s nearly i...
Placeholder in 2015
Finishing up one of the two jobs today. Will be writing more. Mostly about JET, I think.
Lindsey and others in 2015
She kissed like an actress. Without excess or lacking. We finished the scene. There was a storm outside, just lightening and rain. No thunder. We cuddled for a while in the car with the cent...
Tonight I had a date. A date I’ve been looking forward to for nearly five years. Well, it was a second date, but do they really count without a kiss? At any rate, a lovely way to end a night. W...
Long absence in 2015
For my long absence, I do sincerely apologize. I expect to be writing a lot more, especially as I find more time to think and as my long dormant sense of hope and excitement reawakens as I get r...
Last Night in 2015
Last night, for the first time I can remember, possibly for the first time in six or seven years, a woman looked at me with pure animal lust in her eyes. I refrained from kissing her. I probabl...
Replacements in 2015
I remember when Courtney made Lord of the Rings about Cliff. I don’t even remember how many diary entries I wrote lamenting that. Or all of the other things that were associated with us that sh...
First entry in a long time in 2015
I don’t know long this is going to be or what all it’s going to cover. This was just going to be another record keeping entry because I had a date on Monday and it went well-ish, and I tend to ...
Lest I forget, 2/11 is when it officially ended with Amber.
For the record in 2015
I finally took Amber’s picture out of my wallet. It’s been there, unmoved save for when I’d show her off, for four years. Put in the green and white fabric box on my dresser with pictures of oth...
Brief Update in 2015
So, things went amazingly well with Amber for a few days. A week later we had our second assignation. Less satisfying physically and mentally. A little over a week later we had our final. Sin...
Big News: More to Follow in 2015
Kinda sorta got back together with Amber last night. Details to follow.
Making it work in 2014
Simply put, a lot of human interaction comes down to a single question: Do we feel like making it work? If the answer is yes, then it will almost certainly work. If the answer is no, it will alm...
Amber has frequently complained that I don’t listen. She’s often criticized my inability to remember anything about what she tells me. I’ve often said that the difficulty is largely in how she ...
Amber says I’m bad at listening. I don’t remember the vast majority of what she tells me. I don’t remember names or places or things she’s said. I confess it, and, to that end, I’ve been worki...
What I've been up to in 2014
Gardening work finished in mid October, and since then I’ve been working selling beer growlers. It’s a pretty good job. Good hourly wage and way more in tips than anticipated. I like my boss a...
For the last few weeks, I find myself descending farther and farther down into my spiral. I was self indulgent in the lead up to Sherlock Holmes, and I got sick after. Well, that show closed a ...
Priorities in 2014
I told Amber, on July 1st, that she had until September 1st to make up her mind about me. I told her that for those two months, I would not enter into any other relationship and that she would b...
More of the same in 2014
I started Yoga on September 1st. As I said I would. It was a good feeling, and, I take it as a sign of good luck (just this once) that the month began on a Monday. It was rather nice to accompl...
What do we give up to keep on going? I suppose that’s a tough thing. It’s harder for some than for others. For the people I generally care about, it’s hard to give up on just about anything. M...
Scripted Conversations in 2014
I think that one reason why solitude tends to be good for me is that I don't end up saying the same things over and over. The older I get, the more I realize that our subjective (often wrong) pe...
Friends my own age in 2014
The last real friend I made in America before leaving for China was Amber. That was in the winter of '08. I left for China in '10, so you get the idea. Since returning, and in the course of my...
