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2017

by Xanatos

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October 05, 2017

TV etc.

I have my first NHK appearance on Sunday. I’ve been cramming for that. I’ll post about it after it happens. This could be the first step into an amazing world, or, it could be a whole lot of n...


September 21, 2017

A Very Short Time

I have to decide, within the next three months, whether or not I’m going to sign up for another year in Satsuma. This is a difficult decision for a lot of reasons, and I’m going to outline them ...


September 20, 2017

Gibbon

In attempting to read The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, I may have bitten off more than I can chew. The book is well written, and therein lies the problem. It’s too well ...


September 10, 2017

Nothing of Value

Just updating for the sake of updating. I feel that I ought to write, and I’m working on being conscientious, but I don’t really think that I have the wherewithal to do much more than to go thro...


August 28, 2017

Walking

When I walk, I puff my chest out like a twelve year old girl with very high expectations and a very dim present. When I walk, I hold my arms like I am a Lego man left in the car ten seconds too l...


July 27, 2017

Quiet

It’s quiet . . . too quiet. To be honest, I just haven’t had a great deal to say. No thinking, no breakthroughs. I’ve mostly been dicking around on the internet. Nowadays, I have plenty of ti...


I have always lived my life, in quite conscious ways, as more than one person. I can remember, at the various summer day camps I went to, always creating a “club”, which these days overprotectiv...


June 12, 2017

May 25th to June 12th

Friday night, the cocktail party went very well. Leading up to it, Tomoko sent me messages informing me of the status of her search for alcohol. However, it was all pretty pointless as Inoue-sa...


The night of May 23rd, I found myself starving. I was hungrier than I could remember having been in ages. More than that, I felt that odd compulsion to eat. I can’t even explain it. It was a ...


The 16th went well enough that there wasn’t really anything to report. The 17th went pretty well, but for a scheduling issue. I got to school, and found out that the schedule that I had receive...


The remainder of that week was rather dull. To be honest, things all kind of blended together and I don’t really remember a great deal of specifics. To give you an idea of how much it all blend...


Friday night was over shortly after the entry. I slept a lot and had nothing of interesting to report. Evidently I had another of those dreams where I dream in music. With full scores. It was...


Last night, I dreamed that I made my way down to Florida, and I kept lingering around Amanda and her place on a dirt bike, which I kept riding to various degrees of fancifulness. At one point, g...


It’s from a good song. Ignore the drama. I didn’t get as much accomplished as I had hoped. I fooled around too much after getting home rather than getting right to something. I’ve discovered t...


Since arriving, my days and my time have been spent similarly to how they were in the past. However, there are a few changes. So, let me describe what my days have been like for the last three ...


April 24, 2017

A Long Update

I’ll try to begin this entry as close to I can as the start of February. But, of course, I have to go back. In September, I injured my back. In trying to treat it, with onsen and electroshock,...


April 14, 2017

Bad Loans

I’ve once heard the art of self improvement being described as playing The Prisoner’s Dilemma by yourself over time. Best case scenario, present and future you do what you’re supposed to. Worst...


April 13, 2017

Hope

For nearly ten years, I’ve struggled with the aftermath of Rachael and Japan. For nearly ten years, I’ve struggled to pick up the pieces and move on, putting back together a broken philosophy an...


February 14, 2017

Going Home

Sunday, I go home for four weeks of medical treatment for my back. We’ll see how that goes.


January 15, 2017

Slipping

I’ve been diagnosed with a herniated disc. There is only one competent seeming chiropractor I can find in the country, and he is in Tokyo. Yesterday, he advised me that it wasn’t worth my time t...


January 11, 2017

Holding on

My vacation was wonderful. The time before it was miserable. The time after it has, thus far, not been encouraging. I need to keep reminding myself that I am Scott Adams’ “Moist Robot”. I need...


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