~Octopussy~ ⋅ 42 ⋅
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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A few weeks ago, Cesar was supposed to hang out with me. He didn’t. I really struggled for a long time with my upset feelings about the situation. It doesn’t help that I still sometimes feel guil...
I Get Lonely by Janet in The Song Remembers When
Really, any of the songs from The Velvet Rope are among my favorite songs. I remember seeing that album cover in advertisements in the mall and not being able to figure out who it was. I suppose...
I know the death of Robin Williams has been written about too much but it's made me reflect on something very important. One of the main reasons I quit stand-up comedy was because of how depressi...
I recently found out some upsetting information about my scholastic career that had me, quite literally, quaking with anger. The American University system is an absolute trap. I don't know if an...
So yesterday was the last day of interviewing the candidates to take over as coordinator of the Pride Center on campus. Let me tell you, there are some long-winded know-it-alls applying for jobs ...
My other roommate got me really upset yesterday. I know, after that big spiel in the previous entry about how I don't really have any drama, but this is something a little more serious and upsett...
I've attempted to write a couple of times but the truth is I can't bring myself to write when I'm upset and turning this place into a gossip column. That's not the reason I write, but at the same...
Receive by Alanis Morissette in The Song Remembers When
A lot of people consider Alanis Morissette to be a relic of the 90s, but I discovered this song, off her latest album, and I really connected with the spirit of the song. It’s quite intense when...
So I went and saw Lady Gaga on Monday evening. I never really have considered myself a huge fan of hers, I mean, I've always enjoyed her music, but her image and appearances always detested me a ...
Well, my sex drought is over. But it was not the kind of situation I would've preferred. It was, once again, with a straight guy. Who is 19. And Latino. So I guess not much progress has been mad...
Crying in the pouring rain is an excellent way to camouflage that you care Your sadness is swallowed by the tearful rage of Mother Nature And just as the Mother cries out to conceal our true feel...
On Monday night, descriptive lesbians got me extremely drunk. Tuesday I had the worst hangover all day and it was just awful. But that evening I decided to go out with Dave and he brought along a...
So, my computer died this morning. I apologize if the formatting of this entry is a little off or if there are tons of spelling errors because I am writing this using the voice technology on my c...
So I just wrote an entry about how I don't want to have sex, and even though I didn't have sex, I did meet someone with whom I wanted to have sex. It was surprising and it was a little amusing be...
I'm not used to doing nothing. It feels stupid to have the job that I have. I think I finally get it. People would always tell me about how they need to have the right job... a career, if you wil...
I spent a lot of time writing that last entry (The Greatest Adventure in Things That I'm Grateful For), one of the longest amount of times I've spent writing any of my entries. I spent nearly six...
The Greatest Adventure in Things That I'm Grateful For
It was the end of Summer 2001, I was 17 and had just moved to a new town. I had gotten into some trouble while working as a life guard at a water theme park. My mother's friend had taken me to he...
Yesterday I got a text inviting me to go once again the monthly queer performance art party. There were two opposing sides of this decision with some minor pulls in either direction. I'll start w...
School finally limped to an end on Friday. I say limped because the end of school marched as inexorably slow as a George Romero zombie. It seemed never-ending. My finals started three-and-a-half ...
Everybody Finds Out by Fleetwood Mac in The Song Remembers When
http://youtu.be/tjF0svqQR9k I was reading an entry from someone who had mentioned that a significant other had found this person's collection of entries here on Prosebox. I've had that happen to...
I went and saw X-Men yesterday. I decided to walk to the theater. I walked eight miles round trip. I don't know why I did it. I'm just extremely inactive at the moment and I decided to switch tha...
I was reading an entry by Contra Night Stalker about the conflict he has in his relationship and my initial reaction was to say that I don't know about those types of conflict because I haven't h...
Mississippi by Sheryl Crow in The Song Remembers When
http://youtu.be/NiGMqbXb8J8Mississippi by Sheryl Crow is one of my favorite songs because I bought The Globe Sessions when it came out in 1999 and it has become one of my go-to depression records...
I found this Tumblr page of a photographer in Canada who takes photos and interviews queer Muslims. As they discussed their faith, I realized that I don't really talk about mine anymore. I know ...
In order to really make sense of this, we have to travel back a few months to when I was in the deepest pit of my depression. I had left Richard and his boyfriend behind in Los Angeles go to a se...
