~Octopussy~ ⋅ 40
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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There was an interesting wrinkle to the other night that I didn’t share in that entry because it didn’t really fit with the theme I was going for. I don’t know whether or not you know this, but I...
I feel like my life is finally at Season 1 of Sex & The City. I started work, it’s fine. Even though they’ve already promoted me to an auditor, I can see that I need to find myself another oc...
I’m in the midst of my second week back in Northern California and things have already changed immensely. First, I’ll get the bad stuff out of the way. My grandmother is currently in the hospital...
I am watching the most boring documentary right now. The truth is, the only reason it’s boring is because I’m not at all interested in the subject. It’s some movie about the lack of gay professio...
It was the early months of 2004. I was wandering around the streets of Sacramento trying to find this young guy I’d happened to see in our 20-something youth group at the Lambda Center. I had sta...
I was enduring the long ride home the other day… I say “enduring” but really it isn’t that bad. It’s a choice that I made for this time in my life, but I must say that Southern California is NOT ...
I have just under three weeks before yet another radical life change. So basically, this could be an entry from almost any other moment in my life. I think I have more “I’m moving and this will c...
Tonight Tonight Tonight by Genesis in The Song Remembers When
On a whim, I bought Genesis’ greatest hits (it was the only thing on iTunes that had Mike + the Mechanics’ “Silent Running” that was halfway decent quality), and I suddenly remembered how much I ...
So there I was in BJ’s with Edgar’s roommate in Paris having a drink and talking about the way things have changed. There’s something comforting about seeing the people I know in places that are ...
Jack You Off by Pansy Division in The Song Remembers When
Part of trying to get my head screwed on straight (no pun intended) again is bringing myself back to more simplistic way of life for myself. I’m fighting a lot of the stupid shame that I seem to ...
There were some rather… intriguing comments to my last entry. The way I’ve dealt with things is to compartmentalize my life and while it has served me well in the past, I’m seeing that I have to ...
Head Games in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I know I haven’t written in quite a long while but there’s a very specific reason that I haven’t written: I’m trying to keep my mind healthy. The truth is I’ve been taking this last opportunity i...
The entire time I’ve been going through this dark spiral I’ve been afraid. Now this isn’t really that unusual because I’ve come to discover that nearly everything I do is in response to some fear...
My time in Sacramento very much reaffirmed how depressed and angry I have been in SoCal. There are multiple reasons that people think that I might not have been able to retain my high spirits but...
I ended up getting overwhelmed with everything that happened at home that I didn’t have time to write about any of the other amazing things that happened. I’m going to break this up into a few en...
I actually recorded a whole video entry which I shall not post because I was crying throughout the whole thing. My grandmother is not well. She’s being affected by dementia and it’s causing her t...
I’ve visited with a few people, not as many as had initially gushed at the idea of my prodigal return, but I’m not too upset about that. I am enjoying having time alone or with just my brothers. ...
On the last day of classes, I ended up randomly hanging out with this guy Jonathan. He was the guy upon whom I projected all those feelings after the death of my friend. It was one of those meet-...
If you have read me for any significant amount of time, you know what this title means. Whenever I go on a trip somewhere, I have to name it. It’s like a statement of purpose; a way of defining w...
The Cocoon in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I have to be honest, I cannot operate technology. Like at all. It’s confounds me at every turn. I have somehow gotten through college without ever having learned how to use PowerPoint. I don’t ha...
I'm So Afraid by Fleetwood Mac in The Song Remembers When
Fleetwood Mac is one of my favorite bands, but it took me some time to get into them. I didn’t really know who they were when I was younger, although I knew many of the songs from their Tango In ...
The final night of my research project ended up with my not arriving home until 4:30 in the morning. I had forgotten that the evening before Thanksgiving is the busiest night of the year for bars...
Last night I continued my long-stretch of homework overload. I have so many things to do that I literally am drowning in it. I cannot explain it, but there I was sitting at the bar with all of my...
There’s an amusing little parallel between the renovation of this house and my own life right now. But I don’t want to think about anything too deep, it’s depressing. I only really have about 4 d...
There Goes My Baby by Trisha Yearwood in The Song Remembers When
I have been singing for twenty-one years now, and I can honestly say that I’m proud of the breadth and depth my voice has acquired over those years. My voice has been molded and sculpted through ...
