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October 16, 2017

Another day in New Diary

This is another day and another entry. I got up at 1:am.today. I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t. I think I got about five hours of sleep last night. I’m not sure when I went to bed. This ...


October 15, 2017

Sunday Morning in New Diary

I have not been doing well at all. Anxiety has been through the roof. I have been feeling very restless and on edge. I have been getting this feeling that something terrible is going to happen....


October 11, 2017

Wednesday Morning in New Diary

I have not been sleeping very good. I was up all night Monday I couldn’t sleep to save my soul. I felt like a zombie the next day. Was very tired and miserable. I laid down on the couch to try t...


October 09, 2017

Monday Morning in New Diary

I had a very shitty morning yesterday. Every bone in my body was aching. Also I felt so tired. I did not want to get going. I felt like shit. Then Chocolatechip cam e up for a while. She fixed a ...


October 08, 2017

Sunday morning in New Diary

I had a good day yesterday. Spent a lot of time with Chocolatechip. We watched a movie together. I got a letter in the mail from Social Security. It was good news. I will not have to pay that $...


October 07, 2017

Bad Day in New Diary

I had a very bad morning yesterday. I was calling my pharmacy to phone in a prescription. They told me that my Medicare was cancelled Shit. I had no idea about this. I said this is news to me. Th...


October 06, 2017

I am back again in New Diary

It has been awhile since I last wrote anything. There have been three major things going on. First last month I proposed to Chocolatechip. She accepted. We were really happy . I called the Social...


September 17, 2017

Sunday Morning in New Diary

Well I have my old case manager back. She came for a home visit Friday at 4 it did not go very well. I really got anxious when she was here. She kept asking a battery of questions. I can’t rememb...


September 15, 2017

Friday Morning in New Diary

I had one hell of a day Thursday. Anxiety got really bad Wednesday night. I wasn’t thinking anything in particular. Then I started thinking about all kinds of crap. I was thinking about the usual...


September 13, 2017

Wednesday in New Diary

I am up. Tuesday didn’t go very well. I made it over to the Social Security office. I didn’t get what I needed for recertification. The lady at the desk said she will mail it to me. In order t...


September 12, 2017

Tuesday Morning in New Diary

Well I am up. Life is good. I had a very off day yesterday. I felt kind of anxious. Recertification is up . This is when we have to renew or lease. I have to get proof of income from Social Secu...


September 11, 2017

Monday Morning in New Diary

Wake up call was 1:30 this morning. I could not sleep. Anyways it has been so frigging cold in my apartment Saturday and Sunday. They will not turn on the heat until November when we turn off the...


September 09, 2017

Saturday Morning in New Diary

I have some good news to report. Chocolatechip and I are back together. It is a long story. We were chatting on FB yesterday Earlier I put a picture on my page. It said “Learn to walk alone it wi...


September 08, 2017

Friday Morning in New Diary

I missed a day. Nothing much has been going on. I have been feeling pretty good with no depression or anxiety. I am going to bed early and getting up early. It seems that 3:30 is my wakeup call....


September 06, 2017

Wednesday Morning in New Diary

Well I am u0 and faced with another day. I will not let depression and anxiety ruin this day. I have tooo many things good in my life to let that shit happen. Always remember the positives. 1 I h...


September 05, 2017

Tuesday Morning in New Diary

I am doing a lot better today. Life is good. I do not know what hit me over the weekend. Saturday anxiety was through the roof. Then on Sunday I felt so depressed . Chocolatechip came up to see m...


September 04, 2017

Monday Morning in New Diary

I was having thoughts of suicide yesterday. They were fleeting and passed. I was thinking some very bad thoughts. Mostlly I thought that I was no good and a complete failure. I was thinking tha...


September 03, 2017

Sunday Morning in New Diary

I had a very bad day yesterday. Depression and anxiety were very high. I felt so anxious all day. I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular. I just felt very bad. I took an anxiety pill yest...


September 02, 2017

Saturday Morning in New Diary

Well Friday morning went ok up to a point. I was up early last night. I took an anxiety pill. I made it to the bank and Wal Mart. I I was doing ok in Wal Mart. Then I ran into this couple who use...


September 01, 2017

Friday Morning in New Diary

I am up. I had some weird dreams. I was dreaming that Nazis were after me. I don’t remember too much about it. It woke me up a couple of times. Then when I went back to sleep I think the same dr...


August 31, 2017

Thursday Morning Part 2 in New Diary

My worker reported off sick today. I have been spending the extra time reading and browsing books. I would love to be able to buy one more book. It is only $3.99 but I dare not put any more charg...


August 31, 2017

Thursday in New Diary

This is the last day of the month. Yay. I will be getting my check tomorrow. I can’t wait I will be getting out of my apartment going to the bank and Wal Mart. I am not too worried about going ou...


August 30, 2017

Wednesday Morning in New Diary

I slept fairly good last night. I had some strange dreams. I was dreaming about being in an accounting class. The teacher was up there and for the life of me I couldn’t understand what she was sa...


August 29, 2017

Tuesday Morning Part 2 in New Diary

I am really not doing very well. I feel very down this morning. I don’t know what hit me. I guess I am in a shitty mood. Thinking about going out on the first and I’m already getting anxious abou...


August 29, 2017

Tuesday Morning in New Diary

I had a really bad night with nightmares. I woke up a couple times from them. I remember one time I woke up screaming you worthless piece of shit. I do not remember these dreams and i’m, kind of ...


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