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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Dec. 19th, 2019. in Hello
Today would have been dad’s 71st birthday. Wow. I’m still sick but going to work tonight. I was able to get up and do a load of laundry and dishes so at least I’ve got a little energy. Satu...
Warmed Over Poo in Hello
Is how I feel right now. Doc did a strep and flu test. Negative on both. So just a bad cold. Right nostril was gushing blood a few times earlier. Ugh I hate being sick. After the doc I went ...
Mouth Breathing in Hello
My cold has come back full force and I feel like shit. Taking the night off from work. Will see the doc in the morning.
Candygram For Mongo! in Hello
Ugh, I wish I snagged a handful of Jolly Ranchers before I left the house. Throat’s just a teense bit sore. My coughing fits have subsided but I’m still not feeling 100%. Still lethargic in so...
Dec. 16th, 2019 4:27 AM in Hello
I want to thank everyone for the encouraging notes on me trying to get sober. I did drink Saturday afternoon after all the shopping was done. Didn’t have work that night and was free the rest o...
Dec. 13th, 2019 (Friday The 13th OoOoOo) in Hello
So my boy what’s driving the craving today? Well I got to thinking about the drink last hour or so of work. The idea just lingered as I kept reminding myself the craving is only in your head. ...
Dec. 12th 2019 in Hello
I was asked (moreso told) to work Friday night/Saturday morning. Yeah it’s OT and I need the cash but I had plans Saturday. Gift shop for my brother and SIL, go to the flea market, pizza dinner...
Who Cares? in Hello
Tonight I am depressed and sick of third shift. I’d like to be back home in my bed hiding beneath the blanket forgetting that the outside world even exists. And I’m a bit hungry…
It’s weird just how quickly my body adapts to sleep at night up in the morning. Like a sane person I cooked out last night. BBQ chicken breast, mashed potatoes, corn cobs, green beans (for mom...
I ended up calling in tonight. Slept like the dead. So needed it.
That Sucked in Hello
So a flat tire when I went to leave work. Then Pep Boy’s tells me I need all new tires. THEN as I’m getting into bed I notice a wet spot. One of my cats decided to mark territory. It was after 2...
Evil forces are conspiring against me. Instead of bed I’m at Pep Boy’s getting new tires after a flat this morning… 😵
They Don't Love You Like I Love You in Hello
I was pried out of a deep sleep in my roasty toasty bed fifteen till ten. Argh! When I stepped outside I immediately got a chill in my bones. Had the heater on full blast till I got to work. S...
Nights like tonight I wish I had a gf . I want to be held. That is all…
Happy Thanksgivimg in Hello
Yeah yeah happy 🦃 day and all that jazz. Going to my aunt’s for food. Cousin is making the turkey with a brine she used last year. Drool… If all goes well we’ll hit the Tinsel Trail after. The...
Fig It in Drugs 'n Drunk
Yes. I’ve been drinking. I’m off till Sunday night. Just let me enjoy this before I put myself through real Hell. This bottle will disappear. Road To Nowhere Ozzy had his Road To No Where Lookin...
Tangle Of Anxiety in Hello
This is eating me up inside. Last week I screwed up again and drunkenly left the house. Yes, arrested again. Every time a bit of normalcy comes into my life I have to screw it up. I got no answ...
How many cars have you ever owned? 3 Can you do math in your head well? At one point yes. Not so much anymore. What’s your least favorite chore to do around the house? Scrub the tub. What’s your...
Johnny Paycheck in Hello
Payday. Tis nice. Gotta put more in savings which will leave me with only $700 more to save up for the lawyer then $2500+ for the root canal and crown. Sigh cries in poverty
Tell Tale Sign in Hello
Yup. The Paxil is working. No matter the porn I watch or previous sexploits I fantasize of getting off just ain’t happening. The price I pay for help with my mental illness. I’m reminded of wh...
This Feels Weird in Hello
I was dead ass tired this morning at work. When I got home I ate and relaxed for a little while before finally getting into bed after 10 AM. I dozed off somewhere after 11. Though I woke up a f...
Fudgetastic in Hello
I woke up this evening with an aching back (going on four or five days now) and a majorly wicked sinus headache. I blame my sinus trouble on my coke binge three years ago. Some aspirin and anot...
Just Super in Hello
I’m off tonight so in turn I stayed up till 3 PM playing Jedi Fallen Order. It’s freakin’ awesome! Buuut…I slept in till 3 AM. Crap. Oh well, time to call on my Force powers and fire up the o...
At the urging of a friend I created an Instagram account. When I logged in the recommended feed showed half my family and old friends. I immediately had an anxiety attack. I’m a private person...
Smokey just bit my elbow. Lil’ fucker. I got maybe three hours of sleep last night. Had too much on my mind to think about when I got to work so I threw on the headphones and dived face first i...
