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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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July 30, 2023

Feeling Honest in Hello

So the court fiasco… I failed my last two drug/alcohol screenings. Because of which I was piss tested on the spot. I got high earlier in the week and drank the night before court. I know! I k...


DOING SHIT TODAY!!! Rest and relaxation, not leaving the house Hours later… Piggy Piggy oink oink So far I’ve eaten a ham and roast beef sandwich, a slice from last night’s meatloaf and I just po...


July 28, 2023

Meatloaf Recipe (Update) in Hello

Instead of copying it out of the cookbook I found the recipe online. https://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/gluten-free-glazed-meatloaf/39128993-c6ee-493a-b67a-0cdc8977f2fd 6:24 PM Hot damn was tha...


Court today. It didn’t go too well but I’m still a free man. Suffice to say I don’t want to talk about it. My ritual for after court is to hit up Tenders and get lunch. Swear to everything hol...


July 27, 2023

I'm Melting! Melting! in Hello

Holy Flying Spaghetti Monster is it fucking hot outside! Just got in from running errands and now I am NOT leaving the house again. High today is 97. It’s almost 1 PM and it’s already 92. Pi...


July 26, 2023

Lazy Day in Hello

Didn’t feel well this morning so I messaged the counselor I’m staying in. Monday and Tuesday I’ve had a bunch of things to do after therapy so today is my lazy day. I’m not doing anything excep...


July 24, 2023

My Gums Are On Fire in Hello

Went to the taco truck after group. Loaded them down with the red and green chili sauce. Mmm burning deliciousness. The order comes with four and now I want four more. After mom eats we’re hea...


July 23, 2023

Stir Fry-Day On Sunday in Hello

Ended up going to Publix, yet again. They had a BOGO sale on some fruit mom wanted so I loaded up on blueberries and strawberries. Also got a salad mix, baby spinach, more zucchini, fresh mushr...


Play on titles. Operation Market Garden was a WWII offense in the Netherlands and the Chik-Fil-A part is about their market salad. Needless to say where we had lunch today. I had to take her t...


No punchline. That’s just my old crew and I going out to party.


Had a very surreal dream where I relieved my first day of kindergarten but with the knowledge I have now. It was…interesting to say the least. The teacher thought I was crazy. The thunderstorm w...


July 20, 2023

Exhaustion in Hello

For starters, those fucking dogs were in my backyard again. Called 911 who put me in touch with Animal Control who got my address who then promptly never showed up. Even went online to look up ...


92 F/33 C Dear lawd the humidity. It’s like walking into a hot wet fart in a sauna. I haven’t mowed the lawn since before mom went into the hospital. Backyard wasn’t so bad, knocked it out in ...


July 19, 2023

I Don't Want It! in Hello

I just need it! To breathe! To feel! To know I’m alive! Tool - Stinkfist Cravings suck. Under my usual guise of getting a Mt. Dew icee I drove to the liquor store. Arguing with myself the whole...


I crashed after ten something and woke up a little after midnight. When I realized I wasn’t getting back to sleep I went ahead and tossed another load of laundry in the dryer. 2:15 AM now and h...


July 18, 2023

Emergency Network in Hello

Swear to the flying spaghetti monster I’m ready to put the remote through the tv every time the ANK ANK ANK of the emergency broadcast system keeps coming on today. We’re under a thunder storm w...


July 17, 2023

Ultimate Face Palm in Hello

She lost her discharge papers (which had the instructions of what she needed to do) and now I’m convinced she’s giving herself the wrong dosage of insulin. Even after checking the dosage info on...


July 17, 2023

Sleep Walker in Hello

Though I managed a nap when I got in from group, I’m still in a zombie haze. Feels like I could curl up on a hardwood floor and sleep twelve more hours. Currently sitting at T Mobile with mom. ...


July 17, 2023

Restless Night in Hello

12:53 AM I drank some iced coffee earlier, twas good. Dinner didn’t turn out quite as good as I had hoped. To me the chicken was a bit bland, the zucchini tasted off and I wasn’t big on the flav...


July 16, 2023

Escalation in Hello

Those fucking dogs… I wrote a while back about the new neighbors letting their two pitbulls run around with no collar or leash (or supervision…) Well, I was grilling tonight and while whipping up...


July 15, 2023

Afternoon Naps in Hello

Smokey is in my lap, mom is crashed out in her recliner. The oxygen machine they gave her keeps making me think the dryer is on cause of the noises it makes. I’m gonna have to wake her in a few ...


Where were they when I drove mom to chemo for cancer? Where were they when I changed out her bandages and wiped her clean? Where were they when she had nuemonia and I visited her everyday when I ...


July 14, 2023

Tired AF in Hello

After I dropped mom off at home I went to the pharmacy to get her meds. When I got back home she realized they didn’t give her the insulin. I had to head back to the hospital and find out what ...


July 14, 2023

MOM IS HOME!!! in Hello

She was released earlier this morning around 11-ish. Right now I’m sitting at Walgreens getting her prescriptions filled. It’s so fucking hot and humid outside! This is by far the hottest damn ...


July 13, 2023

Philly Dilly in Hello

She now has nuemonia. Ugh. She has to do three days of antibiotics then MAYBE she can come home. Currently at home on the couch munching on a Philly from Publix with a bag of sour cream and o...


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