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Thanksgiving
I ate too much. I drank just enough. I think everyone had a good time, and I hope no one expects me to cook much until sometime next week. Tomorrow the Christmasing begins. I’m ready to put up ...
Dad
Today is the 19th anniversary of my father’s death. I’m sad. The pain is not nearly as raw as it used to be, but I miss him fervently. I wish my kids could have met him. I’ll survive. It’s ...
Better
Maybe talk (or write, in my case) therapy is working for me? Maybe it’s the GLAD exercises, which I haven’t been great about posting here but I’ve been working on every day are more effective tha...
Negative Thoughts
Copied from a worksheet my therapist gave me… Challenging Negative Thoughts Depression, poor self-esteem, and anxiety are often the result of irrational negative thoughts. Someone who regularly r...
GLAD - day 2
I fell asleep before writing out my GLAD last night, so here goes: Grateful - my husband, who doesn’t mind if I order pizza because I don’t feel like cooking Learn - I really enjoy going on a wal...
Stupid Ian
It’s been thirty years since I lived through Hurricane Andrew and I can still recall exactly what it felt like to be in that house in Miami as all the windows blew out. Which is probably why I a...
Friday
I need to be productive today. Instead I’ve sat on the couch watching Netflix all morning, and not even finished the load of laundry I started at 7am. Honestly, I’m just enjoying having a day to...
15
My youngest is now 15. Their birthday was Wednesday, we had a family dinner with R’s parents and sister (fun, because R’s parents are currently not speaking but they only have one car so they dr...
Sad day
Yesterday we said goodbye to Duchess, my almost ten-year-old Great Dane. She was the sweetest giant, and I will miss her so much, but her health issues had gotten bad over the past few month - h...
Abbreviated
Because I suck at entries, but don’t want to forget all the things: Spent a marvelous week in Vegas with my sister. We planned outings about half of the days and the other days we sat on the cou...
I dissent
I knew it was coming, ever since the opinion was leaked, but it still knocked the wind out of me when the news broke yesterday. I was looking forward to a relaxing weekend, but instead I felt th...
It's official
My son passed his driving test this morning and can now officially drive by himself. If anyone needs me, I’ll be wallowing in wine and xanax.
Cedar Point day 3
I have been on all the coasters here and they are all amazing. Did I mention that my poor husband has pneumonia? We thought he had a bad cold, but it wasn’t getting better so yesterday he went to...
All clear!
Diagnostic mammogram was today at noon. I was nauseous with anxiety, and they told me they were doing a 3D mammogram first, then an ultrasound if needed, and then I’d have to schedule a biopsy i...
Weekend things
So I had my mammogram about ten days ago, and on Tuesday they called to tell me there is some “asymmetry” and I need a diagnostic follow up. I panicked (because that’s how my brain works, and al...
Bullet points
Because apparently I can’t be bothered to write a proper entry, but there are things I want to record! - Our Boxer now has a bionic leg. She had a torn cruciate and she had TTA surgery this morn...
Normal(ish)
It’s been a crazy couple of weeks, but I think things are starting to settle down. Child #2 finally tested negative for Covid yesterday, which means she can go back to therapy today - her therap...
Ugh
Husband is negative. I’m negative. Son is negative. Daughter? Positive. Fuck my life. So we’re all self-isolating through the weekend. Current CDC/Department of Health recommendation is five ...
I'm surrounded by Covidiots
Actually that’s not true, though I do know a few. I am surrounded by Covid though. Three people at the library are down with it, including one who just found out yesterday - and I just heard fr...
Back to reality
We just got home from our week at Disney. It was…interesting. My family (R and I, plus the teens) did six days at Disney parks and one day at Universal. My brother’s family (he and his wife, pl...
