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Disappear
Literally in just one minute my decent mood was torn to filth by my toxic thinking. I made the mistake of checking my body out in the mirror and suddenly I can’t find a reason to live. I’m not su...
Wine & Whine
My therapist and I have finally made it to my body image issues. I feel shallow that we even have to go there but whatever. Just fix me lol. Should I be flattered that I keep him up at night? I’m...
Mood Poisoning
My boss actually made an appearance at my store yesterday. He showed up while I was doing the bank run and he was on a full send rampage. I jumped into the crossfire so that he could tear into me...
Update
I suppose now that my depression subsided my anxiety has come out to play. I was immediately triggered when Karamjeet called me from work to update me on what she completed for me today. Also abo...
Back from the dead
I just woke up from a depression nap. I think it’s over now. That was an awful couple of weeks. I kind of feel shell shocked but I also just feel like I need to take a damn shower and clean mysel...
Surrender
Am I seriously going to spend the day in bed, depressed, and just listen to depressing music? Yes! I’ve surrendered to the pain. I have no fight in me today.
Identity Issues
I keep saying that things have been manifesting in my life. I mentioned that I wanted a companion of sorts in my last entry. One slid into my DMs lol. It’s so weird, he keeps crossing my mind bec...
Blah
I try not to complain too much but today was just a shit show at work. Somebody had called in before I got there, my boss actually had time to swing by my location but before I could make it ther...
Catch My Breath
Everything has lost meaning to me. Why am I doing anything? My depression and my anxiety caught up to me and I just want to surrender to it. I just feel so angry ALL THE TIME. I hate saying “I ne...
Aligned
The old me would be a complete mess right now. Everything felt like it was falling apart a few weeks ago and I held myself together pretty well I think. I need to learn to trust myself more. I’ve...
Apparitions
Yesterday morning I was irritated that once again everybody was crashing my day off and I was going to miss out on my me time. When I was dropping my niece off I remembered what appointment my si...
Time
I do not have the requisite words that I need to express how I have been feeling the last couple of days. Everything was sitting pretty. My mental health has never been so strong, my body has nev...
Mr. Stark I don't feel so good.
I finally had my first therapy session. I’m cured! I’m a white heterosexual male now and everything is going to be ok! lol. Man, I did not manage my time well this morning and I barely had much f...
Forgive my Vegan Moment
My country just introduced a new food guide. I’m not a patriot but I am quit proud to be Canadian for this: . Industries were kept out of that process and the result is stunning. Click Here if ...
Baby it’s -56c outside
Does anybody else here know what -56c feels like? Well it hurts. Our bodies stop pumping blood to any body part that is exposed pretty fucking fast. I rescheduled the therapy appointment that I h...
Choices
I finally pushed through my social anxiety enough to make it to the gym… entrance. Not even. Man, I can’t help but laugh at my pitiful self. I planned it all out, I went to bed early and woke up ...
Scoby-do
Ever wonder what happens when you accidentally drink a big chunk of the scoby in your kombucha? Well first of all it feels like swallowing snot. Then the next day you’re going to have to void you...
Weight Lifted
I just finished the conversation that I had been dreading for the longest time. The one with my brother in law about me moving out this year. There are no hard feelings and I knew that. I had anx...
My Toxix Relationship With Social Media
I broke my silence on Instagram the other day. I had a clip of a pretty winter morning that I wanted to put out there. click here if you want to view it. I do miss social media a bit. I miss that...
Resolution
I am so done with overthinking work. Every time that I send a text to my boss he reacts like he is under attack and vice versa. Our text conversations have been so toxic and it just doesn’t feel ...
Regrets
Last night I dreamt about something that is still eating away at my soul and I woke up so flustered. “The first thing we need to fix is your expectations. You’ll never get rid of your acne scars....
Sickening
Yesterday I went out for dinner with the boys. Aside from the bad day that I had at work I did end my birthday on a good note. On my way home I had to drive home in our first blizzard and the roa...
33 Times Around the Sun
My mother surprised me yesterday. My family gets together this time every year to celebrate me and my twin sisters birthdays (they were born 4 days before my first birthday). She found a pizza pl...
11:11 New Year 11:11
I’ve been seeing those double digits again, 11:11 and 22:22. I had planned my whole week around going to the casino last night. Just for an hour and just by myself. I had a ballot that I wanted t...
Metasomething
There is this woman on YouTube who shared her story and I fell in love with her life. I think it spoke to me because it is everything that I secretly desire for myself. I also realized a while ag...
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