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and it wasn’t bad. I might’ve even had it twice, but it’s hard to say since I wasn’t tested the first time. Been thinking a lot about respect, recently. It was something that came up very early ...

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is really cute, and so am I. Every time we go out- which is usually to the jump park these days since it’s 4F outside rn- the adults fawn over my son. Don’t get me wrong- he’s stinkin’ adorable....

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weird, today. IF what I had last month was the ‘Rona, the past 2 days was just a little after-blip or something. Same symptoms, but shorter and milder. Today I have a bit of that feeling you get...

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are trauma survivors. Idk when I began to feel an annoyance at the self-proclamation that one is a “trauma survivor”. It speaks to me like someone wearing a wound on their forehead. It speaks of ...

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Went well, mostly. My parents did show even though I asked them not to. They sat in the middle of the small church even though they said they’d sit or stand in the back. They went to the burial e...

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Of middle age… I would consider middle age to be mid 40s to perhaps mid 60s. MIL died at just turned 61. I remember 3 years ago now, we were on vacation together. FIL said to MIL as they were re...

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and, it is. The holidays have always and forever, been a colossal let down for me. For some reason, I would be infected with the joy/love/noel spirit and have high hopes for the season. I would ...

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and I think that’s great. There is no success unless you piss off evil people. Much like Hillary Clinton sowing FUD about Crypto… yes. The very best endorsement that I could ever have hoped for....

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Have you EVER been able to turn an aggressive, defensive, personally attacking and projecting person around in conversation? What worked? Is it entirely hopeless? As always, I ask myself, why am ...

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As I scroll, I find that some people are celebrating joyously and some people are wishing death and destruction upon others. Idk. I’d rather hang out with people who are celebrating than angry a...

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So mom emailed me and told me about a dream. “Back in April I dreamt that you were pregnant. You were very pregnant in my dream. It was a windy day and you came over and we talked. The dream was...

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is being her normal weird self. She sent several very aloof texts; “hey, how are you?” and “send pics when you can”, and then went full pathetic all of a sudden, “Please come for Thanksgiving din...

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Like. Really good. Really really good. It’s so odd to think that the very same thing which gave me so much anxiety and fear is now exhilarating- that which I felt a profound shame, I feel free e...

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asked me if there was any way to continue to see her sister who believes in corporal punishment when my friend does not. Well, the answer is of course no, if my friend wants to be consistent. B...

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Well for the past week and a half. W has been waking up 3 to 5 times a night. Mostly clustered 1 to 5am. I. Am. So. Tired. My brain feels foggy. Because of that, I don’t really remember how it ...

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Dream last night, but I’ve already dissected it so I’m afraid that I won’t include it in my dream journal, here. Unless I happen upon some free time, which is unlikely. Still have the rest of ch7...

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Breakthrough, today. They seem to be coming fast and furious, now. I feel like a new person after each one. And I’ve remade myself so many countless times that it seems surreal when I read my ow...

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Sums up my first experience of MOPS. I showed up and the oppression of small talk began. No one asked an interesting question. No one wanted to reveal any fact or facet of themselves that might r...

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that I would love to ask. I’d love to ask anybody. I think asking the real questions is what allows us to really know one another. But, particularly parents. I have questions that I would love...

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is great. But first, the complaints. I have poison ivy and it’s itchy and stingy as fuck. My mind is often confused as to what I want to do, what I am doing, and why any of it is happening. I wo...

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Did I mention we’re rich now? Haha. It still feels surreal. We have downgraded our status; moved to a cheaper place, less stuff, less overhead, less to do. No AC. Overall, I like it. We go to th...

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The Anthropology of, is an absolutely fascinating read. A bit difficult in that abhorrent crimes against humanity are reported as dry statistics. But also jaw dropping in scope. I guess it brings...

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Talking with DH yesterday, he divulged to me that his dad had called him Evil. I was, of course, shocked and appalled and reacted rather strongly to this news. According to DH, the exact words w...

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from your problems. To anyone who says this, I reply with congeniality, Fuck You. And I mean that sincerely. The very first thing that I consider when someone says this is, how is that working ...

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with creating meaning and purpose from our children? I have been thinking about this since yesterday, when I revealed to semi-acquaintance at Judo that I wanted more kids. Another Judoka said so...

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