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Only just a dream
Saturday June 25th at: 8:40 PM Going to therapy helped a little bit yesterday. She said I handled the situation very well. alot of the time I find myself feeling really stressed out and I don’t k...
Car accident
Wednesday, June 22nd at: 5:00 PM So this happened yesterday but I didn’t even think about writing it down. I was on the way to Gamestop to meet up with my best friend, I was almost there and was ...
friends day out
Saturday. June 18th 2016 at: 6:30PM Today so far has been a really good day. I decided I wanted to go swimming and I knew my best friend didn’t have to work until 5 so I called him up and asked i...
glass half full
Thursday, June 16th 2016 at 2:50 PM I guess that it’s true that while some people are only in your life for a short period of time, they can leave a lasting impact and even though they are gone n...
How I really see myself
Tuesday, June 14th, 2016 @ 12:20 PM Been meaning to write but everytime I sit down and write for some reason I just leave it alone and then later in the day just exit out of it. Right now all I h...
what a night
Thursday, June 2nd, 2016 at 5:30 AM The universe seems to have a sense of humor, ill start off by saying that. The past few days I went swimming with my friends, got into verbal fights but we alw...
stress and exhausted
Monday, May 23rd, 2016 @ 5:00PM Well, All of may has turned out to be a very bad month for me, severe depression almost everyday and the last few days it got a bit smaller and now I just feel rea...
Companion
I end to have these dreams a lot especially when I feel really lonely, I meet a person in my dreams and we go on adventures and have fun and while I really love the dream and just want to spend e...
some hope
Monday, May 9th, 2016 @ 1:00 AM So I realized that this month is Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness month, I have BPD. It got me to thinking so I looked up videos about people’s experience...
Truth
Thursday, May 5th, 2016 @ 1:10 A.M. They aren’t just scars. They are the demons I fought at 3 a.m. They are my insecurities, my deepest fears, and my lonely nights. They are the insults I hav...
Still hope for humanity?
Thursday April 28th, 2016 So I awoke this morning at 6 to a loud thud followed by my name being yelled. It appears mother got really sick this morning and on the way back from the bathroom, bl...
Nostalgia
Tuesday, April 26th 2016 @ 5:00 PM I went to see that asshole doctor and I told him everything that I was concerned about, all the symptoms of ADHD I have he said is due to my Bipolar Disorder...
someone cares?
Sat, April 23rd 2016, at 2:20 PM I have a friend (let’s call him M) who has gotten in a lot of trouble for something he didn’t do so he ended up getting really emotionally depressed and now that...
I need help
Friday april 22, 2016 at 4:20 PM It seems like round clock now I think about killing myself or death in general, so I decided to call and make an appointment with my doctor guy as soon as possib...
hit hard
Monday April 18th, 2016 at 4:00 PM So after that long break of feeling numb I guess I forgot how bad my depression can really get and it just hit me hard a few days ago and I honestly didn’t know...
lockbox
Monday, APril 11th, 2016 2:20 PM I was unpleasantly woken up really early this morning because mother had to go to the hospital and she has pneumonia again so they admitted her to a room and she...
I can feel it!
Sunday April 10th, at 11:00 PM I know this sounds stupid as before I wished that I could feel nothing all the time but I think my depression finally kicked it as I could feel my heart I felt depr...
Is it dead?
4:40 PM I don’t understand, nothing is right and I cannot predict my mood. For the last week and a half I have felt nothing no emotions except for nothingness and the occasional anger moments fro...
Existing
Wednesday March 30th, 2016 at 2:40PM This is actually the first time in a while that I wrote the entry on this site because usually I wrote it on another diary and copied it over. I would love th...
Ungrateful Brat
Tuesday March 29th, 2016 at 3:15 PM That’s all I really am. My mother does everything and then-some for me and I am just an ungrateful spoiled little brat. I have two sides of me one who doesn’t ...
no title
Thursday, March 24th, 2016 8:00 PM I have been thinking a lot about death and dying again. It just comes up and I started feeling pretty bad and honestly when I die if it is not suicide (don’t wo...
no jinxing myself
March 22nd, 5:50 PM I decided today that I wanted to write in my dairies as it has almost been 10 days and thats too much without an entry so here we go. I have been feeling good the past few day...
Emotionless
March 13th, 2016 4:45 PM Last night I was experimenting with a drug of mine I did research of course, I grounded two pills and snorted them and it didn’t burn as bad as people let on and after a ...
I should have known
March 11th, 2016 12:42AM Of course I decide to write in my journals that I am happy for once and then the day turn completely sour on me and make me feel the worst I have felt. I must be a strong...
happy
8:30 PM For once I can say I had a good day, I just naturally felt happy today-I even went to the gym for once and while I didn’t do much I felt good afterwords and then for most of the day I pla...
Book Description
My Real Name is Tony I gave myself the nickname Theo. Born: January 16th, 1996. I have Bipolar type II disorder with Major Depressive Episodes (MDE) and Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD) (to sum that part up you can also call it “Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder”). I love History, history books, Games, Rock/Hard rock/Punk Rock music, Favorite band is Green Day. Meds: Saphris (anti-psychotic), Risperidone (Anti-Psychotic), Welbrutin (Anti-Depressant), Clonazepam (Anti-Anxiety)
