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7:20 PM It has been a long time since my thoughts drifted to the S word. It has been a long time since my depression has gotten this bad. It is now the 8th of December and all 8 days of this mont...

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7:30 PM So My sister adopted a very small and sick little kitten, she took it to the vets and was told to keep it on Anti Biotics and stuff like that, she later found it dead. I haven’t met the l...

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6:30 PM Today has been a mixture of emotions for me, I did take my social anxiety meds which did help me today, I have a habit of forgetting those but not today. I went to a meeting with an insur...

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5:50 PM So..... My step father - whom I never liked, or even really had a relationship with, went to the cancer doctor again today and we have learned he has Cancer again in his Liver. He had it ...

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7:00 PM​ So the past few days I have been mostly in depression. This time however it was more of that empty depression and sometimes soul crushing as well. I felt like I had nothing inside me, it...

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11:30 PM​ So it has been one whole week since I have made an entry. Honestly the time just flew by, I am really surprised. I have been mostly avoiding my diary. I am feeling better then usual. I ...

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3:30 PM So I was suppose to start back up with the Gym today but that didn’t happen.... And here is why, Mother is still sick and asked me to go to the post office so I said sure, I would head th...

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5:20 PM I don’t know why I should be surprised at the response to the Paris terrorist attacks by clueless ignorant people. All people are doing is blaming ALL Muslims for the attacks, they are at...

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8:15 PM So I have decided to join a Gym. I have been feeling good lately and decided it was time, like I said before I was committed and I really wanted to do this. For the first 2 days I did abo...

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7:20 AM Usually I am not up this early, but last night I had some trouble. So to start, it is freezing in here and it is always freezing in here. I am sensitive to the elements, in summer I get e...

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2:45 PM That time above is the time I should have been at my meeting with my therapist, after not seeing her for about a month.... But today is literally a blizzard outside, it is 33 degrees, it...

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8:20 PM So all I have been doing for the past few days has been playing the new call of duty. I feel that it is better then the last one and I am actually enjoying it. For some reason I just don’...

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1:40 PM So last night was the midnight release for call of duty Black ops 3. I played for a little bit and went to bed, I played some more today and I don’t know why but I am just so angry today....

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8:20 PM So the past 2 months my doctor gave me a sheet of paper and told me to describe my mood on those days including triggers and how severe it was and here is what has been happening last mon...

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10:00 PM Let’s try this again, I accidentally left the page and it deleted what I wrote. So happy Halloween everyone, I haven’t felt like doing an entry for a while because in the last one I said...

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4:20 The last few days have been slowly getting worse as a depression storm hits landfall in my brain and heart. Whenever I start to feel this way, all I want to do is just lie in bed and sleep. ...

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12:00 PM So, Ever since I had this computer built I have had an overheating issue with it so I finally took it in about a week ago to get fixed and finally today I have it back. They installed a ...

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9:20 PM I finished watching the last bit of the Anime “Sword Art Online II” (Yes I watched SAO I first) and it had me crying and realizing how selfish I am. I know I talked about wanting to die b...

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4:40 So today I just feel like ranting, My mom and I always get into a little argument at night because our rooms are right next to each other and I stay up super late (depending on my mood) and ...

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6:00 PM I knew from the moment I woke up today that I was feeling down. I guess I had to crash sometime right? I think whats got me down most of all is the fact that my Australian friend hasn’t b...

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WARNING SEX TOPIC 8:10 PM The last few days have been great to me, I have felt pretty happy and had a lot of fun just sitting at home watching stuff on youtube and playing games. When I am happy ...

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4:30 PM I know I haven’t written in a little while, truth is I just never felt like it. I have been feeling pretty lazy lately and every time I even thought about it, my mind pushed the thought a...

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4:14 PM So I took my car in this morning to get the new bumper on and just a little bit ago I found out that the new bumper was actually damaged and not only that, where the bumper goes is so rus...

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4:00 PM I woke up today around 1:00 PM, I haven’t been feeling good today and have been pretty depressed, cycling between moderate-severe. Mother and step father went somewhere to watch the footb...

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3:20 PM I stayed up late again last night, truly enjoying my night watching Anime and playing with my Australian friends for a little while. I watched several episodes of Guilty Crown, and 1 epis...

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