Army of Arms in These Foolish Things

  • Sept. 10, 2021, 4:58 p.m.
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Did I tell you all about spending all of this time trying to go through my company’s Employee Assistance Program (EAP) to find a therapist to help me wrap my head around all of the shit that’s going on in my life? I did a whole bunch of clicking around the insurance company’s listing of eligible therapists and then googling the hell out of each option, scheduling an after-hours appointment, and writing down all of the stuff I wanted to talk about only to be ghosted by the dude?

I must have - because that’s how one of you PBers knew to offer your therapist’s contact information to me.

Man, am I ever relieved.

Last night was Therapy Session #1. After a couple of Zoom glitches (typical, but always stressful), we settled into a BIG talk - mainly me wanting to make sure she knew about as much shit as I could verbally vomit out of my head. And she listened, took notes, asked questions in such a way that I felt a huge relief just to get it out and then she offered an exercise of sorts.

I’d never heard of somatic therapy before. Or maybe I had and it just hadn’t registered. But we did a couple of body movements that she had me hold and then release and oh my gosh!

It wasn’t a miracle or an overnight change, but I felt a physical refreshment in addition to the comfort of a mental release.

I’m looking forward to more sessions.

The timing is perfect as I inch closer to the close of my active cancer treatment and feel like I’m about to be able to let out the breath I have been holding for eight months. I’m afraid I’m going to fall apart when I finally let it out, but at least I feel like I’m building my army of those with strong arms that I can fall into.


WhatDreamsMayCome September 10, 2021

I'm a big advocate of yoga.

Athena September 11, 2021

Yes! Somatic therapy will be so good for you! I’m glad you’ve found someone who can maybe help you!

Marg September 11, 2021

I’d never heard of that type of therapy before but it sounds perfect for you in your situation and I’m glad the first try worked so well. Here’s to many more good sessions like that one!

pandora September 25, 2021

I'm so glad you found someone.

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