• Jan. 22, 2021, 5:33 p.m.
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My oncologist said that the cancer is acting like stage four. Three things he can try to accomplish are to shrink the cancer, slow or halt the growth, and give me a longer and good quality of life. He proposed three treatment plans after I take the PET scan Tuesday. Then we will know if the cancer has spread to other parts of my body.

George was with me as I talked to the Oncologist. He called the kids while suggesting I talk with them. This note will let my Cuz know that I am well…no matter what, and I will email my friend in AA. The thing that brings tears to my eyes is the thought that I will soon be seeing Jo, Duck, Poolie, and all the other friends I have lost these last years. More tears when I think of George. Most of the time I can smile.

  • Himself: Holding my hand. Being right there.
  • Myself: Reassessing.
  • Reading: Longmire. Only three books left to read.
  • Watching: Ken Kramer, Beat Bobby Flay, North Star Law, and one more.
  • Photographer: G, 2007, taking the train to Seattle.
  • Gratitude’s: Being able to write.

Oswego January 22, 2021

My prayers go to you with hopes for vanquishing the cancer. May you find the right treatment. Your courage and sense of peace will sustain you. Take care.

hippiechica15 January 22, 2021


woman in the moon January 22, 2021

Sorry to hear this. Life is both beautiful and difficult. We do the best we can.

Jinn January 22, 2021

Prayers that he can find a way to halt the growth. I am sorry that you are having to experience this. ❤️

Zipster January 22, 2021

I will hold on to the hope you will have some more time, as long as you are not suffering. It has been a great pleasure getting to know you here.

Adventure before Dementia January 22, 2021

Hoping that you can still enjoy the rest of your life despite the unwelcome invaders.

ODSago January 22, 2021

I love seeing your photo here and of course admire your staunch movement through this precious time. I have a small spot on my pancreas, don't know if it will take me down a similar road to yours someday. I have always admired you and will keep you in mind. You look beautiful. And, are beautiful. Love...

Ragdolls January 22, 2021

You have given me so much enjoyment by allowing me to read your diary. Take care...(((HUGS)))

Marg January 23, 2021

This is very sad to read and I’m so sorry you’re going through the experience. I know George will be by your side and will be making sure you’re as comfortable as you can possibly be throughout it all. I hope the treatment plans you’re embarking on all work out well.

aunty EM January 23, 2021

May your days be blessed with wonderful moments and comforting memories.

IpsoFacto January 23, 2021

I always have heard the expression “Grace under fire.” My much respected friend, you personify it.

Narrator January 23, 2021

That's a lot to absorb - I'm so sorry. I'm glad you have George, and that the oncologist has a range of thoughts for moving forward.

gattaca January 23, 2021

Prayers for you Mage, every day.

NorthernSeeker January 24, 2021

You always looks so elegant in your photos.

Maybe I'm in denial thinking "acting like Stage 4 cancer doesn't mean it's Stage 4 cancer" but that is what I believe. You are living with tremendous grace and dignity through all the testing and advice. I'm sending positive thoughts into the universe on your behalf.

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