NJM 2020, Entry 11 - I Had a Dream in These Foolish Things

  • Nov. 11, 2020, 10:45 a.m.
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I had a dream last night. I won’t go into all of the details because they are boring, but the main thing that I remember is that I had a boyfriend in my dream! And that was wonderful. We were in bed together, just waking up, and the boyfriend told me that I’d fallen asleep so hard that there was no way to rouse me.

I really do need to ask the doc if this is normal. I feel like a narcoleptic.

Checked the fitbit and it shows a great score of 85, including nearly two hours of REM sleep so that’s why the vivid dreams, and nearly two more hours of deep sleep. So WHY am I so tired all the time? Had a hard time again today just getting up and out of bed.

However, I’m up and it’s a new day!

How’s everyone doing today? Are we good? Are we staying away from the Rona? I swear, we are going to be in the height of the pandemic and my office is requiring everyone to come back to the office after Thanksgiving.

So the week after everyone goes to their respective family gatherings and all of the kids come home from college and everyone goes to visit relatives, spreading Covid near and far, my company wants everyone to gather back in the office and get back to work. Great.

I have actually asked for the week after Thanksgiving off and Boss didn’t flinch..at ALL. He simply signed the paperwork during our 1:1 meeting yesterday. This makes me very worried. Like, he always gives me shit for any time I take off - especially during the holidays - but this time there was no discussion about it. I don’t know if he even looked. I think something’s up.

I also told him about all of the disasters from yesterday and do you know what he said?! He literally said, “it is what it is.” And that was that.

Not a great feeling, but again, it’s GO time.

What else is happening?

Oh. My niece is going to turn 5 years old right before Thanksgiving. She’s spoiled rotten, but it breaks my heart that she does not have any other kids in her life right now. She’s not going to school/daycare and stays home with her mom and my parents all day because of Covid. My brother doesn’t want her going anywhere (he’s a school teacher and lives separately from her and his wife because he’s terrified of giving them the Rona).

Anyway. I want to get her something useful, but I’m struggling. She has every toy imaginable, but I know she needs connection more than anything else. She’s super smart and tech savvy already. She figures out apps and computer programs much faster than any of the adults.

I’ve never really had children in my life except for lots of babysitting when I was much younger and then when I almost married EXMS and even that connection with those two were limited. What to get a 5-year-old in the time of Covid?

And then, just the thought of it being the holidays already. I know that we are not out of the woods as it pertains to the awfulness of everything in 2020, but it just feels like there might be a light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel and I’m cautiously optimistic about 2021.

I am ready for this dark cloud to move on.

Just Some Girl November 11, 2020

I wonder if there are interactive play groups, or something of the like, that might be gift-able? Like a subscription for some sort of socially-distant / online peer group activity? I feel like if that's not a thing yet, it will be soon... :)
If I had a 5yo in my life, I might get her and her parent(s) a Zoo membership, or a museum membership, or a visit to the aquarium, stuff like that. Again, all socially-distant, of course, and 2/3 outdoors... idk if those are options where you are, but that's what came to my mind! :)

Ginger Snap Just Some Girl ⋅ November 11, 2020

Awesome ideas, thank you!

plushcreep November 11, 2020

1202021 can't get here fast enough.

Athena November 11, 2020

My aunts gave me really fancy art supplies and also classic books from the time I was her age. I still have some of the books.

Ginger Snap Athena ⋅ November 11, 2020


Complicated Disaster November 11, 2020

Maybe it's your boss who's going??!! xx

Palmtreesandzebras November 11, 2020

My Grandmother always indulged in my art side at that age. But I also hear a lot about Zoom dance classes and what not. Perhaps that might be something she could do?

Jinn November 11, 2020

I am ready to start on the holidays :-)

WhatDreamsMayCome November 12, 2020

I’d suggest anything that doesn’t involve screen time for the gift.
Boss man probably has a lot on his mind.

pandora November 14, 2020

We bought Audrey, who just turned six, some building blocks and magna-tiles, and a book with pop-out items to dress up a unicorn cut-out it came with. Remember when we were young and you could change the clothes on a cardboard doll, with the paper clothes with little tabs you'd fold over? It was kind of like that but unicorn related because unicorns are the shit right now in the little girl world. Anyway, she was obsessed, I'll see if I can remember what it was called.

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