NJM 2020, Entry 10 - Clunking Around in These Foolish Things

Well. It’s one of those days when nothing…and I mean nothing is going right at work. Today is the day when everything is imploding and I can’t even believe it. And it’s like it’s mistakes that others have made and they are trying to put the blame on me.

For example, something needed to be approved last week so a factory could send a large shipment of samples to me from Asia. I immediately emailed back the approval to the representatives of the factory and the samples should have been sent to me on Friday, which means that they should be here at my office in the USA today, right? So today when I checked on it, they were like…OH. We need your approval. And when I went back and sent a reply that my approval was in that very email, they were like, OH. Well you didn’t say that the approval was for THIS factory!

Ya’ll. THAT factory was the ONLY factory they represent! What other factory could I have possibly be talking about?! We had to have four rounds of emails about how I’d fucked up when they were the ones who screwed it up royally! Literally, this person was trying to gaslight me and there were several others copied on that email and NOBODY would fess up to their fuck up. I could feel my blood pressure boiling. It’s still boiling.

I could write down at least three more issues of the same caliber. I’m not even kidding. These are stupid things and I just kept thinking all morning, I can’t do this anymore. Mistakes are one thing, but to try to put in on me - the customer. It’s just beyond belief and bordering on comical at this point.

But all of that is enough. I am over it already. I have a meeting with Boss this afternoon and he doesn’t give a flip that I’m working with incompetant people. That’s on me to manage.

SIGH.

Nothing is right today. What do the stars say?

I just checked. Meh, not much.

What else?

Here’s something kind of funny. I can see that NORT the Woo is in town as he posted a selfie on Instagram this afternoon. He’s downtown with his mask on. Not sure what he’s doing there, but I can tell you what he’s not doing…wooing me. So much for that.

I swear. I can tell that the universe is telling me that things are not going to work with the status quo. Things are simply not happening - even if someone or something comes right out and tells me that things are working. THEY ARE NOT.

So while I keep telling myself I need to get a move on, I’ve been sooooo very tired the past few weeks. Like, I get home and after walking the dog and a bite to eat for dinner, I’m ready to crawl in bed.

But the thing is, instead of busting my hump for the job hunt, or maybe even watching a little TV or reading or writing an entry, my eyes just start shutting and I have to go to sleep! My body simply won’t stay awake. The second my head hits the pillow I fall into a deeeeeep sleep. I looked at my fitbit for last night’s sleep and it says I fell asleep at 8:56 (actually a little later than normal) and had a solid 7.5 hours of sleep. This is wild because I used to only sleep about 5 hours a night. I know it’s likely because I’m getting older but I also wonder about these new BP meds. I’m also super tired mid-day and I can hardly pull myself out of bed most mornings. I used to jump up every morning.

I want to jump up every morning! I want to be excited about life again!

Okay, well. I have some things to do before the end of the workday. And then my excitement of the evening will be to work on my online networking while watching The Bachelorette (with the NEW bachelorette, Tayshia…since Claire couldn’t keep it in her pants long enough to make it to four or five episodes!).

More to come, I’m sure. But I will be honest and say that the covid vaccine can’t come fast enough. I need some INSPIRATION!!

Love and clunks,
GS