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January 26, 2022

Booked in Current Events

I’m feeling a little nervous. I just booked a haircut and I’m going to lift the colour to white or sterling silver. I’ve been wanting that colour for a few years now but I never bothered. I was t...


I had an annoying ongoing joke today. I found a pink slip and told everybody that it was an omen that the universe was telling me that I am getting fired. It was just a list that a customer tosse...


January 22, 2022

Ram-Bull in Current Events

I still cannot connect to the people, places and things that I felt a connection with just a month ago. My body expressed illness over Christmas and I was completely out of commission for about t...


January 22, 2022

Shit Disturber in Current Events

I wasn’t able to let it go. I called the aware line that my work provides for us to report unethical behaviour. I had the option of remaining anonymous but I gave them my name. I reported that ou...


January 19, 2022

Blah in Current Events

I did reckon a few weeks ago that there was a two-month cap on this con-19 hoax. England stops playing pandemic next week. Well, they drop to a plan A which means something. I haven’t been watchi...


January 17, 2022

Petty in Current Events

I’m going to make a mountain out of a molehill here and complain about something petty about my roommate, again. Business as usual. Well, I have been making a conscious effort not to complain abo...


January 15, 2022

Nerve & Nerves in Current Events

My nerves are a little high. I feel anxious because I am going to book an appointment to cut and colour my hair. It’s a habit to experience this as worry but I can simply commit to a context that...


January 12, 2022

Good Mood in Current Events

I’m in a good mood today. Right from the moment that I woke up. When I got to work, I’ve been very engaging with everybody that works at the store. Making friends, if you will. My workload, I’m d...


January 11, 2022

Kindness in Current Events

My day yesterday was just about compromised from the get-go. I accidentally ripped the plug for my car, the block heater, off the cord. It’s been -40c for weeks now. I thought this was going to c...


January 09, 2022

Sun Day Fun Day in Current Events

Toni ordered us Cilantros on Friday and she made me a peanut butter & chocolate pie for my birthday. It was hilarious that she also hid a birthday present in a stocking that she has hanging o...


Every year on my birthday when people ask about my age I would always explain how many times I’ve been around the sun. I suppose I don’t get to say my favourite Gattaca line anymore as I no longe...


January 04, 2022

Win in Current Events

I went into work with my anxiety sky high yesterday and my day got pretty interesting. On my first break, our HR rep came out of her office to tell me that I had just won a TV from our twelve day...


January 03, 2022

Compressed in Current Events

My anxiety got the best of me again today. Usually, I do not experience fear while my anxiety is flared up but these last two days were different. I am not sure why I am experiencing this, yet. I...


January 02, 2022

Solitude in Current Events

My anxiety was high yesterday. I can’t seem to connect to anything or anyone. I could not connect to my usual hobbies, interests and just anything. Not even to my usual trains of thought. I tried...


December 31, 2021

Nothing Extraordinary in Current Events

My mind is creating an enemy construct and I can’t seem to stop it even though I am conscious of it. It wants easy street and creating a victim narrative is the easiest. My mind is using Toni to ...


December 29, 2021

Ram Bull in Current Events

I have been back at work since Monday. I just have leftover asthma symptoms but everybody is superstitious so I feel some type of way. I probably could have used an extra week but it had been ove...


December 25, 2021

Hard on the Friendship in Current Events

Bev gave me a lot to think about regarding Toni. It’s been weighing on my mind. She is an addict. She isn’t drinking a bottle of wine and then some every day anymore she is just going to get high...


December 22, 2021

Recovering in Current Events

Toni is really getting on my nerves. She won’t stop making me being sick all about her. This morning I updated her on how I’m feeling, all my symptoms are gone except a minor cough. She goes off ...


December 21, 2021

Oy in Current Events

My body is expressing illness, yes, and naturally Toni went and made it all about her. I have low patience today I could have snapped. I did not do this to her a few months ago when she had it wa...


December 18, 2021

Medical Heretic Things in Current Events

I was aiming to do the grocery run today but I don’t have the energy to haul it all upstairs after. I’ll pass. I decided to call my mother to see how things were going and to chat because my head...


December 18, 2021

Medical Heathen Things in Current Events

I think I had my first migraine on Thursday. Shortly after I left work I ended up with a debilitating headache. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t handle light or sound. I spent the entire day laying on...


December 16, 2021

Under The Weather in Current Events

My body is expressing a little illness today. I feel hungover but I didn’t have a drop of alcohol last night. What I did have was a brief panic attack yesterday and I suppose my body is trying to...


December 15, 2021

Sunk in Current Events

I saw my depression coming a mile away. It always follows my anxiety. It hit me out of nowhere. I was at work, nearing the end of my shift. Nothing triggered it. I took a brief nap when I got hom...


December 12, 2021

Esoteric Mumbo Jumbo in Current Events

This reading felt accurate. I didn’t watch the entire reading because I fell asleep. If it doesn’t resonate with you don’t make it fit your story. The reverse can also be true. That is the discl...


December 12, 2021

Medical Heathen in Current Events

I spent the majority of yesterday in bed. I suppose I needed a rest day. I tried to read a 59-page leaflet on tarot but it was too hard to focus. I do not have enough control of my mind and I can...


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