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Melodrama: aTom Production Depression attack hit me out of nowhere. I woke up from my nap and before I knew it I could feel its crushing weight. There is nothing weighing on my mind or weighing o...

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I don’t have a shift today and that is rare for a Monday. I’ll use this new week new me energy that I like so much and work for myself. Today, I am going to contact the institution that is denyin...

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Dear Log: It’s been one week since my talk with my roommate. So far she has been cleaning up after herself, taking out the trash and cooking for herself. She’s also been hiding in her room from m...

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I don’t feel like I have a lot to say. I don’t have that mind-numbing inner monologue about my roommate on repeat now that I’ve actually spoken with her. As for work, that place doesn’t feel so t...

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I interviewed for two programs today. The organization is expanding. They are adding a Communications Coordinator. I don’t think I will land that one, even though I applied for it. The second one...

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Today I am going downtown to the open house at that Aboriginal Centre. Just we are up to speed, my friend recommended it to me because she loves what she does there and she thinks I would be a go...

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I’ve been Hoe on the Go for the last day or so. I have a potentially fantastic opportunity this Wednesday. I’m going to an open house at an Aboriginal centre that does much work for the community...

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I finally had the talk with my roommate. Can you believe? You’ll have to read my previous entry to know what straw broke the camels back. I started the conversation with how shitty it was to leav...

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I’m so pissed off right now. Before I left to meet up with the girls I asked Toni, my deadbeat roommate, my friend, what time her birthday dinner was this evening. Oh, I had that on Wednesday, I ...

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While I was on TikTok, I came across a term that I decided to explore today called ADHD paralysis. The content creator started the video off with “how I start my day after my ADHD paralysis.” Som...

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Yesterday wasn’t a complete waste but it was a waste in the end. The astrological vibe was very lay around, get a snack, nap, shop, take a nap. Nothing was in a fire sign. No starting energy. La...

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I think I weighed 1000 lbs yesterday. I could not move. My depression was so heavy. I surrendered to it. It’s a symptom that needs to be supported. Suppressing symptoms creates systemic problems....

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I have to be honest that I am committed to my old fucked up ways. I have plenty of opportunities to create positive changes for myself but I find myself caught in a positive feedback loop—my cla...

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Of all the things that I have on my plate to worry about, it is literal plates that are stressing me out. I have 99 problems and it’s always my roommate that I get most fixated on. Yesterday, I ...

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I can’t tell if I was awake and hearing voices or dreaming that I was hearing voices. I was in that waking up state. It happened between my two alarms that I have set. Not all of us have an inne...

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I’m still having vivid dreams since I quit coffee. Regular coffee that is. Everything else has been corrected since I started drinking mushroom coffee. I have one portion left so I decided to ord...

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I can’t drink alcohol without feeling guilt written about it. I feel as though I cheated something. I suppose that would be myself. I’ve been working hard to detox my liver. Coffee enemas, castor...

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I did not get the position I applied for. She explained that I had aced the interview but they went with somebody with more overall experience. I didn’t think to check my work e-mail until a cowo...

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Why are you like this?! That is the question that I need to ask myself more often. I have mood poisoning and it’s not like I actually want to be sitting here experiencing it. I pieced it togethe...

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Yesterday, I reached the part of the day where my energy locks up and I die inside. I surrendered to it and crawled into bed as per usual. Why am I like this? I asked myself. I remembered how bad...

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Astrologers have their knickers in a twist about today. This week we are all Scorpio. They say. My chart is heavy with Scorpio and my rising is Taurus and even though I feel weighed down I prefer...

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I put my castor oil pack over my lungs last night. I got a taste of what it must be like to try and sleep with a bra on. Speaking of men in bras, I accidentally added to woke supremacy the other ...

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My boss reached out to me this morning to let me know that I am entitled to bereavement pay. She helped me switch my shifts around last week to make it to a funeral but did not know whom it was f...

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We buried my grandfather yesterday. He was a Reverend. He and my grandmother opened the first church on our reserve. He opened one in the city after my grandmother passed away. His son Adolph is ...

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I forget that I am experiencing a projection of myself when it comes to my roommate. It’s as though I am face to face with the kind of man that I used to be. A picture of my own instability. I wa...

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