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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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The Middle Path in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Split the difference. Go down the center. Remain in the middle. Be ever grounded in the handle of the tuning fork; observing the interplay between the 2 forks. I stared at the shadow of the pe...
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I Was Told in Journal
today, that my Sweetness is just under the surface, that it’s there, just under a thin and thinning shell. Lol I’m reminded of my Shelly nickname. They knew. It’s not a coincidence. Nothing ...
I can see how and why my life has played out in exactly the way that it has. The realization of Ruthlessness- of having no pity- has opened my eyes to seeing every one of my own choices without ...
Braiding in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
I am being braided up and down and through my core. Into my Oversoul and into my spirit. Gently, slowly, it has worked. Patiently and tirelessly out of love. And duty. There is a certain co...
It Seemed Like in Meditations
20 minutes but it had been 2 hours. 2 hours that I spent dreaming in the bathtub. And writing that dream down. I’m staring at the page right now. It seems surreal. Somehow more than real. Li...
Understanding in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
is not a goal to strive toward by grasping and attaining for oneself, but a state to move into in order to receive it. Understanding is a place. It is a FEELING resonance. Which once we arrive...
I am Reminded in Journal
Almost moment by moment, of the seemingly impossible things that keep happening. They keep happening. I look down at my own body; my legs, my feet. They are planted firmly. I feel my muscles....
The New Earth has Arrived in Meditations
I don’t know how I know this. But I feel it. It’s in my bones. It’s in the way heart is melting and shivering with the intensity. I recognize in some indescribable way my peers. They appear to...
Anxiety in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
11:11:11 “And it was so on the morrow, that Sha’ul put the people in three companies; and they came into the midst of the host in the morning watch and slew the Ammoniym until the heat of the d...
Peace in Meditations
In knowing I spoke to Joel today and it was refreshing. Reassuring. A nice way to hash out with someone who has experienced these things and know that I’m not crazy. Or particularly in dire str...
I had already in Dreams
Woken up. I gathered my self to get up. I felt tired, my eyes heavy. I accepted this. None of my habitual resentment. I brought to mind my choices. To be excited or to be in shame. I conscious...
Recognition in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
of excitement. It’s taken me a while. Maybe I’m dense. I saw several memories as visions as well as imagined futures, and ones that could have been. I recognized the feeling quality which g...
Pure Affection in Journal
The Toltecs say that there is a realm of pure affection which underlies this entire realm. I don’t know if any of that is true or not. But I do feel this affection. I feel it like a vague (but ...
I have Energy in Journal
Enough to run around outside with my son for a few hours. We built a big sledding ramp with snow and sled down it a bunch. I also just ran around for no reason other than I felt like it. I hav...
The Mystical Commandments in Essays
I woke up with a vision. A nostalgic thoughtfulness which brought me dreamily back to my childhood, my own children, and how I perceive that we are commanded. Not through text, or any book or ...
Dreaming is the Natural state of Consciousness in Essays
“When we study the human astral body, we must necessarily turn our attention to the most prominent aspect of man’s astral body in the way that it manifests itself on the Earth. This is conscious...
Interaction in Meditations
Last night I dreamt of this general theme. I woke seeing a figure of a man sitting in lotus position backlit by a divine golden light. I woke to this image several times. I have a sense that tha...
Insecurity that I can’t quite identify plagues my mind. The sense of realness of this place is starting to ebb. I remember how Black Beauty was redeemed. And I wonder if the so-called flyers ar...
Think about this in Journal
“ordinarily, dreamers are merely voyeurs. The way your journey turned out, you two got a ringside seat and lived the old sorcerers’ damnation. What happened to them was precisely what happened t...
The act of recalling my dreams has started to take on a new character. I feel that I remember my dreams, and that there is a portal into it. A wisp or a fragment which can transport me into it....
I walked into in Journal
The county recorders office and Out of some background haze a woman greeted me at the counter. “What can I do for you today?” She asked. I gave her the quilt claim deed. She tried to read it...
Sweeping the kitchen I become aware. Who is sweeping the kitchen? Who made the decision? Who is running this program? Because it is a program.... It is not something I consciously decided...
Dreaming in Meditations
Is it possible to dream ourselves into a new reality? Right out of the division and vampirism. And into a universal type of peace. I don’t mean anything so idealistic that I, or any one pers...
I was out in a very strange place. It was mountainous, not unlike Sedona. I came into a group setting, again not unlike the one in Sedona. Except I was finding myself on the top of a bluff, in...
