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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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And Faith Seem interwoven in a bedrock of meaning throughout my life. My mind races and tries to put 2 and 2 together; frantic to figure it out. Anxiety drives my mind to dwell, to ponder, to...
Unselfconsciousness in Meditations
This morning I felt such a loudness in my heart. It was overwhelming; literally all I could hear, all I could focus on, all I could feel. When I sat to meditate, I felt my heart like a huge vibr...
Life gets Stranger in Journal
I ve entered the strangest place I’ve been, so far. So funny how that’s always the case. Life only gets more strange. It gets more unexpected. It only goes in one direction. There’s never an...
Speak and it shall in Journal
Be so. I am not the one who has it all together and “is okay” no matter what; I am receptive and open to receiving and giving support, challenges, love, judgements, and resources. I am not r...
Nothing is ever in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Quite the same after having a baby. After breastfeeding, any time I feel turned on I immediately think oh shit, I’m going to start leaking! And have to find some way to run to a bathroom and ch...
I'm scared in A Childhood Lost
I’m really really really scared Of myself Of what seems to happen around me Whan I feel or don’t feel There seems to be real world consequences Not for me But for everyone around me I d...
Sometimes, in Journal
I don’t know what to do I get these instances of compelling urges to do things that don’t make sense. And, especially when I percieve that I’m making a decision that affects someone else, I he...
9th of January and 2026 is a 1 year. There is a phenomenon which I dubbed the “911 rule”, in which events taking place between September 8th and 12th have a special resounding quality that car...
Another World in Dreams
I can’t recall what I had been doing or thinking all day. It is exactly like I began dreaming. And when I’m in n the dream, only what is pertinent to the current experience is present for me in ...
Epiphany in Meditations
Came and went quietly in our home. It was the Last Holy Day of Christmastide, and the last day of presents, decorations, Christmas music, and it seems like, a certain mood of subtle power and di...
in my dream … As I move around the house this morning, toiletries, passes, vitamins, water. I feel as I’m walking through the character of my dream. I woke to my alarm and immediately went bac...
Everything in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
interacts with my unique structure and produces thoughts and feelings in me entirely distinct, individual, and irreproducible. There will never be a feeling or thought exactly like the one I ju...
We Are Not Our Thoughts in Essays
I believe hardly anyone actually believes this. And hardly anyone takes it to the extremes that it could be taken to. It is true; we are not our thoughts. It’s absolutely true. Take this c...
Do We Really Know in Dreams
Who and what we are? I had the thought in a dream last night, about my name. It should have been Monica I thought. I recalled my parents and their shallowness- their refusal to acknowledged any...
Solitude in Meditations
Is so lovely. I rarely have the chance, other than getting up very early before everyone else. When I get a chance during the day, though, it seems to charge my energy like nothing else. I sat...
I am Having Such in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
a MOMENT right now. I dreamed about Capricorn. Yes… An astrological sign. An Earth sign. The sign of grounded doing. The goat climbs up the earth mountain. There is further mystery here, for ...
Trust in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Is funny. One moment I know that I’m skeptical and expecting doubt. Then, it seems like only a short while later, I haven’t got a single doubt down to my bones. I’m ready to run off a cliff if...
Everything is happening for me and not to me. Even this. Even this. Even this feeling of frustration, humiliation and loneliness is for me. How can I perceive it as such? How can I meet it pro...
Inversions of Femininity in Meditations
I have been pondering this conundrum for some time. The last I wrote about my perceptions in to the Feminine-Masculine dynamic was quite some time ago. I haven’t looked. Might’ve been spring o...
The Namesake in Journal
It has just now this very moment, after all these years, occurred to me that I have never explained my handle. Well, it’s my cat. Her name is Miss Chiff. She is the lord floof of this domain. ...
Finish the Novel in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
The novel that has languished unfinished both in text and in my imagination for over a decade. I need to finish it. I finally figured out what it is about:)
Are Dreams an Integration in Dreams
of something we already know, or something new coming into the awareness? It’s both, of course… depending on which level of consciousness one focuses on. Last night I dreamt about balance an...
Crying Unexpectedly in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
is always a good sign lol It’s funny how memories are.... When I had no experience of remembering them, it was as if those memories did not exist at all. There was nothing- not a hind- to my co...
I Need to Pay in Journal
more attention to the divine celestial bodies. I keep having these profound experiences and later learn something is going on in the heavens at the moment I noticed a huge shift. But this wa...
Christmas this Year in Journal
feels like family. I have hardly anything in the way of gifts. I feel like I’ve done enough throughout the year. My knack and talent for bringing transformational messages into people’s lives ...
