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june 26 in twenty-eight
I had a much better day today. Or at least the evening has been fine. I had a long day at work, which had become the norm, and thankfully had a therapy appointment scheduled at four so I was able...
june 25 in twenty-eight
I don't like to think that I'm depressed. But maybe I am. I don't want to get out of bed. The thought of having to do it makes me queasy and panicked. I hate leaving the house and would be perfec...
june 25 in twenty-eight
I am a worrier. It's just in my nature to feel anxious over everything. How do you fix that? Tonight in bed I had that tight feeling in my chest. Like the one you get right before you start to cr...
june 24 in twenty-eight
It's been such an impossibly long day and I feel no hope.
june 23 in twenty-eight
I'm struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the mornings. I'm in a really dark funk right now.
june 22 in twenty-eight
Let me see if I can convey the suckfest that has been my life for the last several days. The driving to and from Key West actually wasn't bad. It was the best part of the whole trip. The compan...
june 21 in twenty-eight
Sometimes it feels so lonely here. Mostly when I need it not to. It's not the same.
june 20 in twenty-eight
Attending a wedding takes something out of me. It makes me feel overly self conscious of my inability to make the kind of connections other people seem to have. It makes me feel lonely and differ...
june 19 in twenty-eight
We made it! My feet are swollen from travel and I temporarily have cankles, and I'm exhausted after being up for the last eight hours ON TOP of the 22 hours we drove, since R had a welcome party ...
june 18 in twenty-eight
I slept all morning, cleaned all afternoon, and drove all night. We left columbus at 5:15 and began our great adventure to key west. That is a 22 hour drive, for those of you keeping track. No s...
june 17 in twenty-eight
I'm on vacation! Free through next Monday. I still have so much I need to do before this trip. Like clean the apartment for my sister, pack, get my nails done, drop roomie off at class so I can p...
june 16 in twenty-eight
Yesterday was just a rough day, or at least the afternoon was, and I'm sorry if I came across as melodramatic. Today is much better. Actually I was very happy for this Monday to roll around, sinc...
june 15 in twenty-eight
Sometimes I feel like the biggest failure. I can't do the basic things people are supposed to do. And then I get snapped at for it. Which is great, because that really fixes everything. Except th...
june 14 in twenty-eight
What a fabulous day! We woke up early this morning (early being 8:45?) and went to the zoo around 10:30. It was packed! I know they say the Columbus zoo is the best in the country but I have noth...
june 13 in twenty-eight
I am really passionate about a few great products. I've written at least three entries on the marvels of the Diva Cup, and I know I've mentioned True Lemon before, too. I hate water. It's so dul...
june 12 in twenty-eight
I'll be in Key West in a week! I still can't believe we are making that long drive, but I think it will be fun. At least fun to look back on? We are leaving Wednesday evening around 6:30 (althoug...
june 11 in twenty-eight
My attempt at drinking more water and less Diet Coke has been successful, so far. My head hurt something terrible for most of the day on Monday, and I did have one can of Diet Coke in the early a...
june 10 in twenty-eight
Staying home from work is always great at the time, but it always, ALWAYS, comes back to bite me. I need to stop taking time off.
june 9 in twenty-eight
Every now and again I realize how much Diet Coke I really drink in a day, and I make a conscious effort to cut back. I reached that point late last week, when I realized that I had just purchas...
june 8 in twenty-eight
Sometimes I want a family so much that it makes my heart ache. But I don't think it's in the cards for me and I can't explain why. It was a big problem with me and Chris and contributed a good ...
june 7 in twenty-eight
I feel myself becoming increasingly withdrawn. Sometimes I fear the life of a hermit is in my future. How do you learn how to make friends?
june 6 in twenty-eight
Yesterday felt like Friday. Today feels like Thursday. I prefer today's confusion. My bank is requesting final documents to get my loan approved. Yay yay yay. My closing isn't for another three ...
june 5 in twenty-eight
I am SO freaking exhausted. And since I'm averaging at least eight hours of sleep a night during the week, I'm baffled as to why. I've been struggling with even opening my eyes in the mornings. ...
june 4 in twenty-eight
It's storming! Right outside my office window. I had a great view of some lightning earlier. I wish it would storm every day, just briefly. I think there is no better weather than broody late spr...
june 3 in twenty-eight
Somehow in the last three days I've become addicted to the x files and have watched over twenty episodes. It's creeeeepy. Watching it alone in the middle of the night doesn't help with the creep ...
