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Happy Holidays and Stuff in Musings
So I’m still living. Thanks for all the congrats on the last entry. The last month has been such a struggle. The nausea and tiredness in the beginning of pregnancy are so hard to deal with when y...
As it turns out... in Musings
Um.. I’m actually pregnant. (I can’t figure out how to include a picture and I don’t want to get on the computer to do it) I took a test on a whim yesterday and it was lightly positive. I took o...
Empty and full in Musings
I found out through my brother that our cousin’s wife is pregnant. I’m not sure why he told me. It was a secret my cousin revealed to him because they are best friends. And they are going to offi...
Stockholm's Syndrome or something in Musings
I dreamt last night that I was pregnant. And then for whatever reason I decided to cheat on Nathan. With a woman. And then she told me I was too needy and broke up with me. Nathan and my family r...
An opportunity. in Musings
It looks like Nathan is going to be joining a side business with a good family friend of his. This man is his parents age and works a steady job but has been cultivating this side business where ...
Want-another-baby Blues in Musings
Up until just this month the desires to have anyother baby laid dormant. Despite knowing I wanted another eventually I didn’t actively desire one. But it hit me. The inevitable, hormonal, primal...
Exhausted but happy in Musings
I’m exhausted. Physically and mentally exhausted. But so happy. Maybe happy isn’t the word. Content? At peace? Things are still the same. Still no new job for Nathan but for one reason or another...
I don't WANT to feel this way in Musings
(Look I’m writing again!) I have know since I was a teen that I have bouts of anxiety and depression that ebb and flow. I have know that they have gotten better since I have been older. I have kn...
What happened? in Musings
Geez guys. I once again forgot about this place. I honestly haven’t taken the time to figure it out. I don’t get the whole “Book” thing. I am not sure how to find people I want to find. And I gen...
I just forgot... in Musings
I literally forgot this place existed. I miss OD and I miss writing. There are a couple of you that I’m in regular correspondence with. But I miss every one else. I am not even sure what to write...
The end of an era in Musings
Well OD is officially shutting down. I wrote in that diary for 12 years. I don't remember how I found it or what really prompted me to begin it. I didn't write it with the best consistency, but i...
