The Golden Hammer
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"But what love got to do with it when you don't love yourself?"
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Too much hair in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Lately I have been trying so hard to distract myself. To not think about Ashley. To not think about a lot of things. To not worry. I've been trying so many different methods and ways to distract ...
Music Helps in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I cleaned up my iPhone. Song wise. I deleted some and I added some. Made a new playlist mixed with new music and some old stuff. Some old stuff I forgot about. My phone is only 8 gigs so its hard...
November. - BOQ #22 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
November is my favorite month. I like March too. November and March are my favorite months. November just feels so mysterious and magical? Can't think of a better word than magical. In PA Novembe...
Halloween in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Look at my earlier entries. I'm not like this anymore. But this is just a moment of weakness. Times of weakness. Everybody has them. The hard part is to not let these moments become you. Its so ...
18 - BOQ #21 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Hear me out. I looked to my little Icon to the left with my name, location, age etc. Something struck me. My age. I'm only 18 but I don't really feel it. I feel much older. Please don't mistake m...
Sentementalist. BOQ #20 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Respect all but fear none. I've been thinking a lot about fear lately. It is my favorite thing to think about at the moment. I am trying to minimalize my fear. I believe far more opportunities ...
Prosebox is good. But I'm also staying true to OD in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I made a Prosebox as a backup to OD. I keep hearing rumors of OD shutting down so I want to be ready. I just copied and pasted my entries over there. Prosebox is a very young site. 5 months old....
Feeling good BOQ #19 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Feeling good BOQ #19 Sunday, October 27, 2013 Being alone I do a lot of soul searching. I think about everything and I slowly learn who I am. Its hard to explain. I don't know who I am 100 p...
OD is working properly for me 10/27/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
OD is working properly for me Sunday, October 27, 2013 OD is working properly for me!! I'm thinking about stuff. Not bad thinking though. It used to be when I would think late at night it w...
Your own pace 10/26/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Your own pace Saturday, October 26, 2013 My computer keeps making the sound that my phone makes when I get a text. It is mysterious and frustrating. I have found that I am starting to value...
Quick one 10/24/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Quick One Thursday, October 24, 2013 No BOQ today. The book is upstairs and I don't feel like getting it. Hung out with John, Jenny, and Santos yesterday. It was nice. I'm hanging with Dani...
A constant BOQ #18 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
A constant BOQ #18 Tuesday, October 22, 2013 I have found pessimism gets me nowhere. I would honestly rather get let down than live day to day expecting nothing. That's an empty life. That's...
Broader Thinking BOQ #17 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Broader Thinking BOQ #17 Monday, October 21, 2013 My thoughts scare me. But I grow weary of being afraid. I grow weary of feeling stressed out. I grow weary of avoiding certain patterns of t...
Extra Spicy BOQ #16 10/19/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Extra Spicy BOQ #16 Saturday, October 19, 2013 "Life is full of hydraulics, up and down" - Kendrick Lamar I was up till almost 9 in the morning today watching movies. I watched "Prisoners" ...
Self Worth BOQ #15 10/19/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Self Worth BOQ #15 Saturday, October 19, 2013 "What's love got to do with it when you don't love yourself?" - Kendrick Lamar At one point this evening I was ashamed of myself. Embarrassed e...
Despite. BOQ #14 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Despite. BOQ #14 Thursday, October 17, 2013 My day was basic again. I can sometimes grow frustrated with this routine. But a routine is something I am grateful for to be honest. When you los...
Too long BOQ #13 10/17/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Too long BOQ #13 Thursday, October 17, 2013 Its been a couple of months. I've neglected OD because of dating Ashley. Not a real excuse but I've learned love can make you lazy. Also my comput...
Neglect.. A MONTH?? 7/29/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Neglect.. A MONTH???? Monday, July 29, 2013 A month. A MONTH???? I am thoroughly ashamed of myself. I will write a proper entry in a little bit. DAMN I blame Ashley. Oh yeah me and Ashle...
Up all night -- BOQ #12 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Up All Night --- BOQ #12 Sunday, June 30, 2013 A lot of anger in this entry. Fair warning. Ashley has me up all night. Not that I'm complaining. I like this girl a lot. But at some point I...
Bitter sweet Blood on the leaves BOQ #11 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Bittersweet Blood on the Leaves - BOQ #11 Thursday, June 27, 2013 I may have hypomania. Google it if you don't know. Or maybe I am having a manic episode. I mean of course looking online doe...
I had some sort of episode 6/25/13 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I had some sort of episode. Tuesday, June 25, 2013 I think I might have had an episode. I was just by myself in my room. If you were in my room I doubt you would have noticed. I wasn't like ...
Unexpected BOQ #10 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Unexpected - BOQ #10 Sunday, June 23, 2013 Well I feel myself slowly giving into Ashley. If i was in my right mind I would have given in a while ago. She is an awesome girl and she is sayin...
Goals BOQ #9 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Goals - BOQ #9 Thursday, June 20, 2013 Well I love love love the all three of the new Albums. Yeezus, Watching Movies with the sound off, and Born sinner. I can't stop listening. Its so nic...
3 new albums BOQ #8 in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
3 new albums- BOQ #8 Tuesday, June 18, 2013 Well I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now. Three new albums. Released on the same day. All big names. Mac Miller-Watching Movies With the...
Crazy in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Crazy Sunday, June 16, 2013 Sorry no BOQ today. Laptop been acting up. Writing this on my IPhone . These past couple of days have been interesting. Well I tried to tell Ashley in the clea...
