The Golden Hammer
I like to read and watch sports. How original lol Drink more water.
"But what love got to do with it when you don't love yourself?"
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I need to write in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I feel cloudy as always. I need to get a Kickstart. Motivation but I know that’s just another excuse. Mortality has really gotten a hold of my thoughts. Cold in this attic now but sweltering duri...
I sit and eat Ritz crackers like the 5 year old me and I wonder when I will grow up eh? I look back at these old entries and I realize my poor attitude hasn’t really changed. I need to take life ...
been awhile. in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I feel really lonely lately. Baby on my nerves. Jenny on my nerves. You can definitely say I feel trapped. I feel suffocated. I don’t know. Amanda offered therapy. But I backed out. Therapy makes...
life is an awkward struggle in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
The title is awesome right? Cool well this entry is nothing special from my typical bullshit. I have a girlfriend that constantly makes me jealous. More like i make myself jealous cause i am a cr...
Happy in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I am extremely happy with my life right now. I am in love with a girl and I am not worried about getting hurt or what might happen. I am now worried about being a good boyfriend which shouldn’t b...
stresses in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Living with a female in my life is proving to be a whole new challenge that I don’t know I want or am ready for. But it seems my feelings for Jenny surpass most of that. I have alot of pride and ...
Christmas Close in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I have been enjoying and not enjoying these past few days. Starting to enjoy more now though because I am recovering financially. Getting my food stamps sorted today hopefully with help from Aman...
idk i hate doing titles in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I find it difficult to write on days that I am with Jenny. I am getting used to, comfortable with, even excited about the idea of family with Jenny. I am used to Gavin. The only thing is the bab...
poetry in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Poetry improving. Did half of my workout and now I am going to shower and get ready for work. Smoke too of course lol. I feel stressed lately but i shall.meditate. Christmas and friends. New fri...
Lalalala in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I trimmed my beard down to satisfy Jenny. I like it like this. Never really gotta shave again. Need to buy clippers for myself. Work today. I get off before 10 which is amazing. Chillin with Jen...
mental strength in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I feel as though I am going through alot of mental growth. Good I think. But the stress and lack of sleep can suck. The increased work ethic. Maybe its good. Girlfriend. Family. Work. Bills. Chri...
L word in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Maybe I am falling in love? Something I have been contemplating. She gives me a headrush thinking about her. A head high. I realized i have a lot of love to give still despite the fact I feel as...
simple in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Ever since Jenny and I reunited its been great. Better than ever. I missed kissing her. Finished my book finally. I can mve on to others finally. I like that I am stsying busy. Life is teaching m...
Re connection in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Friends with Jenny again. It feels great. My attitude about things is really benefiting me. Me and her talked for hours days straight in a row now. Life is good right now. Titans play the Steele...
workin in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Grinding sooooo hard at work. Not. Its dead in here so might as well take advantage. Working with Jenny slightly awkward. Jamal and I worked fine. He left early. Gotta make breakfast. 2K. Then ...
simplicity in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Spent time with the entire family. My night of smoke was total chaos and I am proud that I maintained my routine. Smoked with the downstairs neighbor and her baby dad. Both of them very cool. Sp...
Days like this in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Days like this I find myself lost. I am enjoying the memories made and forgotten when I’m with my friends. Hot cocoa with Ashley. Lots of smoke and good times. Life is not meant to be lived wor...
thinkin in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Things are turning out fine. I am rather good at making the most out of my money. Budgeting. Recreation and necessity. Smooooke all day with great friends tomorrow. Buying 2k15 tomorrow alllllll...
unexpected but expected in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
I have a new profile picture from one of the family pics. Its just me. Nothing out of the ordinary. But it got 25 likes? I don’t get more than 5 likes on a picture unless there is a baby involve...
Screw a title in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Might be drinking tonight for the first time since that terrible night. Only if E won’t be there. If so then I am for sure not going. Finances stress me but I maintain and pay everything on time...
Alllll good in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Third shift week is completed and now back to normal second. At one point I didn’t sleep for like over 30 hours. Got home at 6:30 after work and just cleaned my entire house. Felt good but couldn...
november. okaythen in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Not sure how I feel about it being November. 2015 approaches and its strange. Gonna keep on my path towards a better me. Work tonight. Ewwww. I still do not know Ashley’s true feelings towards m...
Fatigue in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Tired but pushing on. Not that much sleep. Worked 3rd today. Gotta walk across the city to giant still. Finishing my.daily objectives regardless. I will feel great later that I finished them. I m...
Dare I say it in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Life has been okay despite some mental hiccups. I suppose I.will always be a sort of bi polar mess so.might as well roll with the punches that I inflict on myself. My depression is tricky but I ...
late post in My Ups and Downs Recorded.
Fell asleep last night thinking of a title.for this lolol Not working which is good. I feel better not working. Bills are about to be paid. Don’t work till late Wednesday. Slept alllllllllot gon...
