I had some sort of episode. Tuesday, June 25, 2013
I think I might have had an episode. I was just by myself in my room. If you were in my room I doubt you would have noticed. I wasn't like doing anything physically. I was just over thinking I guess. But everybody says that. I don't know If i was over thinking here. I thought about nothing and then my brain switched a channel to something else. A memory. A scenario. A possibility. Things that never happened. Whatever, anything and everything. Its like I had no control over my thinking. Just a bunch of random Images and scenes flying through my head at million miles an hour. It was a really scary feeling. The best way to describe it is, like I said, somebody changing the channels in my brain. I don't know if its over yet. I feel very unstable at the moment. I know if somebody reads this they might just roll their eyes. I spend many days trying to remove stress from my life. I don't know what happened just know. I am tired too. i could talk to Ashley I guess but I am not good at talking to people. This diary is all I do to get anything off of my chest. I feel like people would get super weirded out. HA who am I kidding I have no friends to tell. So I tell strangers on here.
If you met me in person you would assume that I am a very cool, mellow, relaxed person. Co workers at work say they could never see me freaking out. So yeah. I freak out on here instead of in public. Well this is public but you know what I mean. I am probably gonna go and google panic attacks or anxiety attacks after I am finished ranting and bitching about literally nothing. I seriously, seriously think I might be bi-polar. Gonna google that then too.
If I calm down I will write a proper sane entry. I do not know if this entry properly described how I am feeling right now.
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