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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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The Last Few Days Have Been Hell... in Hello
Friday she and I talked...I get where she's coming from, emotionally involved too quick while I was maintaining a bit of a slow pace into things. Just hurts really bad. Saturday I spent the m...
And It's Over... in Hello
She broke it off with me...
I Keep Staring At A Blank Screen... in Hello
With a full brain...but I can not find the words to put down. My feet hurt at the moment. The job is going well and I'm finally on a machine instead of a saw and getting some training. I w...
It Could Have All Crashed Today in Hello
About a week ago I had a really bad dream involving good old dead relatives and me not being sober. It hit me so much that at class the following day I asked one of my buddies to bring his weed ...
4/20 Easter in Hello
Been stoned most of the day eating chocolate. Just finished Brave New World by Aldous Huxley and currently rocking out to "Material Girl" by Madonna...it get s stuck in my head, don't judge. We...
Success!!! in Hello
Six months sober today. Oh yes, I feel sexy right now.
Fuck You! No...Wait...I Mean I Love You! Come Back! in Hello
I'm feeling pretty much 100% since getting sick. However I haven't had a cigarette since Tuesday last week. I. Want. To. Murder. People. And that's just it! I've not talked to anyone, I j...
Never Seems To Fail... in Hello
Seems like every time I get a new job within the first month I manage to get sick. I just took my doctor's note in for today. I would have called in but I'm positive they wouldn't have been abl...
Put The Dunce Cap On, Young Man! in Hello
Today I did some sawing at work for the first few hours until I was finally put on two CNC Lathes. Basically running production as in putting a part into the chuck, press a button, let the proce...
Taco Truck Breakfast in Hello
Holy fuck it's cold this morning! Yesterday I was in cargo shorts and t-shirt. Stepped out this morning to walk Melissa to her car in the same attire and gah! Cold! She came by last night a...
Letting The Days Go By in Hello
If it wasn't for my girlfriend Melissa telling my coworker Hayley what the boss said about my "party" being the United Way cookout, I wouldn't have gotten anything for my last day. Hayley, Brand...
8:28 AM Sitting In Class in Hello
The wall adapter to my laptop has gone caput and the laptop itself will only hold about ten to fifteen minutes of a charge so yeah, here I am. I've got a lot to talk about. So I ended up going ...
Get Used To The Weekends in Hello
I'm going to have to get used to having weekends off again. Been about eight years since I worked a job where I worked during the week and had them to myself. I was off today and this upcoming ...
No More Flippin' Burgers, Puttin' On My Silly Hat in Hello
I put my two weeks notice in tomorrow at Publix. I went back for a second interview last Wednesday for that co op job I checked out back in September. Today when I got back to school after lu...
I Feel So Terrible in Hello
I broke it off with Krystal tonight. There were many factors but it boils down to that I was no longer happy and really didn't see a future for us. I know that I've crushed her and can't shake ...
Harold Ramis in Hello
I was at work when my buddy Mike texted me that Harold Ramis passed away. Normally I don't get upset over a celebrity passing but this one is different. I stopped what I was doing as my jaw dro...
Some Thoughts... in Hello
I go to Cracked.com and Reddit.com and read stories from other alcoholics to remain inspired. Was talking to mom the other night that if I hadn't gotten my head wedged so far up my ass with my o...
Thirty-One in Hello
Happy Birthday to me Happy Birthday to me Happy Birthday, Dear Jesse Happy Birthday to me!
Bittersweet in Hello
What follows is a series of text messages I was sending to a friend. I've got some things in my head flowing around that I'm having a hard time articulating...here's a few. I'm actually depress...
My Body Hates Me in Hello
I managed to throw my back out close to two weeks ago. I went to the doctor and got some medicine for it and it was starting to get better...but then I closed both nights last weekend. Monday i...
Are We Not Men? We Are Devo! in Hello
Currently listening to the acoustic version of the Devo classic, "Jocko Homo." This song is very somber in acoustic form. Very pretty. In response to my last entry, Krystal was getting under...
uninspired in Hello
Stuff is happening... I'm trying not to focus... So much I want to say and so much I want to do... Feel restricted...
Best Gift Ever! in Hello
Christmas was fun. Did the breakfast thing with the family, took a bunch of silly Christmas-y photos with Krystal Christmas Eve when we got off work. She got me a Dead Kennedys "DK" shirt as wel...
The Wind Blows Cold On My Spine in Hello
I've been sick since last Monday. A pretty bad cold. Starting to feel better, I suppose. I'd like to check my grades for this semester online but my teachers suck and don't know how to post t...
Say Wha... in Hello
I'm still here. Have had Krystal with me a lot of nights and have stayed away from the computer. Proper entry coming soon. All my Christmas shopping is done.
