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I don’t know how I ended up in such a negative state today but I feel utterly pathetic, uninspired, and not hopeful. I was shaking in anxiety this morning before class and during my first couple ...
No Respect feeling Pathetic
I don’t fucking know what’s wrong with me. I feel completely and utterly spineless. My 1st period of 9th graders were nearly bored to death by my teaching and had no fucking respect. Evelyn ran a...
Worthless
I feel completely and utterly worthless. I feel incompetent with my ability to do my work, my social skills and my self connectedness. I’m the biggest loner at work especially today. I can’t brin...
My strange addiction
I’m sad because I want to be productive but my body just doesn’t agree with me. My afternoons are free at work to plan and prepare for the next but today 3/15/23 I played sudoku from 11:30 to nea...
Highs and Lows
Algebra 1A was total ass this morning, they were completely unproductive, I had an escape room where each group took the entire period to not even finish their 1 escape room activity. I should’ve...
Doubts
I have doubts about every choice and decision I make each day. Whether it’s listening to a certain song, making big work decisions and everything in between. I’m not gonna know for sure what I tr...
Not happy
I hate myself. That’s the only authentic thought coming to me. I’m never sure of anything that comes to my head. I don’t know if it’s authentic, I don’t know if I truly believe it. I’m never gonn...
Disconnected from Self
Title says everything. I don’t know how to write, I don’t know how to be with my thoughts. Last night I did a meditation that Shea send me to trigger my anxiety and learn the sensation in my body...
Sleep deprived with drive
Somehow being depressed last night, while chronically procrastinating with sudoku and getting x<6 hours of sleep without much sustenance last night has brought me to today with teacher rizz. ...
Line Dancing
I can’t help but to hate the fact that I feel like I’m not in my thoughts and I cannot hear my authentic inner voice. I know I have opinions and thoughts of the world but when I interact with it ...
Scrambled Egg brain
I had some pretty intense anxiety yesterday and this morning during 1st period. Last night I was just tired and wasn’t sure weather I should work out even with all the work that I still needed to...
Linear equation word problems
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2/25
Look up Aus surv episode and YouTube
2/25
Browse YouTube on Asaf before studying
2/25
Survivor reddit, creative gameplay
2/24
Go on Reddit to look up how to keep goals
2/24/23
To see if stairs help leg growth
2/24/23
Work on CST Practice
Book Description
So I can keep track of and surf the internet with intention
