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The work I do
I really can’t depend on my knowledge to show up for me. It’s super frustrating when I know wth I’m talking about but I get jumbled up in my own thoughts and words. People notice I close my eyes ...
The Feels
I’ve been put on a new medication. It’s supposed to help with anxiety but not like a benzo or anything. But since I just started it on Monday, I’ve been wondering how best to balance the informat...
Part 2
Question 2. What are your critical inner voices about sex? Oh, now this is a good question. There is a whole audience of critical voices that erupt whenever my sexuality (or whatever the hell it ...
Another Prompt For Something... Different
And now we’re going for something entirely different, something deviating far from the career path that was the last entry in this book. We’re getting personal with sexuality. My therapist recom...
Pool of Mercury
What to do in life? What to do besides sit in this mass collective chaos and scream into the abyss that reflects only the darkness within me? The storm dissipates if only to rear itself again in ...
I Got A Job Offer... But Why Am I Sad?
I’ve been feigning since Friday about my emotions regarding a job offer I got officially on Friday. I’ve been mulling about and staring at it, wondering if I should take it. It’ll mean that I hav...
Childhood Review: Abridged
Part of the journey to open me up as one other person recommended was to do a childhood review, keeping these 3 questions in mind: Was I accepted? What was expected of me? What behaviors + emoti...
3 Questions
I’m now delving into shadow work before I officially start my day, seeing as I’ve been in a depression bout for about 2 days now. My partner keeps telling me that I’ve hurt her in one way or anot...
My Weary Feet
I started out this morning trying to craft the perfect lie. I hadn’t slept at all, anticipating the early alarm to sound and rouse me most abruptly if sleep should have come. However, sleep evade...
Chapter 1
I made the decision to start the journey out of this hurricane. In the midst of this hell-borne fury, I stomp against the lashing winds. My arms try to protect my face from the onslaught of debri...
Book Description
As the storm whirls around me, no choice grants me the simple peace of knowing that the rain has stopped, the winds have died down, and the dark clouds have disappeared. Others know this pleasure as they exit through the parted seas into peace, yet here I stay. The tempest outside this lonely isle takes me from time to time, yet when I try to find the footsteps of those before me that have survived, I find only the torn shingle, the abandoned car, or something just as useless to guide me. How do I get out of the eye of this storm? How do I find my way to what others have called “home”? Home… a fable to me, a legend.
Yet here I walk to find El Dorado, amidst nature’s fury to bind me hence. This hurricane cannot hold me any longer.
