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Snowspangled

by novelistbynite

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March 13, 2020

Digital Letdown

Unlike the old, (crappy) tune about the digital getdown, which was definitely not a clean concept, I am experiencing digital letdown. I hate the sudden switch to online classes. I hate the brok...


I should, but I won’t, tell my psychiatrist crap because she always threatens to hospitalize me but 1 - she never does it, and 2 - I don’t have time for that bullshit. I have trouble getting yo...


March 09, 2020

Probably whining.

So. Do you remember last week’s drama? I’m not gonna forget it anytime soon, for sure. The short form is that the damn bitch child of the roommate that doesn’t speak to me has told a CPS worke...


So, puzzling turns of events. No, still married to Dickface, and he’s still clueless. His latest thing is wandering around asking me what he DID. Because he treats me FINE. Because this used ...


February 20, 2020

To do list from hell

I keep looking at what it would take to finish school with both majors. I still want both…even though I know the writing one could be sacrificed. It does me no good, I know it. I love it anywa...


February 18, 2020

Turn and face the strange

If I had my life to do over, and I knew everything I know now, I would have applied to university from high school. I was afraid I’d get in and not be able to afford it, and basically get laughe...


February 15, 2020

Dancing with Myself

I kind of win the bet I made with you guys about whether he would remember Valentine’s. Technically he did remember, but at 12:27 am, so it wasn’t Valentine’s anymore. But still so early he pro...


February 13, 2020

What a day to explore eyeliner

So I tried out that makeup I bought today. It was a bad idea. I just can’t seem to stop crying it off. I’m okay, though. Good as I ever get. I shouldn’t be crying. Other than that time I miss...


February 11, 2020

The three cubed ring circus

Well, the journal-y people call it their “level 10 life” but mine is completely failed, so it’s really just a circus. There are monkeys. Family and friends: Actively avoiding about 50% of my s...


February 08, 2020

Hopscotch

It’s the weekend. Kind of like a restart. Except you still have ten million things you didn’t do last week hanging over your head. I’m peeved at my husband. (This is not new.) Today’s crime: ...


February 08, 2020

Locke and Key

No, no spoilers. That’d be rude. I’m just sitting here thinking, “jeez, this is the shit I loved eight, nine years ago…” and wondering if somehow I am one of those mystical unicorn indie kids wh...


Because it’s not a wonderful thing. No, seriously. All that hearts and flowers business is bull. Love is really about saying “hey, here’s the one special person who can rip my heart right out ...


January 18, 2020

Been awhile

It has. It has been awhile. This is for a lot of reasons, most of them bundled up with my fun combination of rage, despair, learned helplessness, and sheer avoidance. Talking about shit ain’t ...


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January 2020