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I am not very good at healthy coping skills. I deal with things the way I deal with them and then completely explode in anger whenever someone questions my techniques. I’m not very good at taking...

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As I finished watching a series that I ended up loving (despite everyone hating it) called HIStory4: Close To You, there was a character that popped up that I hadn’t even remembered existed until...

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There was one question that hung in my head in the middle of the night: Why am I doing this? My initial reason for going to Thailand doesn’t exist anymore yet here I am still chugging ahead. Why?...

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The trip with my mother was exactly what I expected it to be. Which was fine. She’s bigoted and racist and extremely transphobic, but she doesn’t think she is because she’s a good Christian woman...

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This whole situation is super stressful, and I have to do it all myself. I don’t have to do it all myself, but the truth is, there’s no one else I trust to really help me with it. We finally reac...

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So this is basically an update on what happened in my entries from last year called “Spinning” and “Falling Off That High Horse”.... which means I finally got to see Richard. It was his graduatio...

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With the clock ticking, I realized after a recent night out that I’m somewhat out of step with city life, having been locked into this dreary suburb for the last five years. It’s not that I don’t...

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I’ve been around long enough now to know that when something really really great happens, something supremely shitty is just around the corner. The universe just has to balance the fucking scales...

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I know it’s been a while but that’s mainly because I’ve spent the last month going through the trial period for the medication meant to treat my disorder. Let me tell you how different I feel. It...

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This past week I’ve been home sick and it was not good. But an amazing thing happened… at least, I think it’s amazing, too many people seem to think it’s rather morbid, but whatever, Halloween ba...

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I know I say this every year but I just need to reiterate how much I fucking hate Christmas. It’s like a poison. One of my life goals is to move to a part of the world that doesn’t celebrate Chri...

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So I decided I’d follow Matt’s lead and do another video… but I had a lot to cover so this is a long one and I apologize. But I got sidetracked and didn’t have time to edit it down or record mult...

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Weird Thanksgiving, quite messy, but lots of fun. It was difficult being around so many people, and while I did have the usual wishing I was more social, I finally found myself just accepting it ...

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I know it’s been a while, but in my defense, I was working three jobs during October and then spent the first half of November trying to fix my fucked up sleep schedule. Also trying to avoid dram...

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For some reason, I’m still a big believer in fate and that the right people and things will come to me… but not just come to me, but return to me. The trip to San Diego was a product of that arch...

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A unique opportunity came up on Sunday evening, as I reeled from the fact that a fire hydrant exploded in front of my place and threatened me with flood (I did say I wanted to get rid of most of ...

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The situation with my father has gotten rather dire. He spent 7 months of the year in a rehabilitation center, however, he left before he completed the program due to it being shut down by COVID....

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I know I’ve written about this before… well, I don’t know, it just feels like something I’ve bitched about before, but I just cannot believe it. I find it absolutely astonishing because I’d never...

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I hadn’t seen Richard since February. We talk at least three times a week, I even got him hooked on a few Thai dramas that I’d been watching, and he’s laughably been trying to keep up with all of...

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There are times when I really hate social media. As I was perusing through the little stories feature of people I follow, I happened upon my ex’s sister and she shared a photo from a post that fe...

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I haven’t written because we’re back in lockdown, and really, how much can I write about the amount of television I watch? If my life was dull before quarantine, during quarantine it’s become the...

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Remember how I used the word “irrational” in the title of the last entry? It seemed to be self-fulfilling prophecy. As it got down to the wire, he never actually messaged me back so I was left wi...

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So next week I’m going on vacation to Palm Springs. I have spent the entirety of quarantine listening to my poisonous mother and her down-home brand of psychotic bigotry. I know, fleeing to the ...

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So I was going to write something else but Saturday evening, Richard called me in tears. I’ve known Richard since 2004 and I could probably count on one hand the amount of times I’ve seen him cry...

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Hi y’all! Sorry, I have been missing, but I have an explanation. For the last several years, my computer screen has been cracked and broken. I have only had half the screen since it broke, but it...

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