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The Napkin.

by Timmy™

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June 14, 2021

It's just a menu.

When you notice an attractive age-appropriate mother and daughter and you’re seriously not sure who you are supposed to be attracted to. When you get old enough to have back pain, these things ha...


June 12, 2021

I wash my epidermis.

I’ll consider this the better end of depression considering I’m back up to three showers a day. Post-sleep, post-gym, post-work. As opposed to feeling so bad mentally that I can’t find the stren...


Ever go outside and feel like someone is throwing salt into your eyes? That’s my life now. Indoors isn’t much easier. Eyes weren’t that bad last month. Definitely not THIS bad. Sobriety is sup...


June 06, 2021

Cautious Optimism.

Fifth day of workies in a row. Fourth doing my actual job. Today marks no occurrences of blistering anxiety. No, that’s not the right wording. It’s a feeling where you COULD have a panic attack...


June 02, 2021

Xenophobia.

No idea if pre-anxiety is a thing. I was in good spirits this morning. Energetic isn’t really the word, more like drive. “Oh, I’ll do this, okay then this, don’t forget this.” It’s rare I bo...


June 01, 2021

It's either the shirt

or the coin. Every time I wear this shirt, I get a job offer. I was actually offered a higher wage than I expected. Talk about me underselling myself internally. While I’m sure anxiety will h...


May 31, 2021

Galloping Abz.

I never fail to be amused by this. Maybe my true calling was bad erotica…


May 31, 2021

Short Interviews.

Are a really good sign or a really bad sign. In this case, the former. While I was wearing my lucky interview shirt (seriously have always gotten an offer while wearing it), I’m curious whether ...


Good gas mileage. Been tracking the mileage for my 2008 Honda Fit since I got her. Averages around 33 mpg. Only dips below 30 mpg in the winter. Or if my driving is mostly residential. And des...


Ah, fetlife. I can’t be bothered to indulge these ladies, but gosh. I believe this is filed under “I don’t fuck dumb chicks”. Her message: “Do u by chance wanna buy number or snap I rlly lik...


May 18, 2021

Spellcheck.

If you type “prolly” rather than “probably”, I am so judging you. #grammarlivesmatter And yes, if your punctuation is off, I’m judging you. And YES, if you point out I’ve made an error, I’ll usu...


May 17, 2021

Inertia.

I almost miss feeling anxious. At least when I was, I was motivated to avoid that active feeling. Now, I get the same feeling from staring at a wall as I do from “actual” stimulation. Haven’t b...


May 16, 2021

Stagnation.

When I joked I was replacing alcohol with chocolate, I didn’t think it would be so literal. Past few days I’ve been back to one meal a day. Ooops. And damn it. I’m still playing Left4Dead and S...


May 10, 2021

Hello Kitty.

So I was eating my pasta bean lunch at the table when I got oddly sad. I happened to have a set of Hello Kitty plates and bowls. Because I’m ridiculous like that. I know I had to have gotten th...


May 06, 2021

Humbug.

I do not understand those who can spend an inordinate amount of time searching and applying for jobs. I just spent three hours applying to one posted two days ago, AND IT’S ALREADY FILLED. I th...


May 06, 2021

Still here, still sad.

Yesterday was another: I did everything I could, everything right, and when it was 9PM, time to zone out or zone into some entertainment - I couldn’t. I got anxious for a few hours, making bedt...


April 22, 2021

Quiet.

Okay, metal is playing, whatever. Another day, still sad. Spent yesterday cleaning to distract myself. As, nothing particularly pleasant really resonated with me. In a headspace where I’m afr...


April 20, 2021

OMG TEH WEED.

Oh, please. I can’t eyeroll enough. There are people with legitimate medical needs, and then there’s this LOOK AT ME, I’M TREADY AND JUMPING ON THE WEED BANDWAGON. Some of you sound like a tee...


April 17, 2021

Everybody Dance Now.

When I changed the attribute of virginity* on my character sheet, I made sure Led Zeppelin was playing. Specifically, the B-side to Physical Graffiti. This was entirely intentional. I’m a bit ...


April 15, 2021

Recede.

Again, my right eye is failing me. This is getting very, very old. All this wonkiness started three years ago. I’m trying to remember if it was left-right-left, then right again. Tended to go...


April 13, 2021

Mah eyes.

I never developed allergies until I moved south of the Mason-Dixon Line.


April 12, 2021

Dip.

I’ve had a good two weeks. Better moods tend to correlate with a drop in writing, I have noticed. (Though, really bad moods can also correlate with a drop in writing, as well. Ah, that sweet s...


March 23, 2021

Unwritten Entries.

Don’t know about you, but I have so many. I’m the mad scientist who scribbles on pieces of paper to remind myself. Sometimes I get around to fleshing the idea out. Sometimes not. Sometimes it...


February 14, 2021

Oh, Airk.

He amuses me. Sometimes I’ll be scrolling down my Book of Faces page and see him cursing out his Senator or Congressman. Just scathing “DO YOUR JOB, YOU F** JACKOFF.” Well, sans caps. You don’t...


February 12, 2021

Want some pizza?

What. I feel like hell. Mikey is offering you some pizza. WANT SOME PIZZA.


Book Description

Off-hand thoughts which I won’t organize as well. But feel safe to share.