The Napkin.

by Timmy™

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January 05, 2024

I am getting out of bed.

Not a declaration or mission statement. Just an annotation. I’ve had patches where I haven’t wanted to get out of bed at all. Whether exhaustion or just not wanting to face the day. My ridicul...

December 21, 2023

Lifting Wisdom.

If it’s easy on paper, prove it. If it feels difficult, practice until it becomes easier. No idea if this generalizes. It uh. Makes sense in my head.

October 24, 2023

Hey Blinkin.

So. I’m heading into my neighborhood Walmart. I seem to get the attention of some middle school boys. One asks “Excuse me, sir, are you Abe Lincoln?” Still walking, I smile and say, “Not today.” ...

August 12, 2023

Friends, Interrupted.

Watching Girl, Interrupted for the first time. When did that come out, 25 years ago? Fascinating how so many of my girl friends identified with that movie. It’s clear they didn’t mean it literall...

May 10, 2023

Show, don't tell.

When I was in third grade, I was sent to Mrs. Green’s room. I didn’t understand at the time. I had issues reading. Understanding. I don’t remember what we collectively were supposed to learn. I d...

Interesting dream. One of my earlier ones, so there wasn’t much visual. There are times when you might think if you do nothing, nothing will happen. However, we’re like a piece of raw chicken in ...

April 19, 2023

Fences belong outside.

I never learned how to do 5th grade insults. I find them confusing and I never know how to reply. And it’s frustrating when I get upset and reply with anger, only to be told “you can’t get upse...

April 16, 2023


Having some time on my hands has lent itself to some self-reflection. For months, I’ve felt like all I was doing was lifting, eating, working, and sleeping. And not enjoying my days off at all....

So, for months now, the front end of Clarissa has been falling off. At some point a few months ago, I openned the hood to troubleshoot. See those holes I circled? There was a black washerplug...

Gotta love a good dream sequence. It’s as if I’m laying in bed in my old childhood bedroom. I’m under the covers, pretending to sleep. I’m hearing my parents argue. My dad’s upset I left some ...

What would Worf do? I softly joke that my three dad’s growing up were weird al, spock, and the Fonz. It’s...... I am Tim, son of… It never occurred to me previously. I am my mom’s son. I live to ...

Slept in until noon. This isn’t anything special for a day off - I sleep in until noon even when I have workies. (What’s 2-12, second shift?) Punch line is I still wake up at dawn, around 6-7am...

March 25, 2023

Burning Sensation.

In theory, I like the rain. It’s calming. Yet all week, I’ve been kind of off. Emotionally flat. Sad, lonely, not getting much excitement from life. Or, just not okay being bored existing. Some p...

March 16, 2023

Educational Opportunity.

We’re supposed to hang out tomorrow so I can help her with her math GED. I’m excited and nervous, as it’s our first socialization outside of work. Excited, because duh, I get to spend time with ...

March 05, 2023

Sleeping Alone.

I miss cuddles.

February 21, 2023

The other Three C's.

So, I asked workcrush the very coded question of, “Is your husband threatened by me at all. Ya know, a guy being nice to you, buying you gifts.” She replies, “oh no, he adores you.” Well, you can...

February 18, 2023

Special Delivery!

So. My gift to workcrush came. And I can’t stop laughing. Get it? Super visor? JUST LIKE HER.

So I’ve clocked in barely five seconds, and workcrush comes up to me, telling me about her tampon. Apparently, co-manager punched her in just the right spot to cause her vagina 5o sneeze out the ...

January 31, 2023

What is okay?

Age lines are evolving things. I’m glad that, as I get older, I have this block on younger women. As it should be, to a degree. Yet, with rounding. If I’m pushing 40, and someone was pushing 20 ...

January 03, 2023

Kill me.

I slept 13 hours again. This is getting old. Robo and DayQuil did the trick in belaying the coughing but still. (Store was out of NyQuil - and I’m not having issues sleeping, so to speak.) I’m so...

January 02, 2023

I miss cuddles.

Did get to the gym. Did Taco Bell. But gosh, I’m so tired. I still have a lingering cough. So while I’m sleeping a lot, yeah, rolling over and coughing sucks. It’s that dry cough that can’t scrat...

January 02, 2023

Maybe tomorrow.

Plan: Sleep in, hit my next workout, have some Taco Bell. Reality: Covered a shift and red-lined my sanity.

December 24, 2022

You know you do it.

I weighed 185 lbs. I commenced with elimination procedures. Now I weigh 184.6 lbs. I am now .2% less full of shite!

December 24, 2022

La la la la la.

There’s nothing on Netflix to watch. But there’s Daria on P+. Oh sure, there’s Star Trek. But Daria. Excuse me. Also, “My goal is not to wake up at forty with the bitter realization that I’ve w...

December 22, 2022

Today's Quote.

“I wish my dreams and aspirations were as big as Tim’s whipped cream.” - workcrush Haha. Even on context, it’s a bizarre statement. She knows I pick up on anything suggestive. It’s like a game to...

Book Description

Off-hand thoughts which I won’t organize as well. But feel safe to share.