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I’m probably going to start quietly writing on my google blog thing again. I think I don’t need to disconnect my entries from my real life anymore.

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Nope. Not worth it. And the fact remains that if I Go, you won’t even know.

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True to my promise to myself, I’ve been in the real world. When I wasn’t asleep, that is. No mental wandering into my internal story. No seeking out the escapism of my fantasy. You see, everyone ...

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I’ve made it through 45 years. This is the first day I am officially one year older than my mom was when she died. Three people made the effort to wish me a happy birthday without me noting it wa...

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I’m about 2 days away from my birthday and I don’t feel any of the usual grief I have for many years. Especially since I am entering a new form category. (30-44, 45-60, etc.) I should be wallowin...

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How to stop worrying. Things are going down and I can’t change anything right now. I have plans, but for the most part, things remain static for me, now, and here. This region hasn’t changed at a...

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The lie that humans have roles in life to play is the one I held onto the longest. My failure to achieve some grand destiny I should have has made me depressed too often. I know this is a lie now...

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For the first time in a long time, it’s the evening, and it’s completely quiet. Like the middle of the night quiet. I feel like time stopped. I could live with this. I know it won’t last long. Th...

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Shitty night at work was shitty. Wrote it out over yonder. I am still over-caffeinated. Not feeling fond of people after dealing with customers who are just miserable people taking their misery o...

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Years went by when I hadn’t had the experience, education, immersion in other people’s experiences to understand what I was saying was wrong. There were times I questioned things, but I had a gui...

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