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I'm Around
But I’m taking a break from things for a while. Peace y’all.
The Fires Of Mordor
Burn in my gut right now. Nachos for dinner and now the jalapenos are not agreeing with me. I messed up again. With all that I’ve gone through lately I got very clingy to my FWB. I REALLY didn’t...
Sunday Funerals
Today is the funerals for both cousins. It’s going to be a difficult day. Thank you everyone whom offered their condokences and asking me if I’m okay. I am, really. This happens every few month...
When It Rains It Pours...
My cousin who killed himself yesterday…his mom gave up. She died in the hospital a little while ago. Can this week be over already? My mom is taking it very hard right now. They grew up together....
And Now I Feel Selfish
My cousin Stevie called my mom’s phone a little before six AM this morning. He went on about getting his mother into an assisted living facility. She’s in her late sixties and in bad health. S...
That Moment
When you’re bored as hell but don’t feel like doing anything. I’d like to take a moment and thank everyone for their kind words while I’ve been on this rollercoaster from hell of emotions. I’m n...
My Dark Lord And Master Satan
Please watch over me…
Join Me In The March Of The Disillusioned!
Had another interview today. Not quite sure how it went. 😝
And Now For Something Completely Different
I also managed to pull a muscle in my left shoulder blade rearranging furniture over the last two days. I hurt…
Damnit Quit Itching!!!
Saw my regular physician yesterday and got the staples removed. He even told me if I’m feeling down like that come see him. Real cool guy. But now that it’s healing I wanna naw my arm off. Als...
I Love Her
Had a mania episode last night. Mom stayed up and held me till I finally calmed down enough to sleep. Then I discover this song tonight. I’m so thankful I have her.
Enquiring Minds Want To Know
A few notes from last entry wanted to know why I was let go. A rumor got started that I slept on the job and that I’m a pedophile. The sleeping one made me laugh but being called a pedo? No, ju...
Back To The Drawing Board
Fired Friday. Drunk since then.. Carved up both wrist tonight. Fuck ‘Em.
Good Things Come To Those Who Wait
Man, what a Saturday. Woke up feeling stuffy at 12:30 but still went out for lunch. Made it to the park but the friend I was going to meet up with still wasn’t done with her errands. I came h...
Surprise Surprise
I’m sober on a Friday night/Saturday morning. Normally by now I’d be four Guinness and half a liter of bourbon in cussing the PS4 or watching 90’s rock videos YouTube. Not tonight. Made plans ...
Not Tonight, Boo Boo
I woke up on the cynical side of the bed this afternoon. Got a full two hours of sleep, go me! Been a shit show since I got to work. Super tired, I was greeted with the first shift guy bitchin...
Mirror, Mirror On The Ceiling
All In The Family is on. Today, Tuesday, I finally saw my counselor. Pushed back once because I had the flu and once again but she had new baby issues. Well, Dr. Gilbert didn’t tell her about...
Mar-Vell
Went to see Captain Marvel Sunday night. I find Brie Lawson adorable but also a hardcore badass in the flick. Really liked it. Two things that tickles me: 1. Stan Lee’s last cameo is of himsel...
My Throats' On Fire
Mom and I went out to celebrate getting the charge dropped. Went to Po Boy Factory and had the combo platter. Lightly breaded shrimp, oysters and one filet of catfish with cajun seasoned fries. ...
Cost Me 4 Grand But Worth It!
My lawyer called me this afternoon and left me a voicemail. When I called him back I got great news. No court tomorrow. His exact words, “It’s over and done with.” FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!! I FOUGHT TH...
Fuck You I'm Drunk
I’m shaved. Susit washing. Intoxicated Court Thursday. Lwave me be.
Survey
Smokey is sound asleep in my lap, man he’s warm. Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? Last I heard she became a truck stop prostitute. I know how to pick ‘em. What would...
Patrick Swayze Was A Sexy Beast
Point Break is on. Almost over with. First time watching it all the way through, actually. Good flick. I have done nothing this weekend but rested and gamed. While not physically demanding my...
Fuck I Miss Him 4
Pull My Trigger, I Am Bigger Than...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
