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Four AM Non-Schweady
Ended up passing out before six PM and slept straight till almost two AM. Ended up going to Waffle House for food. I’m stiff all over and sore. And still very tired… Edit: Dozed off for abo...
Four AM Schweady (Update)
I’ve been slowly deep cleaning the pantry for the last two hours. Taking a smoke break. All that’s left is scrape up the accumulated and hardened flour/sugar combo in the corners, mop the floor...
There Was Work To Do
And I needed all of me to be on the same page to get it done. I’d been hurt. But even hurt, I wasn’t weak. I’d suffered loss. But in losing, I hadn’t become less. Pain had subsumed me in fire...
Late Night Non-Taco Bell
5:01 AM I was going to mow the lawn when I got up but that never happened as I was still physically beat from deep cleaning the night before. Kimberly (Catty Shack) messaged me today with a pi...
Itchy As Always
Deep cleaned the entertainment center So many VHS tapes! Some are from Christmastime from the ‘90’s. I know the VCR still works. Maybe one day. I’m off to take a scalding shower. All that d...
I Tell People I'm Just Tired
When I’m depressed. Today Kimberly came back by and I was able to snatch up Ginger and the babies and said goodbye. They’re going to better homes. Still, with all that’s happened in the last...
6:06 AM
I want to personally thank the two PB’ers who stayed up talking to me Monday night to make sure I didn’t do anything brash. If I was still a drinking man I guarantee I would have hurt myself an...
RIP Snowball
When backing out of the driveway and into the street I accidentally ran over one of my strays. He limped over to the neighbor’s yard and fell over dead. I jumped out of the car, picked him up a...
Left Her In The Dust As He Sold His Soul
Wrote an entry earlier. Twas nonsense. Deleted it. Seven hundred days sober! 🧙♂️
You Coulda Just Bought It By Now?
Cashed in 32K Marlboro points for a drone with a 1080p camera. It’s only one-hundred points per pack of cigarettes. By the time I smoked enough to get that many I’m sure I could have purchas...
What Didja Expect?
It was Friday. They waited till the markets closed, as usual. Then suddenly…Israel begins it’s nonsense with our backing 100%. It’s only Saturday.
🖖 Live Long And Prosper 🖖
Picked up the Blu-ray set of the Star Trek original cast films. Just finished part five. The writing in it was stellar. I need my pain! -Capt. James T. Kirk One more film to go.
Where I've Been...
Coming to terms with mortality. When Mom speaks of her grandfather’s farm, I stop what I’m doing to listen. We go to Walmart not to purchase anything but so she can get out of the house and get ...
43 For Me
Today is my birthday. Mom and I went to the Alabama Music Hall of Fame. Small but chock full of items. I’m still here, just processing some things. Takes time.
Protection For Me, Not For Thee
I discovered this channel last April or May. Anytime there is a new upload I’m there.
The Smartest Man On The Cinder
Fifteen Million Plastic Bags Written by Adrian Mitchell I was walking in a government warehouse Where the daylight never goes. I saw fifteen million plastic bags Hanging in a thousand rows. F...
Real Fear
Gather ‘round the campfire. Song-A-Long time kiddies! There’s so many of us There’s so many of us There’s so many There’s so many of us There’s so many of us There’s so many Let’s have a...
Happy New Year!
Come on boys and girls, song along, okay? We’re all immigrants and hypocrites Delusionals and sycophants We pretend to play a special part And born in pain we fall apart It’s the same game ...
*catchy music*
“I’ve experiments to run There is research to be done On the people who are still alive And believe me, I am still alive” -GLaDOS Got the license reinstated after $327.50. Guess I can stop loo...
I Just Want You To Know That I Don't Hate You Anymore
There is nothing I can say that I haven’t thought before. Serve The Servants - Nirvana R.I.P. Dad Dec. 19, 1948 - Oct. 25th, 1999 As I’ve matured I know now he was just another scared person ...
Woe Is Me
Sooo, yesterday I had meatloaf at a local restaurant. It was delicious but it gave me heartburn something fierce. Then, like a dumbass, I had a burrito from the taco truck I costed in salsa ve...
A Ballerina Vampire
Just watched Abigail. Modern classic of a vampire film! Alisha Weir did a phenomenal job in the title role. She was down right scary! Scared the crap outta mom lol Good watch for the season. ...
Better Tidings (Sort Of)
Boy o boy I’m sore. The Ghost Walk was Sunday. Lots of walking. Mom’s stubbornness has cost her She fell four times (absolutely refusing to leave until the last.) She’s in pain… And folks were...
Non-Fiction Can Be Fun
Yesterday I chauffeured mom and aunt around for the yearly birthday lunch/thrift store excursion. I mostly stayed on the Hoopla app since my e-book returned today. Today the sun was warm and...
My Knees!
Took mom to the Aquatics Center today for adult swim. My eyes are still burning slightly from the chlorine (even after a shower and eye drops) and sweet baby Jesus my knees feel worn out. I h...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
