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“the most important decision any human being has to make is whether they live in a friendly or hostile universe” Albert Einstein I love this man! I’ll probably watch this a few times.

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I just had a rude awakening. First of all, I apparently needed 11 hours of sleep. I was running on three hours of sleep yesterday. I had a migraine all day. I don’t know if that was the meds or l...

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I wrote a complete list of things that I have been avoiding. From big things like dealing with my financial crisis to little things like putting air in my tires. I suppose that this list will be ...

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I’m officially medicated. I caved and I started my prescription last night. I’m relatable again. I don’t know how I feel today about anything. I’m not blaming the meds, it’s too soon for that. I ...

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Took a long hard look at my life Lost my way while I was fighting the time A big black cloud, stormy sky Followed me, oh I was living a lie So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness When all your ...

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Mel Robbin’s says I should ask the question What happened to me? Well, I thought that getting a dumb job was going to be easy because my resume is dope. I procrastinated because I am struggling t...

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All hell broke loose in my mind this morning. Everything I’ve been holding back just went supernova, yet again! My anxiety attacks are getting worse. My sister was trying to help calm me down ear...

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Do you think 19 panic attacks a day is normal? I hit a point the other day when I thought I was having a heart attack because my chest was so tight. I spent the last few days hiding in a video ga...

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I was up early so I got a head start on my morning and I didn’t give myself enough time to overthink or hesitate about leaving the house. I got my energy and vibrations up and I headed to the gro...

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It’s 4:30 in the morning and I’m writing this entry because my reality is a little broken at the moment. I know that I’m awake but my head does not know if I am real. This does not feel real. I w...

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According to Mel Robbins, I need to recognize my initial physical reaction to fear so that I can recognize when I need to assert control. For me, it’s in my chest. My heart will drop and then sta...

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Psychosis? Or spiritual awakening? I kept myself up until four in the morning because I could not turn my brain off. I haven’t filled my prescription yet that my doctor gave me. It doesn’t feel r...

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A fire was lit under my ass after Vita fell through. It didn’t fall through completely, the one in my old neighbourhood is hiring and I just emailed them my resume. Due to that falling through I ...

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I am trying so hard to be calm right now. My hands are just shaking right now. Did I have too much coffee? Is it because I fell asleep hungry and then woke up hungry and then waited six hours bef...

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Every time that I think I am over it something happens and all of my scars open. The indignities and injustices that we all suffered when I reported that predator from my last place of employment...

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I’m a stranger in my own life I don’t know how else to describe what I’ve been feeling like these last few weeks. These lyrics came on right when I started my car and I was like… yes. That’s it. ...

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My mind keeps trying to tell me lies that Vita will not hire me because of this or that. I won’t let it. I’m going to call them today. The manager didn’t get in until noon yesterday so I will wai...

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I woke up pretty determined about not thinking too big today. To just think about the next steps. To not think about my problems but to think about my solutions and to be excited about all of the...

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In the last three years, I’ve saved 4, 413, 714 litres of water 2968 sqm of forest 1060 animal lives 19186 kg of grain 9646 kg of Co2

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I don’t think wine and I can friends. I figured that I would treat myself and buy some the other day and it did not serve me well. My depression was crippling me yesterday. I think that the wine ...

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Christina Lopes, from YouTube, was able to help break down my experience here so beautifully with these six stages. I’ve mansplained them down a bit. I am so happy that I stumbled on to this. I f...

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When your body needs water what do you feel? Thirsty. When your body needs sustenance what do you feel? Hungry. When your body needs sleep what do you feel? Tired. When you need to grow what do y...

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I was completely crushed by my A&D yesterday. They both hit me at once. I remembered what RuPaul said in an interview when he was asked if there was one thing that he could say to kids today ...

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It finally sunk in that Miranda & her addict boyfriend used my name to create a hydro account at their last house. Hydro is slang, that’s what we call an electric bill in my part of the world...

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I think that I need to ease up on myself. I feel as though I am supposed to solve all of my problems overnight. I’m rumbling with a lot of emotions and old habits and this process can take time. ...

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